for all you douche bags out there you know who you are!
F?UCK OFF!
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| who am i really? That's the ? that i deal with everyday...finding who i am or discovering new things that change my life entirely or just for a brief moment...everyone has these premonitions...they just fail to recognize....everymorning its the same old same old getting up in the middle of the day and just letting it fade away; staying up at all hours of the nite cuz i can't get any sleep im always the last one to go to bed....i hate routines im always striving for something different y? because having a routine just makes the day and life pass by depressingly....and i mean that in a bad way.....when i was younger i always wanted to be a cop don't know why i guess i always wanted to catch the bad guys do some good; i've always wanted to be a chef because i absolutley love cooking...yes that's right i know my way around the kitchen....now after i've seen through my eyes....its all changed....and keeps on changing one day its being a professor the next is moving to wakiki and opening up my own surf shop! yeah soon some day i'll retire there! lol....but today its the same....i get up and hop online check email go to all my dating rating and chatting sites and see whos left me messages and nice ratings...pssh im can give a rats ass about the ratins i'm more into meeting new ppl ANYWHERE...the sad thing is that when i do chat and we do make a connection they're 200miles or soo away and its not close by it sucks really...i have a social life but it's the ppl around me that bring me down....yes party poopers; religious ppl; lame ppl; insipid ppl; prudes; ecetera and it blows ass....i'm always up for new things no matter what time of day or during the week it is....if its 3 am then its time for ihop or dennys or mmmm cafe brazil! they're ok.....new tastes; new ideas; new music; new philosophy; its all that i want and endure in life.....yeah yeah i cant forget friends my mate best friend joe! yes he's taught me alot.....opened my third eye and showed me that theres more than just 14 shades of grey! and its helped i mean i'm a better person for it and i thank him....i havent lost faith yet....yet i still wonder....i'm not a religious man but yet i still believe in a diety....yes deity means a god or a greater being than yourself....if it wasn't for god, my step mom, and music....i'd be dead in a ditch right now not typing this....i guess i didn't lose hope and faith entirely! the things i do everyday or try for the first time is my own deal....i have a brain i can say no i have a voice and know how to use it.....drugs, alcohol, sex the devils toys and i love to play with them....im always trying to face my demons and come to face with them....i dont really give a shit what everyone else thinkgs anyways until now i'll add more later.... for all you douche bags out there you know who you are! F?UCK OFF! |
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