I cant believe my life now. Its so different than it was a month ago. Before I was sleeping with guys everynight, going to parties getting drunk, even smoked a time or two.
I made some stupid decisions. I'm glad thats all changed around now though. I am now trying to commit to sexual purity until marriage. I know that I have had sex before, but it just goes to show that even I Melissa O'Mierez can be a second virgin.
Will I have trials through this commitment? Most definately. Will I try to abstain? Oh yeah. Will I stumble? I dont know. I just have to take it one day at a time, one moment at a time.
I know I can do this, even though Dave, my boyfriend of 7 months is freaking out because we haven't had sex since Valentines Day.
Hope it works,
Melissa
So today was great, I've been memorizing scripture each day. 2 Timothy 2:22 "Flee from your youthful lusts but pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace..." Okay, so Dave might be a good guy and what not, but when I'm around him there's temptation. Ya know it's like even if we just kiss, part of me wants to go farther with him. I can't trust myself, and I know that my flesh is weak, and I'll end up compromising things. So I broke it off. I feel that there's so much pressure that has been taken off me: ) Now I can concentrate more on God. This I think is God's will for me right now, to focus on Him. Not guys, not Dave. God has a perfect time for everything and God will bring the right guy (rather it be Dave or someone else) at the right time.
Finding comfort in Him,
Melissa
Its hard! I miss him! I really want him back! But I know that I am now in the hands of God and there I will remain. I hate the thought of Judgment Day, it's scary! Am I going to be judged for my actions with Dave? It is really scary that I'm going to have to stand before God and everyone is going to know that I had sex with a guy. But I think that they are already going to know because I haven't been feeling very well. I am going to go to the hospital tomorrow to take a pregnancy test! I'm scared! What if I'm pregant?!?!?!?!
God will get me thru,
Melissa
I went to the doctor yesterday and I'm pregnant! I'm scared, should I abort, adopt, keep, what? I'm scared! I dont want to tell Dave!! My mom knows and is freaking out! I mean I am only 17!
What to do,
Melissa
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