| February 27, 2003 - (Thursday) Sheesh, more snow on the horizon. We all (I believe the entire TRI-STATE area), now hates snow and the cold...Let's all say in unison, it STINKs!!!! Gosh, when it does warm up it's just great, but 3' of snow doesn't go away quickly, so the few days we had nice 30 or 40 degree weather, has created the melting, black ice that is so dangerous in the evenings. We have been back in the 20's (and lower) the past week, so it's just miserable. Ugh, I need warmth, sunshine and a cold alcoholic beverage in my hands NOW!! *lol* Eating a little better, not exercising, so what else is new. Ugh, I'm pathetic. Eating better does make me feel less like a loser, so that's a good thing. When I'm eating poorly, I can feel it in my mood that I'm doing something bad for my body, so when I am eating well, I really celebrate. I'm snacking so much less than I was, so it's fabu!!! I'm planning on going to my March post-op meeting in a few weeks. I haven't been to it in a long time. Every time it's the 2nd Tuesday of the month, I have been travelling for work, and so far, I don't have a trip planned, so I'm planning on going to it. Hope it's a good one. Maybe I'll learn something *smirk*. Nothing else up, bracing for tonight's storm, hoping we only get a few inches and it goes along it's merry way up to New England...lol...Sorry New Englanders... :) Nothing new at the shore house. We haven't been there in a few weeks, so no pictures to update. Maybe we'll go next weekend if there is something to make decisions on. Hey, on a pathetic note, anyone watching I'm A Celebrity, Get me Out of Here? It's the most pathetic show I've ever watched and I've seen really bad programs...On the same note, I'm Tivoing it everytime it's on, I know, I need a brain transplant. *lol* I guess the same person who watches Big Brother every night and on the internet has reached an all time low.... I know, I need a life and I need one quickly!!!! ackkkkkkkkkkk Oh well, that's all for now...stay warm and I'll be updating this journal again soon...till next time.. :) March 11, 2003 - (Tuesday) Not much going on here. Weather is cooperating, no snow, but still cold as all get-out! Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 50's, so that might melt the snow we still have on the ground. Ugh, I'm hating winter BIG-TIME this year and it's getting very depressing. Even going to the shore this weekend, I was like "ugh, I can't take all the mess any more". I want the construction to be over with and get new rocks, etc. so there isn't mud everywhere!!! Every place you step, it's mud, mud, mud. It's digusting. Things are looking up there. . . tile is being put on the floor this week and next week, kitchen cabinets will be installed. On 3/27, kitchen appliances and washer/dryer will be delivered, so maybe it will all be done in mid-April. Can't wait. Food-wise, I'm eating a lot of bread. Not sure anyone here goes to Panera Bread but they just opened up a store in the town next to mine and the soup and bread they have there is delish. Ugh, I'm a breadaholic. I really have to stop eating it. It's sooooo yummy!!! I remember early post-op bread was my enemy (and it still can get stuck if I don't chew well). Now I've made friends with bread and I don't like it one bit. Sooo if you are newly post-op and are having problems tolerating bread, don't force the issue, enjoy that honeymoon for as long as you can -- that demon is right around the corner...*lol* Otherwise, it's all good. I reactivated my water delivery service. I'm tired of getting all those little bottles of water, so now I just keep refilling my old water bottles and change them out every day or so...to keep things fresh. I'm thinking of going to my post-op support group tonight, so if the weather stays OK, I'm going. Other than that, still hanging in there and happy to be where I am...happy and content in the moment. Please sign my guestbook or email if you have any questions...until next time all.... March 26, 2003 - (Wednesday) Not much happening, other than having a terrible terrible cold and I'm miserable. Sneezing, coughing, blowing nose raw, etc. etc. etc. Ugh, I hate being sick and still going to work. It's hard to call in sick when you work virtual office. Went to the Dr. and have meds. Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon. I have not been updating a lot lately, not much to say. I even had my St. Patty's day page all ready but I never filled this one up, soooo much for the month of March. Weight is steady, not moving. Not that it should, I've been eating terribly. This bread obsession is just something I need to put a halt to quickly. Carbs -- they are the devil!!! *lol* I'm going to FL tomorrow on a little vacation and will be returning on Monday. I'm hoping I'm feeling better to enjoy my little getaway. Maybe I'll get my eating in gear when I return. I just wish I wouldn't sabotage my progress like this. I know, I've done this before. I continue to do bad things (eating horribly) which never enables me to achieve my overall goal of attaining my goal weight. Why am I so bad? I can taste my goal weight -- it's at arms reach. It's no longer 100+ pounds to lose, it's like 20. I'm cruel to myself. I've come this far and I'm eating bread like there's no tomorrow. I've got to stop. If I don't stop I'll hate myself in the end and never reach my goal. Ugh, things to ponder on vacation. I better get my sorry self in shape or else!!! Until next time all :) |
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