| December 18, 2002 - (Wednesday) Nothing new, getting ready for Christmas and it's coming FAST!!! Went for my 12 month post-op office visit with the surgeon today and I'm down 125 pounds. Makes me happy! My blood results that I had taken last week were not in my chart so he's got to have someone hunt them down and get them faxed to me and talk to me if there's something to talk about, but other than that, I'm good. We talked about my hernia and he said all he needs to know is when I want to take care of it and he'll do the hernia repair and call in someone for the tummy tuck and I'll be all set. Not sure if I'd have to cover the PS part of the surgery or what, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. I'm not starting any PS until I'm through losing all the weight and from what I'm thinking at least 20 pounds but hopefully 30 pounds. Wow that would be thrilling if I could get down to 150 pounds!! I guess we'll see about that, but I'm happy right where I am right now but am striving to lose at least the 20 pounds. I have to get on the stick about eating better and exercising more. I think extra exercise is what it's going to take to get this poundage outta here!!! *LOL* All's right with my small world. I'll be posting a new snap soon, as soon as it's taken...I'm a bit of a slacker on this one...not sure why....I guess I really don't look much different than I did the last few pics so why bother...but I want to finish the 12 months of losing :0) Overall, I'm pleased with my progress and I hope someone is getting something out of this journal other than me :) I'm going to start protein shakes in the morning, to supplement my eating. My protein consumption is really wanting so I'll see if that helps the weight start moving. I'll keep you posted on that situation. Other than that, I'm eating fine, not getting sick at all and I'm happy. Can't ask for more than that. I'm working next week, taking 12/31 through 1/5 off with Jack for New Year's and then I'm off again to FL 1/11 for 7 days with my Mom, sister & niece....going to WDW....lookin' forward to that. After that vacation not planning any for awhile after that one so I better enjoy this while it lasts. Not sure I'll be posting again prior to Christmas/New Year's...but if I don't have an enjoyable and safe holiday and I'll be back in the New Year.....till next time all... December 20, 2002 - (Friday) Well, all it took was a small letter from upper management to send my world crashing to a complete halt! Even though we've been receiving countless "thanks for a great year" at work letters from the entire company....my business unit sent out letters stating that there will be people impacting downsizing come the new year. I read and re-read the letter numerous times yesterday (we received it around 4:30 p.m.) and I was getting sicker and sicker about the content. By 8:00, I was hysterical crying, thinking the worst and was beyond consoling. Oh my God, it was terrible. I emailed everyone I could think of in a position of power asking "should I be afraid" "should I be hunting for a new job" and finally at 8:02 a.m. got a return email of "don't worry" from my VP. I can't tell you how relieved I was to receive that email. I have worked at this company 18 years and am way too young to retire. You have to be a certain age/years of service before you are entitled to retirement benefits and I am still too young to go and get benefits...I can't tell you how upset I was last night and still today the puffy eyes, the size of marshmallows, are the telling tale of my crying jag. I'm still in a kind of haze today after not sleeping and crying so much. Ugh, not sure it wasn't a bit hormonal with a twist of the letter that sent me on this jag but it was horrendous. Let me tell you I've got a renewed sense of "I've got to get my financial house in order so that I'm in a better position in the future if this really happens down the road"...ugh, it's terrible. I keep saying, "there for the grace of God, go I" and all these companies stating layoffs are looming is just disgusting and terrifying. I can't tell you the countless Christmas cards we've received this year stating I'm out of work, my husband's/wife's out of work, etc. etc. I'm sick over the impact of this economy. It's just not right!! I hope everyone out there in web-land has a safe and prosperous new year and hope someone wins the lottery!!! My blood results came back Ok, I'm waiting for them to fax them to me and I'll be happy to see all my numbers...it's funny I enjoy seeing all my results be in line and know I'm taking all my medications/vitamins and I'm the healthiest I've ever been in my entire life. With all I wrote about above, I can't help but thank God for the gift of this surgery and the position it's put me in. If this all had happened last year at this time, I'd have been devastated. To be 125+ pounds more than I am right now, the above news might have sent me over the top...again, something to add to the list of my most profound gratefulness...Ugh, life can certainly stink and be rejoiceful at the same time...ok all, till next time...God Bless us, everyone!!! |
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