| April 28, 2002 - (Sunday) Is it just me, or is it amazing that MAY is this week? I was thinking time was flying because I'm feeling so much better about myself and my life with the weight loss and the excitement that comes will all the positive things that have happened and how great I feel (most days). I can't say that I don't have down days, especially when I get weighed in the morning and it's more that it was the day before, etc. etc. but on the whole, I'm pretty happy. I wish the weight loss was quicker, but I have to admit, I'm not doing too shabby and have to be grateful for each and every pound that I'm not carrying around any longer!! Life is good!! Weekend was OK. Went to the shore on Thursday after work and came back Saturday evening. It was going to rain on Sunday and if anyone knows the Jersey shore, the traffic is terrible coming home on Sunday's and with the rain that was expected, could only mean a 3 hour ride home (when it should only take 1 hour, 30 mins max. with NO traffic. Soooo, we got everything we wanted to get done, I'm finished with the weed killer (I did amazingly well and fast. I guess the 80 pounds I lost might have even helped speed me up spraying the weed killer. I know last year my back KILLED with all the bending and spraying. This year, wasn't too bad!!). We are slowly but surely getting ready for the season and it's really nice to think of the summer months approaching. My eating was not fabulous over the weekend. I have got to get in more protein. I'm terrible, terrible, terrible. The only thing I'm doing religiously is drinking skim milk (approx. 16 oz. a day). After the milk, I don't have much protein....sheesh, it's really bad. I hope to start eating more tuna this week, I'm putting my mind to it, and perhaps the weight loss will speed up. Also, my exercise has been pretty much, non existent....soooooooo I have my work cut out for me, going to instill better habits this week...wish me luck!!! :) My terrible cold put a stop to my exercise and I have yet to start up again. I'm feeling fine now so I really have to begin again. Trying to think of anything else that is going on??? Hmmm, catching up on ECO-Challenge today, missed a few of them, and it's really amazing. The stamina these people show even when their feet are raw from walking and getting wet...just amazing. I just know I could never do what they are doing. Everytime they show someone's mangled feet, I have to turn away from the TV, I just cannot watch that mess. Yuck, it's disgusting!!! lol Anyway, I'll write again when I have news to report on my new leaf that I'm turning tomorrow in getting more protein into my diet and detail my exercise....ok, till next time... :) April 29, 2002 - (Monday) Went to get my blood work done today for my thyroid. Last time I got my results, my thyroid was very very low and the Dr. said to reduce my medication in half and go to retest the blood in 6 weeks, so it's time. I wonder if it's possible to be off my thyroid medication? I hope so, maybe one day I can be off my blood pressure and tyroid medication and I'd be off all prescriptions!!! WOO HOO that would be fabu!!! All I'd have to swallow then would be my vitamins and I could definitely take that!!!! Guess we'll see what the results are and rejoice and celebrate when there is something to celebrate. lol Nothing new today, work is over (thank goodness) and moving onto Tuesday. My eating plan has yet to begin, so I'm a big bag of wind!!! I'm terrible. Don't ask me why I'm terrible, I'm just an idiot. I just don't want to eat and I know I have to change. I think I'll reheat some meatballs (or one meatball rather) from dinner last night. It was yummy and went down fine. I'll also have another big glass of skim milk to get in more protein and possible a string cheese. Maybe that will get me up to 35 grams of protein for the day. Ugh, it's just soooo hard to eat as much as I'm supposed to do in a day. Is anyone else struggling to get in your protein? Am I the only one not eating enough? I just read and read and read on AMOS that people are eating so well. They go out to eat, enjoying Mexican, Italian, Chinese and I am so the opposite. I can eat a few bites of it, but certainly not enjoy a small meal. Forget a lot of meat or breads...my new little pouch rejects that type of food.I feel like such a misfit. I feel like such a failure. I feel like I'm sabotaging my losing by not eating enough, but with all the water you have to drink, there is just not enough time in the day to eat all that protein. 70-80 grams of protein is A LOT OF FOOD..!!! Ugh. I have to finish my water and then maybe I'll be OK to eat dinner at 6:00 p.m. That's all for today.....will write again when there's more to report....hope you have a great week, till next time :) |
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