| April 4, 2002 - (Thursday) I'm still sick :( I have not been at work (essentially) until today and I'm really dragging!! I really think I should call the Dr. and I guess I will, tomorrow, if I still have all this congestion, coughing and just overall yuckiness. Thank Goodness for Puffs PLUS with the lotion, or my nose would be GONE!! Ugh...so tired of being tired :( I'm up a 1/2 pound today so that's a little depressing. My water and food consumption has not been good. I can't taste a thing and I just don't feel like eating...I have my bottle of water right here, so I'm not moving till 33 oz. hits the dust. (ok, ok, I might be here till midnight...*sigh*). Really just nothing to report. Watching lots of TV since I've been sick. I'm all up to date on RW/RR Challenge, Real World, The Osbournes, Survivor, The Amazing Race and The Oscars (ok, not through that entirely YET, but I will be). I can't believe I was away for the Oscars. That used to be a big "food shopping" experience, getting snacks, dip, etc. in to celebrate the events of the day. Boy have things changed!! This year I'm watching it entirely on video tape, it's like I had to leave town in order to escape the old food demons..lol. Like I can have more than a few bites of anything right now....(which I'm loving BIG TIME). Marathon Food TV watching has also been on (my moto, if ya can't eat it, might as well see it being prepared..lol). Geocities is finally cooperating and letting me do my links and update my page according to the season. This is "Spring". LOL, I know I'm a HUGE DORK!!! Anyway, as you can see, life is boring here, I'm alive, if just barely, but I do see life in my future (lol). I will return when I have something to say, well, at least something worth writing and reading...until next time. April 7, 2002 - (Sunday) Well, I'm still sick, but I'm feeling a little better finally!! Called the Dr. on Friday to say that I was still really sick and that I needed a better prescription and that seemed to do the trick. My congestion is better and the coughing has subsided. My headache (which seems, at times, to feel like a bad sinus infection, like behind the eyes, is gone right now, as I type, so I am grateful!!!!). Sheesh, Daylight Savings Time is here and it's gonna be a killer to me. It always throws me into a "always tired" tailspin and I'm affected by it for months. Hopefully, since the weight loss, I won't be so negatively affected by it, let's keep fingers crossed. On the weight loss, i'm down 76.5 pounds, so that's a great thing. Was fluctuating with a pound to a pound and a half for a few days since I posted last week, so finally it broke and I hope it stays gone!! Eating has been terrible, due to my sickness (ok, so now I have an excuse..lol), but I vow to get better this week. My protein consumption is really wanting, I'm just not eating, I have got to improve!!!!! Water has improved, got in all my 64oz. yesterday, so that was a huge improvement. I'm going to start my water for the day right now!! I haven't been exercising at all this week but hopefully, tomorrow will feel better to hop back on that treadmill. This sickness has really dragged me down into even the smallest of my routines, can't wait for it to go bye-bye!! I haven't been sick like this in a really lonnnnnnng time and it's miserable. Glad it's on it's way out. Ugh, back to work tomorrow....guess I have to get back in the swing of things (work-wise), until next time.. April 8, 2002 - (Monday) Feeling much better today, still have a major cold with cough and congestion, but I'm so much better!! Thank Goodness for antibiotics! Back at work today also. Feeling better about that also. Last week I was so dragging, that I really couldn't concentrate on anything and I just didn't want to do one thing! Glad the tide has changed and I'm in an upswing. I did gain one pound today, so that's not a good thing, but I can't worry about it, I wish I had the ability NOT to weigh myself everyday but I am a slave to the scale!! Every morning, I hop on the scale, hoping to see a smaller number and on days that there is movement, it's like "HAPPY HAPPY -- JOY JOY" (remember that show..lol). Anyway, I'm a little better with the disappointing side of that -- of it not moving or going in the wrong direction. As I keep trying to remind myself, in my own timeframe, I will get all the weight off. I realize it will happen, just like everyone else....just not immediately!!! I was thinking the other day, what will life be like when I'm not dieting? I mean, not that I'm really dieting now, I can't eat that much at all, but what will life be like to "maintain" a weight? I've never done that, I have NO CLUE what that part of life is like. I have never successfully gotten to a "goal weight" so what does that feel like?? Is there a whole part of my psyche that will accept the maintaining?? Maybe I shouldn't be too anxious to get to that weight, since I have NO CLUE how to handle it?? Hmmm gotta give that some thought!! My thoughts on previous diets were what does the scale say, what size am I wearing. And, not to say that I'm still not thinking that, my mind and body never got to achieve the GOAL, I think that's going to be the hardest part of this journey. I know that for once in my life, achieving THE goal of an acceptable, attainable weight is within reach and I can't wait to get there and learn the whole process of maintaining, boy that's going to be really difficult. Stay tuned, will write more later..till next time.. |
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