Let the Journey Begin :)
Well, I have to go for an Edoscopy!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, I'm so afraid of someone putting something down my throat you have NO idea!!!! When the nurse said, you should have an endoscopy, I got all clammy and started to get so nervous!!!!! I have an appointment for next Weds. 2/13 at 12:30 p.m. I am so afraid of this, I'm such a HUGE baby!! Eating is such an issue, I tried luncheon meat last night for dinner and no go....I just had breakfast of Rice Krispies and 1/2 of a banana and it went down OK. Still get that pain in my chest when I swallow, but it went and stayed down. Ya gotta be grateful for the small things. My weight loss has stopped, no movement in 3 days and I sit at 52 pounds lost in almost 2 months. Monday, 2/11 is my 2 month anniversary of the surgery. Even with all the issues, I'm still glad I did it, I just hope to be able to keep down solid foods some time soon!!!! I will be posting a new picture next week, hopefully, I will make 55 pounds by then and be down 20 additional pounds since last month's pictures. My life now is consumed with eating and drinking (or rather, NOT eating and drinking), I really do hope that this issue changes REALLY soon, because it is sooooo boring.
Ok, will write again, probably after the endoscopy, or when there is something to report....till next time...
February 11, 2002 - (Monday) - 55 pounds GONE!!
Happy 2 month Anniversary to MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;o)
Had to write today, since it's my 2 month anniversary!! Can't really believe it's been 2 months since the surgery. It's gone really really fast!! I also can't believe that I'm such a mess regarding eating and drinking. Hopefully the endoscopy on Weds. will make eating more enjoyable or maybe I should just hope for tolerable!! So 55 pounds gone today...feels good, but by the pictures I posted yesterday. make me so depressed to think I'm still so big and have lost 55 pounds already....sheesh, it's so discouraging. The future is bright but I'm so anxious to get "there". I guess "there" is feeling, looking and being smaller. Fitting into my small clothes again after approximately 3 years of them not seeing the light of day. I really cannot wait. Wondering how much weight I will lose each month?? Will I be in my "small" clothes by May?? Will I, Will I, Will I...do you see the torture I put myself through?? I'm not one to "live in the moment"....guess I should try, for once, to be patient and enjoy the ride, even though it's a bit bumpy in the beginning....it can only be downhill from here..
Ok, will write again definitely after the endoscopy on Weds....till next time.. :)
February 14, 2002 - (Thursday)
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!!
A lot has happened since I last wrote, let's recap from Tuesday....I woke up with severe pain in my side, lower back, thinking I had a bladder infection (and to be honest, felt this coming on for at least a week or 2). Called the doctor and made an appointment. Well I didn't have a bladder infection, Dr. thinks I had kidney stone. After that passed, I felt all better. I am on antibiotics till next week, when I have to go back to give another urine sample..oh the joys! I know this Kidney stone(s) is my own fault, since I really have NOT BEEN GOOD with my water for 2 months...I guess 2 months of dehydration can give you problems. Not like I didn't know that...but I really got a wake up call on this one!! Drink, Drink, Drink...I cannot tell myself that enough...I've learned the error of my ways!!
Then yesterday, was endoscopy day!! It was really no big deal, slept through the entire thing, don't remember any of it, even 1/2 of the way home, don't remember...those are good drugs!! I did have a stricture, so hopefully I will be able to eat easier now. I've been on liquids for 24 hours and just had my breakfast at 1:00 p.m. on 2/14. I didn't really have trouble with cereal anyway, so time will tell with further attempts at eating later on today.
Overall, I'm feeling a lot better since Tuesday. It's funny but everytime someone asks me how I feel, I say "GREAT" except I can't eat or drink!! Definitely the drinking is improving and I'm getting in my 4 bottles of H2O, no matter what!!
I'm going on vacation next week to Florida, so I hope I'm much better by then. I need some sun. By the time I come back, it will be almost my 3 month anniversary...Sheesh the time if FLYING....wish the pounds would too!!! I cannot be unhappy, 55 pounds GONE is fabulous..I'm sure once I really increase my eating and activities, might speed up the weight loss.
I missed the support group meeting on Tuesday and that was one I wanted to hear, plastic surgery!!! Want to know how easy/difficult it is to get approved for the tummy tuck once you lose all the weight....I know I know, that's many moons ahead till I'll have to worry about that (ok, live IN the moment).....
Ok, till next time..
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