Let the Journey Begin :)
Not much to write, weekend went wayyyyyyyy too quickly and we're back at work today! It snowed about 6 inches but not too bad. I cannot wait till the spring time to be going to the beach and riding my bike. This year I will enjoy it again, I can't wait, I LOVE MY BIKE :)
I think I'm down another 8 pounds since my 1 month post-op visit, so that would make me 43 pounds down in 6 weeks, which isn't too shabby. I was a little better with my water this weekend, seemed like it was going down a little easier. Food is still an issue. I really cannot eat too much at one sitting. (I think I just have to realize that I'm only 5 weeks out and give myself a break!!!!!) I even had Cheese Doodles this weekend (I used to eat the whole bag), but after about 6 doodles, I had enough and it was good. I enjoyed it and they went down fine but 6 was just fine. I had veal this weekend, it went down fine also. We went to the butcher and had him cut up one veal cutlet into strips, and it was fabulous. It was like eating chicken fingers, just that they were veal. I only ate one, but it was yummy. Going to have another tonight for dinner.
My pants that I wore here for my pre-op/post-op pictures are HUGE on me. It's so funny when I tug at the bottoms and they are just hanging. Guess I'm going to have to bid them "adios" soon!!! Gotta go up in the attic and get down some size 2x's or 1x's. That's a great feeling. I can't wait to be fitting into my "14s" but that will be awhile.....can't wait.
Sorry not much to report today......Oh well...till next time...
January 25, 2002 - (Friday)
Not much to report. I'm terrible with food and water this week. My sister is in the hospital and we've been running back and forth to the hospital all week. Today I have been better. Right now, at 3:13 p.m. I am on my 2nd bottle of water!! That's amazing (for me). I tried to have Chinese food for lunch and spit it up. My sinus problem (I believe) is affecting my ability to eat. My sinuses are dripping constantly and when food hits my stomach, it foams up and I have to throw up. I just took 2 Tylenol Sinus and I'm hoping to see a difference for dinner.
Sorry again, not much to report, Oh well, till next time....
January 29, 2002 - (Tuesday)
I'm still having "issues" with food. Last night I looked at the "eating guide" that was given to me prior to surgery by the nutritionist and I'm totally not eating (or trying to eat) anything that's on that sheet. I'm still supposed to be eating soft deli meats, soft cheese, only certain veggies, etc. I'm trying to force "normal" food into my new stomach and it's just not working. I guess I'm just looking to be normal. I realize I have to start again, begin the process that I should have been doing for the past month (not just the first few weeks) and see if I can do better. Both protein and water are a SERIOUS issue with me and I must do better or I'm going to get sick. I had cereal this AM for breakfast (I realize not the best source of protein, but it's better than nothing). For lunch, I think I might have tuna and see how the day goes. I have a hard boiled egg in the fridge that I have to eat, so maybe I'll have that as an afternoon snack. I also bought deli meat the other day at the grocery store so I have to get in gear and go with it. My weight loss is going to suffer if I don't step it up. I believe I'm down 47 pounds now, but for the past 2 days, no weight loss....I'm sure I'll be devastated if I don't continue to lose as I have been.
I want a vacation ------ BADLY!!!!! I really am having a hard time concentrating!!!!! I want the Springtime to come QUICKLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need some sun, I hope I get over the fear of flying so that I can go away.... I think I would feel so much better if I could go to some warm spot to relax and read and sunbathe. Oh to have the money to pick up and goooooooooooooooo......I have a lot of vacation coming to me this year (since last year I carried over quite a bit of time...due to 9/11 - I was afraid to fly and take my Fall vacation). I would love to go away, but I really hope that my eating improves so that I can enjoy eating away from home and at restaurants again (SOON). I'm wondering how long it takes to be quasi normal (in the food department)??? If someone reading this knows, please email me. I realize eating will never be the same (or I hope it won't), but I would like to be able to keep down a meal at a restaurant or at the dinner table sometime in the near future. I know slowing down my eating would help also. I do believe that is part of my problem. I try to eat too fast and I really really need to slooooooooow down!!!! I'm such a fast eater, I gotta work on that problem.
Sorry for all the whining this time, but I have to get my butt in gear and do better!!!! OK till next time......
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