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| Feb 8, 03: Ok, here's the deal, this page needs a change and I am way 2 lazy and uncreative (is that a word?) to do NEthing about it so both of u r just gonna have 2 deal w/ it. So yeah, news...I'm in school so that's good, but I have no job and I'm poor so that's bad. And school kinda sux cuz u don't know hardly NEbody and it can b really lonely, but it's good cuz there's no drama. So when u think about it, my life is balanced perfectly. Except that it doesn't feel like it. U know when u feel like doing something and u don't know what? or when u set goals and u have no fackin idea how 2 achieve them and it's really really frustrating? That's me right now. Sounds like fun don't it? I wish someone would just tell me what to do! Feb 22, 03: Wow...so much went on last nite that I just don't even wanna talk about it. But yeah, we need a place 2 hang out and more importantly I need 2 either turn fackin 19 or get an id. So yeah, I started training at Safeway which is good cuz i really, really need some fackin money! But I'm trying 2 save up so i can go 2 TO this summer and visit Je. That'll b pretty cool, but u know me...we'll see what happens. K, so right now I'm gonna scrounge up some pics for D-Dub 2 scan 4 me and get some of my ugly ass friends on this webpage! Btw, r u not just lovin this Little Mermaid track? Mar 9, 03: Hmmmm, what to say? There's nothing much really. So why am I bothering to write NEthing at all? I dunno. Oh well. Oh yeah...ok Andrea, now ur in my journal entry. I hope you can continue ur day w/ pride and joy knowing that I actually remembered to mention ur name! Hazaar! Mar 10, 03: I added some pics 2 the website! Go look at them! Now! I know u want to! Thx for the new pics Mon! They're great! Especially the one where Darryl's intoxicated and on the floor! Don't believe me? Go look! Ahahaha! But at least he was better off than Sarah! Sorry sas, but it's tru! 2 bad ur pics didn't turn out! Those were some good ones. Oh well, maybe next time! Mar 26, 03: Whoever reads this is prolly assuming that this entry is gonna b dedicated 2 my blind rage at this "war" or should I say in-fucking-vasion! But I'm not...as of now...right now I'm just 2 insanely frustrated at my own extreme social ineptitude, inepticity, ineptness...I dunno...Neway I can't talk 2 ppl (2 in particular) even tho they're really cool ppl who I want to talk to but I can't and I don't know why and they prolly think I hate them or I'm just a bitch and it's really, really, really frustrating b/c I can never think of things 2 say until bloody 10 mins after I see them and then I dwell on how much of a twit I must have come across as! GAAAAAAH!!! Wow. That feels better. Buck Fush! NEwho, I'm going 2 die alone! Good Day! April 3, 03: It's maw's b-day! Hazaar! NEwho, this is a sample of what I feel like right now... sucky fuckity fuck shit bitch ass son of a slut!... And that's just the tip of the ice berg my friend. Ya. I want to dig a whole and sleep in it for a hundred years and then wake up and still be 18 and then start all over again. But that's a little imporssible now isn't it? Apparently this stupid journal thing isn't good enuf "therapy" for me! Maybe I'll go make some home made prozak. NEway, I can't b making all this up in my head, it's just too obvious! If you were there, you'd know what I was talking about. You'd agree w/ me! Damn you! April 7, 03: Apparently, for certain 'inquiring minds', my previous note to Moni requires a little clarification and thus I will give it to them. The phrase in question arises from a series of events that occurred in last year's FA/AS class as a result of the unified exasperation of the class towards one incredibly useless editor. Coincidently, that person shares the name of another common acquaintance. I must conclude the explanation here for I have already said too much about said person and I fear that certain feelings may be hurt because said person was in fact quite useless. In other news, school ends this week! Yay! And I only have two exams! I better get studying! April 14, 03: This entry is in reply to the last response that I recieved to the question of the day. First of all, the question is intended to provoke thought, not some half-witted, moronic response (unless it's hilarious) and in no way sums up my values or beliefs. The bowling alley incident is a completely different situation than the one to which I was reffering. In all honesty I think sometimes situations like those are unavoidable and can serve as a learning experience as long as everyone walks away alive. As for your 'hipocrit' comment you have no right to call me a hypocrite, especially if you are who I think you are, and there is no reason why I should give two monkey shits about what you say seeing as you are not only the biggest hypocrite I know but the biggest jack ass as well! (If it's someone else, everything applies except 4 the part where I get mad. :) ) April 17, 03: Don't u hate it when damn near the minute u decide that u never wanna talk to a person again they decide that they don't wanna leave you the fuck alone. Let's just say someone needs to get over their little Rachael obsession, (not to mention staying the fuck out of my business!) but if that's how u get ur kicks, I guess I can't stop u. And I'm not about to feed your need for attention by "proving it" so just give it up. May 6, 03: K, there has been so mcuh going on that I have no idea where to start. How about starting w/ I missed my bio exam. It's weird cuz I care, but not so much about the exam. I'm really gonna miss that class. But yeah, I feel like the world is my oyster right now! Like I have nothing but time to just chillax and enjoy the summer and do a helluva lot of camping! I'm also really excited for the future cuz I'm fully reconstructing my plans for the next 4 years. But yeah, everyone's back in town now which is great but it's weird cuz I've been spending the last several months adjusting to a smaller circle of friends and now it's like, woah! But I honestly can't complain! So yeah, work sux and I already want another job. Clearly I'm gonna stick it out at least untill September but it's such a hideously boring job! I can't wait to turn 19!! May 30, 03: Wow. I feel like ass inside right now. why am I missing this dude more every day when I barely knew him? I mean, he was cool and I liked him a lot, but it makes no sense. I almost wish that I never met him. That way i wouldn't be sitting here driving myself fucking mad doing the whole coulda shoulda woulda thing. Like it's too late now, so why do I keep replaying it in my mind? GAAH! It's times like this I wish I could shut off my brain! I really wish I hadn't missed my exam. (not so much b/c of my grade as u'd think, but what can u do?) I guess there's always september, but cripes, it's so freakin frustrating! I can't wait till my b-day. I'm so going out and getting hammed nutty! July 1, 03: God hates me. It's bloody Canada Day and not only do I have to work 2nite, I have to close! I don't even get to see Victoria's sad excuse for a fireworks display! You have no idea how bitter I am about this! Grrrrrr! So what's new? A lot of ppl have been asking me that lately and now that I'm actually making an effort to think about it...the answer is still nothing. I registered for my courses so I guess that's something, but I'm still taking 1st year courses even tho I'm in my 2nd year - sort of. Oh wow! My own life is boring me! K, I'm gonna stop writing now! July 13, 03: So I just came back from camping yesterday morning and I had sooo much fun! On the first night me and sas made a new temporary friend named Shane. The 3 of us spent a lot of time wandering around the campsite jabbering about nothing. Then maw and cara came up later that night. The weather was just bloody awesome and we had the nicest neighbours ever. They lent us their propane tank, (because Ron told us the little tanks would work fine) a spark lighter and a citrunella candle. And when Pat sliced ehr finger, they even lent her bandages. Honestly, if everyone were that nice the world would b a better place. So the highlight of the trip was definetly when the guys at #35 had a little too much to drink. One of them had passed out on the picnic table and the other was puking outside of his tent. So later that night, as we walked past their campsite again, we noticed that one of them was still sitting at the picnic table passed out. It was getting chilly so we were looking at him and kinda laughing to ourselves, right, but then we're like wait a minute, he's not wearing pants. And u could fully see his hairy ass hanging over the bench. That was pretty funny. Then after a little while, we're like, wait a minute, what's that pile on the ground? Omg! That's poo! U could see how it sort of oozed over the side of the bench and he was still sitting in it and everything with this mound of poo underneath him. Otter goochy specky butter chubbs might say that he was wallowing in his own excrement. NEway we were discussing the hilarity of the situation when poo poo pants stirred and turned around, then O.G.S.B.C freaked out, dropped the flashlight and ran and the rest of us scattered in a similar fashion. But yeah, we were gonna chuck toilet paper at him and yell "You pooed" as we left the next day but he was no where to b found. Oh well, there's always next camping trip. July 19, 03: Go Rachael, it's your birthday...etc etc. Yay! It's my birthday! How exciting. So in honour of my 'coming of age' I went to the club last nite. I'm sure ur wondering how I went to the club when my b-day is 2day but I went around 11:30 ish so technically I was practically 19. NEwho, it was a lot of fun inspite of old-man-kiss-my-hand and creepy-stand-to-close-to-me-and-stare guy. (Holy crap that was weird & creepy) But yeah, I haven't danced in 4ever and now that I've been, I wanna go some more so I think that's what I'll do 2nite! Yummy! July 29, 03: So I just went to take a look at my website which is something I never do and it turns out I can't stand the music. I don't even like the layout NEmore, but I'm not creative so that's the end of that. Wow, I think that's all I have to say, which pretty much tells u that there's dick all going on. Except work. There's always work. Sept 4, 03: It's all of 3 days into school and I already want to quit.I haven't taken math in 3 years and now I don't remember NEthing. I already have a ton of hmwk, non of which I have been doing and I have no idea how the hell I'm supposed to learn 92 Japanese characters! And remember that guy from last year? (I don't think I mentioned it here...but if I told u, u know who I'm talking about.) Ya I've seen him around a couple times. U'd think that would make it better wouldn't u? Seeing as I anticipited this all summer, but no. It just made it worse. And why? Because I cna't talk to ppl. Whoever taught me to interact w/ other ppl should b slapped in the face. So yeah, I think I'll make it my mission to talk to him. Ur prolly thinking, 'that's a stupid ass mission!', well screw u cuz it's gonna b hard...for me at least! Shut up! |
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