Approximately since a month before he died, Ndut ( read: "ndood" ) had a new habit of sleeping on the garage floor under the Mercedes in the day time. Sometimes under the rear trunk, sometimes at around ten inches behind the car. The Mercedes C 240 is rarely used by my brother in law or my sister, in a month maybe only four or five times they would use it. So Ndut had plenty of time to sleep underneath it in the day time. 

Beginning at around the same time too, the maid who works at the house also has the new habit of taking the umbrella from the trunk of the Mercedes before going to the market. Because recently in this dry season the sun shine brightly in the day time so it would be useful to wear umbrella.

Every time she took the umbrella, she would create a loud sound when closing the rear trunk cover. And I considered it as symbolizing the sound of the bang of Lady Diana's car accident  in Paris. It is commensurate with my consent to experience the same car accident like Lady Diana, like depicting in my painting of riding the same car with Paris Hilton. Except, unlike Lady Di's car accident that took three lives to die, this time it would be only my self who would die.

Later on when it was Ndut who died, it raised a question in my mind, what have I done wrong that it was him who died, not me. I hope God would forgive me if it had been because of my fault.

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Date:  Tue, 10 October 2006  10:25 WesternIndonesiaTime

Subject:  Paris "Returning to the World Without Me"

U.S. socialite Paris Hilton leaves a beer tent surrounded by the media at the Munich Oktoberfest beer festival, September 25, 2006. REUTERS/Michaela Rehle (GERMANY) Reuters - Sep 25 9:22 AM		U.S. socialite Paris Hilton poses for photographers after a news conference promoting a new drink in Munich, September 25, 2006. REUTERS/Michaela Rehle (GERMANY) Reuters - Sep 25 5:58 AM

In these photos Paris Hilton was visiting the Munich Oktoberfest in Germany at the end of September 2006. She wore a gold dress, like the gold dress in the painting of her inside the car with me.

For me these photos were like symbolizing Paris' intention to return to this world after escorting me at the same car with her to the eternity. It was like continuing her "drunk driving" moment like I wrote in my previous letter "Paris Withdraw In Her Car". Whereas in the photo of her inside her Mercedes at that moment, it looks like Paris was going to the opposite direction than in my painting design,  as if she was "withdrawing" or "returning back" with her Mercedes instead of moving ahead like in the painting design. Like symbolizing she was returning back to this world after escorting me to the eternity.

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Date:  Sat, 7 October 2006  14:22 WesternIndonesiaTime

Subject:  Analogy of the Cats With Paris Jenna

On 12 October 2004, in my letter to president Bush with the title "A Cyber Kind of Proposing", I have made some kind of cyber-proposing to Paris Hilton and Jenna Bush. The reason for proposing both of them was because I was in urgent position to strengthen my consent to move out of this world, among which by expressing my eagerness to go to the heaven. Since Jenna's name sounds like "jannah", an Arabic word for "heaven", so I thought it was necessary to propose her with such cyber kind of proposing.

Yet since at that moment the U.S. was in the peak of political campaign for presidential election, and I was not intended to interfere in such political events, so I thought there should be another proposing to another girl to neutralize my position, and the choice fell to Paris Hilton.   

When the two cats, Minyong and Ndut, were growing to become adults, I sometimes had an analogy in my mind that those two cats were like representing Paris Hilton and Jenna Bush.

Because Minyong, the first cat who appeared in the house, keeps on getting skinny, just like Paris Hilton. He also likes to go out of the house at night, sometimes never comes back for two or three days, like "clubbing" to the disco or night club just like Paris Hilton.

While Ndut had the tendency to always get back to the house, rarely go far away from the house, including at night. And he was rather fat, so I felt like he was representing Jenna Bush.

Before the accident that took the life of Ndut on October 4, 2006, such analogy was not a problem. Especially since I only kept in in my mind.

Yet after the death of Ndut, it makes me wonder, does that mean that Jenna would also die soon? Of course I would prefer that it would never happen that way, because after all it was just an analogy. Besides, those are male cats.