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I wonder sometimes if my heart hath died For all those salty rivers I hath cried I contemplate all those days gone by And now I sit and ponder "Why?" I hardened my heart like a stone It hurts so bad I stay alone I am foresaken Startled, battered, badly shaken Looking for answers in a land forever lost Nomadically wandering around searching for things ye hath tossed Saddened by how hurt can bring me down so Sighting out answers to things I'll never know Living each day like the other I duck and run hiding for cover .

Sitting here yet again thinking Confused, wondering if my soul is sinking I wonder why I am alone Then I think how many sins do I have left to atone Jaded. Do you know of such? Searching for answers to teach me to trust Poetically dragging out my thoughts Yet not stopping hard enough to pull out all stops Grieving for all the things lost Paying the highest price with great cost Is there anything left for me?Do I have hope? Looking for that new way to help me cope. Sheltered in my dark secret world Falling deeper still only violently hurled.

I am violently angry and rightly so I am not your victim, yet you tear at my wounds so they show You will punish me for crimes I did not commit I am stronger than you I will not submit I stand my ground for reasons unknown You will not take me I have yet to be thrown I am not your toy ; which you play with to break I will not stand for this I have had all I can take

I found my love yet I can not trust Then I ask myself is this really love or primal lust? I ponder these things to calm my troubled heart But I do not know where it ends or where to start I am confused and rightly so Should I follow my heart can it really know? I reflect on these thoughts they have driven me quite insane I search for their answers but only in vain.

I can't fathom what you see I'm no great beauty; I'm just me All alone in my fate Shy and ugly without a date I'm never asked I've long since forgotten to care All I can do is stop and wonder a steadfast stare I'm jealous of all those happy couples that walk by I watch all their joy and I just want to cry I hurt knowing others have found love Why do the fates give me the cruelest shove?

Why did your parents hurt you so? Never loving you then letting you know Blaming you for crimes never commited Always trying to prove yourself pleading to be acquitted Then the cold callous silence rips at your heart It pounds against your walls tearing you apart Please don't let them get to you so They know no better just let them go You are much more important than they ever knew It's not by what you say but by those actions that you do You have kindness, love, and generous care You risk it all when others wouldn't dare So you must rise up above them and never let them win And if you don't do so you'll be committing a tradgic sin I believe in you and I have faith and hope I know you are better than them if you ask me you can more than cope:)

I am a wave of water I splash against the shore Remembering times of yester year, and many a volume of forgotten lore I am tidally leathal; my waves wash all my wounds away The convergence started long ago yet it only shows today I rise up from the salty sea bed To grate your shattered soul against my beacon's head