Like I said in "My Crush" I never had planned on to the concert but somehow those plans got changed. In fact, I bought my ticket on the day of the show and did not do so bad on getting a good seat. I was actully closer to the stage than I was at Britney's show (nevermind that I bought it 2 months in advance and spent over $80!!!!) even though I was ten rows from the floor (I was just off the floor at Britney's concert). I estimate I was about 50 feet from the stage.
I've never cried at the movies or at a concert but now history has been made because....Well here's the story:

The show started at 7:30 with Beau - four young sisters. They delighted us with accapella renditions of their songs...they were goood...ok enough or that!!!!
Clay Aiken came through the crowd as he oppened singing the 80's hit by Mr. Mister; Kylie. Had I been sitting where I had sat during Britney, Clay would have passed within about 6 feet of me. Whoa!
Finally, Clay took the stage. He was dressed in a navy blue shirt that was pin-striped with a lighter shade of blue and dark gray pants that were loosely clad which I liked because it did not show off his figure in a sexy way. And unlike him in pictures I have seen up to that point, he had facial stubble (I thought this was a little funny considering that I had shaved all my stubble off except for my go-tee).

Topping off the outfit - literaly, he wore a dressy dark grey hat....He was beautiful. Oh was he beautiful, my crushin and my esctasy were in complete overdrive, I was flyin' high....but something else was at lurking beneath it all: It was a really dark feeling that was underlying my glibby puppy love feelings that were going full steam, it was a gloomy resignation as I knew this was another one of my crushes that was going to last for a long while, I had not had one since sometime in 2002. Now yes, there were little attractions to people - oh yeah, but a crush ... this was a doggone School Boy Crush taking shape and it was about 3 days old - very new indeed! My last one lasted over 4 years! As Clay started into another song I began to think things like "How long is this going to last?", " I'm just wastin' more of my time....my life..." and "I know God does not want me doing this". Clay coming out with a Christian song that was borderline preaching, did not help matters either. I was esctatic and guilty all at the same time. It was crazy.
As Clay performed, he would come over to my side of the stage as well as going over to the other side and the lights would follow. Everytime Clay came over to my side me and all the girls would start waving signs, programs and hands frantically in the air. My smile would explode and my adrenaline would pump like crazy "over here, Clay! OVER HERE!". To Hell with what everyone may have thought! It was all about the Aiken boy!!!! Phone cameras were going off all over the place. Had I been aware that cameras were allowed, I would have SO been taking pictures. (I really get a kick out of using "so" before a verb". Terrible English, I know but I SO don't give fudge!)

OH MY....OH MY! Don't forget to breathe!!!! OH DEAR! OH CLAY AIKEN!!!!!! Maybe I shouldn't have come. NOT!!!