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Chapter 13
...ally...
I stood there, still in shock as Bryan walked away. Pnut came over to me. "Come on, he'll calm down," she said, and we walked back over towards the others. "Yeah, I guess," I said, not convinced that he would. We walked until we reached a small cafe that had some tables outside, it was a sunny day, so we all decided to sit outside for breakfast. We sat eating for a while, but Bryan and I never spoke to each others, and I could tell the situation made everyone feel awkward. I stood up. "Look, I'll see you guys later." I said, and walked away from the cafe. I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around to see Shane behind me. "Where you going?" "I - I can't stay, not with things with Bryan like this. It's too awkward,not just for me, but for you guys too. It's not very fair for you." I answered him. It was true, I couldn't stay the ways things were, 'where do I go now?' I thought. "What? You're going back home?" Shane asked. "I don't know, I'm not ready to face everything over there, but I can't stay here..." I said, I could feel my eyes watering a bit "I think I might stay in Ireland for a while yet, just not here. I'll find some where else to stay, then just see what happens from there." "You don't have to" he said, putting his arm on my shoulder. "Yeah, I do. Look, ummm, tell Pnut and Nat that I'll give them a call when I get a new place to stay. And tell Bryan I'm sorry. OK?" I said, and turned to walk away. "Ok, take care." "Yeah, see you around." I said, and laughed a little. I walked back to the hotel and slowly walked up to my room. 'God, how can one word wreck everything?' I thought. I walked in, and started to pack my stuff up. Within 20 minutes, I was packed and on my way to a nice bed and breakfast place I had found. It was nice, and I booked in for the next week, I didn't know how long I wanted to stay on in Ireland, but I didn't feel ready to go back home yet. I hadn't told anyone there about everything that had happened. I got back to the B&B and pulled out my mobile phone. There was a message from Nat and Pnut asking me if I wanted to meet up with them later because the guys would be doing a concert later. I agreed, I figured they deserved an explanation of earlier. We sat and spoke in my room, then the guys came back, they all came upstairs except Bryan. Looks like he wasn't over it yet. I spent the next week exploring some of the sites of Dublin and even took a day trip to Sligo. Finally it was time to head for home. I had spoken to Nat and Pnut everyday and it was agreed that they should stay on in Ireland, coz they were really happy there with Mark and Kian, it was nice to see things working out for them. I wouldn't be surprised if there was at least one wedding before the year was out. Well, this was it, I was going back. I felt bad leaving with things not quite sorted out with Bryan, but he didn't seem too bothered, or else he would have tried to call or something. I jumped in a cab to the airport. I had said goodbye to the others last night, because I didn't want us all to be upset at the airport, I just wanted to leave quietly, with no fuss. I still had another hour before my flight left, so I decided to buy a magazine to read while I waited. I bought a copy of 'Smash Hits', I took it out of the bag and opened it to see what was inside. I couldn't believe my eyes. 'Pop star exclusive interview over baby loss tragedy'. I couldn't believe it. I turned to the interview and read, shocked and speechless by the way the story had been twisted. The way the story was being told, I had 'abandoned' Derek to grieve alone! I had left to go and stay with Bryan! 'I had been cheating on Derek with Bryan!' 'God, how can I go home now, everyones gonna know, god, what if they believe it?!' I just sat there, I couldn't go home. Not with this all out, even though it wasn't true, I still couldn't. I picked up my bags, and headed away from the gate, maybe there was still room at the Bed and Breakfast where I was staying, I could go back there for maybe another week. I got to the front door of the airport and just stood there. I could feel my eyes watering, then the tears came. I nearly jumped when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around, and got the shock of my life.....

Chapter 14
...ally...
"Derek!!" I said, shocked to see him standing there. "Hey" he said. "Where you going?" He asked, as if nothing had happened, as if we were still best friends. "I was going home," I started "but, then I saw this!" I threw the magazine at him and stared at the ground. He looked shocked. "I - ummm" he mumbled. "How could you do that to me?" "I -" "Don't bother! I don't wanna hear it!" I yelled and picked up my bag. "I was still angry at you!" Derek yelled back. 'He was angry at me?!' "WHAT?!" I put my bag down and walked over to him. "Well, you didn't even tell me! You never returned my calls after it. We both lost something that night! Did you forget that? Maybe you're not the only one hurting!" He yelled. "Oh, right. So, ummm.....lemme see, splashing it all over 'Smash Hits' was gonna stop it hurting?! Huh?!"I shouted. "So, are you still going home then?" He asked, calmly. "How can I go home, with this. It's a pack of lies, and you know that!!" I said, quietly, I was so angry. "Do you realise everyone's gonna know now. I had kept it all quiet." "I'm sorry" he answered "really, I am." He put his arm on my shoulder, I just shook it off. "Yeah, I've heard that before Derek" I said "I don't want to hear it ever again." I walked away from him, and I felt a hand on my shoulder. I just kept walking, who ever was behind me just wouldn't give up. "Derek, leave me alone!" I yelled, turning around, but it wasn't Derek there, it was Shane.
"Hey, calm down!" Shane said. "What - what are you doing here?" I said really quietly. "We all saw what was in Smash Hits, we're sorry. Are you OK?" "No, not really, he was at the airport there, apologizing, God, Shane, everyone's gonna know. What if they believe it?!" I said, and started to cry again, "What am I gonna do?" "Well, for a start, you're coming back to the hotel with me to see the others. We're worried bout you you know." He said as he picked up my bags and walked over to his car. "Why are you here Shane?" "Well, Bryan,...he still loves you, but being a guy, his pride wouldn't let him come here, he wanted to, after reading the interview, but you know..." He trailed off. "So, I decided to come here and get you back,"he laughed a little "Bryan would be impossible to live with if he never got things cleared with you!" We got into his car and drove away. Within 15 minutes we were back at the hotel,and we walked up to our rooms. "Shane..." I said, as we walked along the corridor. "Yeah?" "What if Bryan doesn't want to see me?" "He will, trust me. It's probably for the best that he didn't come to the airport today, he might have killed Derek!" Shane said, laughing a little.I laughed too.Then we saw Bryan walking towards us, he looked really mad. "Hey mate!" Shane said to him. "Don't 'mate' me! What's going on here then?!"he kinda shouted. "Bryan....not here mate," he said quietly. I just stood there, trying not to cry again. Shane took Bry aside and spoke to him so I couldn't hear, but I think he was telling him about the airport because they both kept looking over at me, and Bryan looked really sorry for shouting at us both. Then, we all started walking back towards our room. We arrived at the door, Shane opened it and they went inside, carrying my bag. I just stood outside. I heard them all talking, mentioning my name. "Hey" I looked up to see Bryan there, I was so happy to see him, I just fell into his arms crying. "Sssssshhhh, it's ok, I'm here now," he whispered. We just stood there like that for what seemed like ages...

Chapter 15
...bryan...
We stood there, and eventually she stopped crying. I didn't know what to say, and neither did she, so we just stood there. Eventually, the others came out of the room. "We're so glad that you came back!" Pnut said, walking over to us. "Yeah, we were worried." Nat said. "Well, I'm back.! Ally answered, laughing, and smiled at me, I smiled back. "So....?" Nicky started, "are you two, well, you know?" Everyone looked at us. She looked up at me, I think to see my response.. It was me who had ended things, not her, so it was really up to me if we were back. "Well..."I started, "I think we need to talk things over first." We did need to talk, I needed to know if she was over him yet, or if she wasn't, could I live with that, and still have a relationship with her. "Yeah," she said and nodded her head. "Oh, ok, do you guys want us to leave you to it then?" Shane asked. She looked up at me again. "Ummm, do you want to go for a walk?" I asked her. "Sure," Ally answered, "I'll just grab a jacket first and get cleaned up a bit." "OK," I said, and she walked into the room she had been sharing with Nat and Michelle before she left. I stood outside the room and waited for her. I was lost in my thoughts when Shane walked over to me. "So, what you gonna do?" Shane asked me, and stood waiting for an answer. "I - I don't quite know yet." I answered, because I wasn't. "Well, I hope you two get back together" he said, patting my shoulder. "You've been miserable the whole time you guys were broke up. Just try to understand what's going on with her, ok?" "Yeah," he started walking away. "Thanks for, well, you know" I said, and smiled at him. "Hey, what are friends for?" Shane said, and walked over towards the others, who all waved goodbye, and disappeared downstairs to go out for the day. "Oh, Bry! " Nicky shouted, poking his head around the corner "remember, be back by 2 o'clock, we got that interview!" "Oh, right,yeah!" 'God I had almost forgotten the interview' "Ok, ready to go?" Ally said, appearing in the doorway. I nodded my head, and we set off downstairs.
"So, where are we going?" Ally asked as we walked along the road. "Just somewhere quiet where we can talk." I answered. "It's a really nice place." I added. "Oh, ok" she said " Is it much further?" "No, just 2 minutes to go." I said. Then we arrived. It was a little piece of countryside, it was really beautiful, my favourite place in Dublin. (Well apart from my house). We walked over to a big oak tree that was in the middle of the field, it shaded us from the sun, and we sat down. "Ok," she said "Let's talk." "Yeah..." I said , really quietly and picked up a blade of grass and started playing with it. "I'm trying my best to get over him,but it can't happen overnight, I think you know that, don't you?" Ally said and looked up at me, then back down at the grass. "Yeah..." "I mean, well, I don't love him now, you must know that, I mean, look at what he done" she explained. "I still can't believe he done that." "I know, that was low" I said, " I would never do that!" "I know" she said. She looked as if talking about that upset her a bit, so I thought I should change the subject. "So, what did Shane say to you to make you come back then?" I asked, because Nat and Pnut and the others had tried to convince her to stay, but it hadn't worked. "He told me that you still loved me...is it true?" "I think you know the answer to that." I said and smiled. "So...? Are we?" She asked, I nodded my head. "If you still want to..." I said, and stood up. "Hmmmm.....You know what? I don't know if I do." She said, still sitting, and looking at the grass. "What? But I thought...." I started. "Ha ha! You fell for it! Of course I still do!" She said, laughing and standing up beside me. "Well, geez, look at the time, we better get back for that interview. C'mon!" I said, and we left to go back and tell the others the good news.