| "I... I ... I trusted you!" I screamed at the figures on the sofa. My eyes brimmed with tears, I looked disgusted at the guy on the lounge chair who simply smiled at me a crooked smile. "Mark... I.." I paused and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand. "Oh baby, I..." he started as he got up. "SHUT UP! I don't give a damn! You came home early and I had no clue why,... but now I know. I called you, Mark! I called you... but you never picked up. I don't think you realize what I went through today! I freaked out for hours since Clara never showed up for her wedding, I tended to Kian and attempted to comfort him... and while you... you went home to play with some skank!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, not caring if anyone else heard me. I walked quickly to the coach and yanked the girl around, "Nisa..." I hissed. "I should have known it was you! How could he not be able to give you up, and with your consistent nagging its no wonder he gave in to shut you up!" I shook uncontrollably as I spit out my words. I glared at the girl who smiled back me contently. My face fell slowly as I realized that perhaps I had lost. Mark barely looked at me, and the few words he said meant nothing. Mark looked at em strangely... the sparkle was gone, his eyes were empty. The room had acquired a new smell... one sour, something new something different. Nisa took notice of this and spread herself over the pillow at the end of the coach. I leaned over and tore the pillow from beneath her; bottles of alcohol lay empty beneath it. I stole a glance at Mark who looked guiltily away. Rain had begun to pour outside and wound down the windows. I interrupted the silence as I took a spot between them on the coach. "Ok well I know you both were drinking, and I accept that but Marky..." I paused and stroked his cheek with my index finger, he smiled weakly at me, "WHY THE HELL IS NISA HERE!" My voice echoed through the room and two startled faces looked back at me. "WELL? WHAT IS IT?!?!" my body shook as I yelled at the one I had loved the most. I felt sorry for him as the tears started streaming down his own face. Slowly, he seemed to become more sober as reality struck him. I took it as the chance to get the upper hand of the situation and ripped off the ring from my finger and placed it on the closest table. I reached over and grabbed the car keys from the table. I rushed towards the door and turned the handle. I paused for a moment and slowly turned around. "Well... good bye then, eh? Too bad things couldn't work out as I hoped they would." I said as I slowly walked out the door, out of his life. But then why would he care if I had gone? He has his girl with him ess person off the street, I wouldn't have minded as much as him being with Nisa.'Well screw her!' I thought as I opened the car and leapt in. I hadn't driven for a while now but that was ok. I just needed to get away. I picked up my cell phone and dialed the airport to reserve some tickets so I could leave as soon as possible. I slowly backed out of the driveway and turned to go down the street. I saw, in my mirror a figure on the porch waving at me, trying to stop me but I let it go and kept driving.With each meter, I slowly gained speed. 'The sooner I was there, the sooner my life could start to get fixed.' My mind reminded me as I pushed harder on the gas. The car flew forward and I kept going. The world spun by, cars filled with people. I sighed as I saw a couple walking along the sidewalk, all old and "wrinkly"... 'If only things would have worked... if only that could have been us many years from now...' I stopped my thinking. 'The only way you can get him out of your mind is to stop thinking about him.' My heart concluded.Reluctantly I stopped at traffic lights. I prayed the lights to change quicker, but of course they didn't. I leaned back in my seat and breathed deep. My mind was twirling and it should be stationary. 'But how could your mind stop spinning and become peaceful if there's all this noise coming from behind you?' someone inside me answered. I turned around in my seat to see a car come racing towards me. It swerved a bit to the left and went past my side, narrowly missing me. Relieved I sank past down. Within moments I heard the rumble of another car come crashing down on me.... the car came closer and almost missed my car, but instead of going by, it hit me. All around me the glass was shattering and pouring down upon my head. I felt my body become trapped against the side of the car, my breathing was becoming slower as my vision became blurry. Outside I heard screaming and crying, but soon that was gone too. My body began to stop and I touched my head to see if I was still there, my hand came back to me swallowed in blood. I could almost see my life flash before my eyes... the last vision of Mark. Not of Mark and Nisa... but of Mark and me... smiling. Perhaps this was the way we could have been but never again, I knew it. Not because of the girl... but, as I drew a short breath, because I could feel my heart stop beating... skipping a few beats then going. Finally my vision faded and my head throbbed in pain, my body stopped working and I fell against the seat lifeless. |