| She brushed aside a tear as she lay on her bed, what is wrong with me? She questioned herself but could never answer her own questions. She had such a cold lonely emptiness inside, there seemed to be noone on earth who really understood her. She was still stinging from the words of her older sister as they rang in her ears �We don�t understand you, we just have to put up with you�. Her older sister was the pretty, popular one. Jenny was also quite attractive but not in the same way as her sister, she had long strawberry blonde hair and blue eyes. As Jenny lay on her bed she couldn�t help but think of Justin, the only guy she had ever loved, and I mean REALLY loved. She remembered the great times they had together, and it all got worse, she couldn�t handle the pain of losing him. How would she get through? She glanced at the photo of him on her dresser, it was covered in dust. �Jenny!� her mother called, �Are you ready for Justin�s funeral yet, we�re leaving in 10 minutes!! Hurry!� She switched off her CD player, how would she cope without Westlife, their songs meant so much to her. As Jenny sat at dinner that night she pushed away her plate, she couldn�t eat. How could he leave me here alone? She & Justin were made for each other, she couldn�t talk to anyone else, and she felt her family were jealous of their bond, and resented Justin for it. But now he�s gone. The pain of it all was too much, she broke down at the table and ran out of the room. She lay on her bed just wishing it was all a dream, as she remembered the horror of that night. She was in the car with Justin, and it all happened so fast, they were hit in the side by a drunk driver. Justin didn�t make it, Jenny left the scene with only a few bruises, but she knew she would never be the same. A YEAR LATER Jenny answered the phone, it was her best friend Christy. �Hi sweet-pea! I know this is a tough week for you Jenny, so I�ve got a huge surprise for you! I got us double passes to see Westlife in Sydney!!!� Jenny was thrilled, she never thought she�d get to one of their concerts! Good, this will get my mind off the anniversary, a year to the day. The next day Jenny packed for Sydney and her & Christy were heading off on the plane from Melbourne airport. Christy was obviously excited, �Ooh, I hope we get to meet them Jenny!!� Christy�s favourite was Nicky, she thought he was very cute! Jenny was just happy to be going to see them in concert and wasn�t all that fussed about meeting them. She gazed out of the window and immediately thought of Justin, Christy had been talking for ages and realised Jenny was a million miles away. �Jenny, what�s wrong? Was it something I said?!� Jenny saw the concern on Christy�s face and apologised as she wiped the tears off her face. When she looked at the sky out of the window, she couldn�t help but cry because Justin wasn�t here to see how beautiful everything was. SYDNEY They arrived in Sydney a few hours before the concert, they checked into a hotel and Christy began beautifying herself. Jenny rolled her eyes. Finally it was time for the concert and Christy and Jenny had great seats! The boys came on stage and Christy nearly fainted!!! She was screaming so loud, Jenny thought she would be permanently deaf from then on. They performed all their singles, but Jenny particularly liked �If I let you go� during the concert Christy yelled to Jenny, �Hey, Mark is really checking you out!� Jenny went red, �I hadn�t noticed!!!� she really meant that! After the show Christy & Jenny were lucky enough to get backstage, and meet the band, Christy was quite a sweet talker, she must�ve convinced someone to let them back there. Jenny & Christy got their albums signed by all the band members, and they were so sweet, Christy seemed to really hit it off with Bryan who was really checking her out. When Mark signed Jenny�s CD he whispered in her ear, �Read my message carefully when you get home� his blue eyes sparkled and he smiled as she waved goodbye. That night as she was getting ready for bed, Christy picked up Jenny�s CD to see what Bryan had written on hers (Jenny was starting to think Christy had a little crush on him) �JENNY!!!� she screeched! �WHAT?!� � Did you even bother to read what Mark wrote on yours?!� �Nope! And I don�t care either!� Jenny laughed, �Give me a look then!!� As Jenny read it she got the strangest feeling, it said � how will I know, if I let you go, call me PLEASE � followed by his mobile number. �Wow� she said out loud, she couldn�t believe he could possibly like her. Christy screeched �Jenny you HAVE to call him!!!� Jenny felt uneasy about the whole thing, she�d kind of given up on guys since Justin was killed, and hadn�t dated for over a year. She tried to forget about Mark, but she couldn�t stop thinking about the way he smiled at her at the concert. She decided to call him, the phone rang. �Hello?!� She got nervous when she heard him answer, she was just hoping the phone would ring out! �Um, hi, this is Jenny I met you at the concert last night�remember!?� �Oh, hi!!� he sounded really happy she�d called, �I�ve been thinking about you all day!!� he gushed. �It would be really great if you�d join me for dinner tonight, and bring along your friend Christy, cos Bryan has the biggest crush on her and he wants to gatecrash tonight! Jenny had a really good feeling about this, she went in to Christy to tell her the great news, and Christy nearly fell off her seat, Jenny & Christy then started dressing for dinner. They arrived at dinner, and not only had Bryan gatecrashed but the whole Westlife gang, and each guy had brought a date. Mark introduced Jenny & Christy to everyone, �This is Kian and his date Donna Hart, and there�s Nicky with his date Harriet Robson, and Shane with his date Helen�. �Hi everyone� Jenny said shyly, she was glad to be able to meet some new people, and the girls seemed really nice. However it seemed everyone was in their own world, Helen & Shane talked all about horses all night, and Jenny could see Shane really liked her a lot. �How did you two meet?� Jenny interrupted, �Well that�s a long story, we used to go riding together as kids, and we bumped into each other a while ago, by accident and went riding together again and we just hit it off, I guess� Helen gushed. They sure looked happy together. And Nicky and Harriet were the cutest couple, Harriet was a little shy at first but when she got to know everyone she was the life of the party. Jenny could see Nicky adored her. However Donna & Kian seemed very quiet like they were in the middle of a fight. They hardly talked all night, and Jenny sensed there was something wrong. Mark caught Jenny�s glance over the table, and signalled for them to go, it seemed that Bryan & Christy had had a few too many drinks and Shane, Kian, Nicky, Donna, Harriet and Helen had already left to go to a local nightclub. Mark took Jenny�s hand as they strolled down the walkway beside Syndey Harbour, it all looked so pretty at night. Jenny and Mark talked for what seemed like hours, they talked about everything from school, work, the band, but everytime Jenny started to talk about Justin she got a lump in her throat and couldn�t speak. Mark sensed there was something she hadn�t told him but he didn�t push it, because he knew she would tell him in her own time. As Mark walked Jenny back to her hotel room, he said �I�ve really had a great time tonight� and leaned down to kiss Jenny, she felt his lips soft against hers, but she pulled away. She saw the confusion in Mark�s eyes, and felt immediately guilty. �I�I�I can�t�I�m so sorry Mark� and she ran inside and cried. She felt like she had betrayed Justin, but tried to tell herself that that was stupid because he�s dead, he�s not coming back. Then all she could think of was Mark, he must think I�m crazy! She thought. Just then Christy staggered in, but she was too drunk to talk to. Jenny went for a walk. As Jenny was walking along the streets of the city, she felt a bit unsafe as it was after 2am. She felt relieved when she heard a familiar voice calling her. |