| Part 4 (Ally) After hanging up the phone, I threw my self on the couch, and stared into space. I don't know how long I sat there, just thinking about stuff. How would we tell people? How would they react? I had no doubts that people wouldn't let us give up, think that we were rushing this, but we both knew it was no use. I looked at the clock on the wall, it was 530pm. 'Great, dinnertime.' I thought to myself. I went to stand up, but had no energy whatsoever and sat back down again. Derek wandered out of the kitchen. "Are you ok?" He asked, as he walked over and sat beside me. "Yeah. I just-" I sighed. "You didn't think this would be so hard?" He asked, reading my mind. I shook my head, no. "We both know we've got to do this, but-" "I know." He gave me a hug, we sat there, in silence. "Tell you what, I'll phone in a pizza or something,ok?" "Yeah, I'm not hungry anyway." I said. "Ally-" "I'm fine, ok?" "If you say so...." He said, unconvinced, and stood up. He walked upstairs, I heard him call to the kids if they wanted pizza, obvious answer was yes of course. He came back down and called for the pizza, while I curled up on the sofa to watch tv again. "Go to bed, we've got tv upstairs too." Derek laughed. "But, what if-" "There's a phone up there too." He smiled, "on you go, the room next to the kids. I think everything's ok up there." "Thanks, you're sure you can handle feeding time at the zoo?" I laughed a little. He nodded. "Ok, wake me up if they give you any trouble. Bed by 9 for them both." "Would you go already?!" He cried, frustrated. "I'm going! Thanks again, for all this." "Hey, you're one of my best friends, don't mention it, ok?" I nodded and slowly walked up the stairs. I must have fallen asleep the second I got into bed. I woke up the next morning and looked at the clock, it was 6am. I got up, and wandered down to the kitchen in the dark. I put on the light, grabbed the kettle and made a cup of coffee, a poor attempt at waking myself up. I sat there for a while, thinking. It was still dark when the kitchen door opened. "Mummy?" It was Jessica. "Jess? It's 630, what are you doing down here?" I asked her, as she walked in, rubbing her eyes. "I couldn't sleep." "Did you have a bad dream?" I asked her, as she climbed up on my lap. "No, I thought maybe Daddy would be here by now. He never gave me my hug last night." She sighed, "he's coming here today, right?" "Yeah, we've got to visit gran." "Yeah?" She loved going there because both her and Dylan got spolied rotten. "Yeah, so go back to bed, ok?" "Ok." She climbed down and went back up to bed. (Bryan) I woke up, still on the sofa, still in an empty house. I had hoped this hadn't happened, but it had. I looked at my watch. It was 10am, I had slept longer than I thought, but as I stood up, I realised I still felt as though I hadn't slept at all. I walked into the kitchen and made some toast, got out 4 glasses and filled them with milk or juice. "Ya deutz Bry, you're the only one here." I muttered to myself. I poured the glasses down the sink and decided to clear my head with a shower. I got to the bathroom and stepped in the bath, only to nearly slip on something. I looked down, one of Dylan's toy boats. 'Maybe I should take this to the house today' I thought to myself. After my shower, I decided to go for a walk, I didn't know where I was going when I left, but somehow I ended up on Nicky's doorstep. I knocked on the door. "I'll get it!" I heard Nicky yell, and a few moments later the door opened. "Hey..." He said, shocked to see me, "come on in." Judging by the look on his face, I looked as bad as I felt. "Thanks." I walked in. "Hi!" G said, as I walked into the living room. She was sitting playing with their daughter Sam, who was almost 2 years old. "How are we today?" "Umm, ok, I'm going to see them later today, we're going to tell mum and dad." "This is really it, you guys are..." She said, shocked. "Well, yeah." I answered quietly. "Man...." Nicky said, obviously he hadn't believed it til now. "Yeah, but hey, c'est la vie." I said, trying not to show the pain, unsuccessfully though, by the pitiful looks I got. "Wow." G said, " I never thought, you know, that you guys would split." "Me too." I laughed a little, "guess we reached the end of the road." We sat talking for a while, trying not to discuss the split, although it was on all of our minds. Finally G spoke. "What's happening now? You know, with the kids..." "We've not discussed it, yet, but they're staying with Derek until we can sort things." "Oh?" Nicky asked. "Yeah. I think we're going to sort that today."i sighed, and looked at my watch, it was almost 1230pm. "Oh, I better go, I'm supposed to pick them up after 1pm." "Oh, ok, we'll see you later. Feel free to call, anytime." G said as I stood up and walked to the door. "Yeah, thanks. See you guys later." I walked out and started to walk home again. |