reading: dancing naked in the mind field kary mullis
listening: mirrorball sarah mclachlan
surfing: brand x

1999 july 23

premonition

i had a dream last night.

every so often, i dream about my friend frank, who committed suicide in a very messy and public manner sixteen or seventeen years ago. these dreams always unnerve me, usually because he is inviting me to go somewhere with him: into a pool, onto a plane, into a cafe. last night though, there was no invitation, just a warning.

he apologized to me, and when i asked why, he said, "i can't help it." turned out what he couldn't help was either destroying the world, or knowing that the world would be destroyed, at 11:56am on friday.

that would be today.

i am going to be glancing nervously at the clock all morning. if you never hear from me again, we can assume he knew all about that of which he spoke.

feeling everso slightly apocalyptic, claire

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