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27/04/03
Nellie had a very big sleep~~~
*stretch* am feeling very happy
today.. coz its a lazy Sunday~ brother still sleeping.. and its 3 already~
am glad to say~ I slept for 12 hours again~ was suppose to wake up at like
11 but then .. hehehe. drifted off to sleep while lazing on the bed..
oh ya before I continue on my crap...
pple please sleep with your mobile
phone switched off~~~ coz when you sleep the radiation in your phone will
FRY your brain~ one way my brother forced me is to set auto off and auto
on.. cool right? so pple please do that k?
ok the crap continues..
anyway... was feeling very contented
with myself and all the stuff around me.. while I was brought back to memory
lane by Lihling's mail... realised that I actually have some regrets towards
some pple in my life.. who have sorta become only a memory.. realised how
much everyone has changed.. grown.. and matured.. how outta their lives I've
become.. and how in a few years.. I'd simply become a memory in someone
else's lives..
anyway.. was just talking to Chuan
yesterday.. was getting totally emotional and stuff bout that friend.. then
felt better after she encouraged me.. that things will be better after the
rain.. that things would cool down.. she I just have to leave them the way
they are and wait for her to do something bout it.. ya.. I felt really much
better..
so thanx Chuan.. you've been a great
help..
then today.. woke up feeling
peaceful.. after replying Ling's mail.. felt enlightened.. realised that
some things.. you just have to let it be.. and if you're truly sincere in
your friendship.. you'd accept the way the person is.. no matter what
becomes of her.. no matter how silly she becomes... or how much she's
unwilling to listen to you.. admittedly I was very angry with that friend..
what has changed her? then I realised.. no.. she hasn't changed.. she has
always been like that.. then why is it that I could accept her for who she
is before anything of this happened.. and not now? perhaps coz of
disappointment.. coz of the compromises that she made, the unwillingness to
listen to rational us...(but being in love makes you less rational .. and
for her case.. almost none) which eventually lead to anger.. then 'heck
care' feelings.. maybe she just wants to be loved.. doted on.. experience it
with al her heart... one part of me.. praises her for her bravery.. her
simple-ness.. but most part of me... I beg to differ.. if I see that
we're the only ones trying.. then perhaps its just time to let go.. stop
trying.. and accept.. it'd make our lives much easier.. so yes.. thats what
I'm going to do.. no matter what happens.. we'll be at the other end of the
road.. we'd have move on.. dropping hints along the way and hopefully she'll
catch up with us.. =) I can only hope..
Brother has woken up.. time to go
out~ =)
Have a nice day everyone~
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Nel - feeling cool...
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*touch belly*
hm... on the verge of bursting.. ate
a lot~ and I even bought a strawberry short cake!!!! so xing fu.. hehehe..
Ling told me that at the rate I'm
going.. she's not going to recognise me 5 years from now.. hm.. she's
right.. I should stop eating so much.. but how can I? food is one very BIG
entertainment in my life!!!! no food! no life! wah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but no worries gal! before you come back I'd go on a diet and then you won't
not recognise me~ hehehe..
once again went out with brother to
look at cars.. still concluded that Toyota is the most comfy one.. hehe.. =)
we skipped lunch to have dinner...but then I realised that .. I had dinner
again~ so eh??? its not suppose to be like that what... *confused* I had one
meal at 5.. another at 8.. SHIT! thats two meals~ brother said he's going to
buy supper back for me.. oh double shit!
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