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| Lectures' starting tmr.. hopefully i can switch back to 'study mode' in time... brain so rusty le... haha... Indulgence in studies should be a good way to recuperate... but then come to think of it, is there anything at all to recover from? Don't give me false hopes when there's limitations to your capability... alright, or you can say i'm naive enough to choose to believe you'll someday get my point... As we both agreed, time is an important factor... it actually became the vital role in our relationship... well, ending it this way is the best apparently... though neither one of us want it to be this way... We should have never let this affection come to light at all, not even by slow progress... we know we did the correct thing... i know i did the right thing... but i just hate myself... I'm trying to understand you... i know you have our best interests at heart, making some mistakes along the way... i just hope you'll find your happiness... obligations are here to stay according to your theory... If you think this is easier, i can tell you right now it's not.. but who knows what's going to happen in the future... Ya, I'm probably here to let you know what you really need and want in life... Vice versa... I dun wan you to regret.. You are not fated to get things done through more difficult paths than other people... the choice is yours. You're not saint... just a normal human being searching for simple happiness and satisfaction... I'll not tell you how much this is hurting me... though you say you know but i can't help wondering whether you really care... afterall i may be somewhere in you but not exactly where i want to be... Everything can almost be comparable... only time... i admit defeat... After so much preaching, i think you may still be as stubborn as ever... So... I'll enjoy my singlehood while you'll master the role of a guardian... |
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