My name is Kimberly Baker
I am originally from N.Y. I currently live in Toledo, Ohio.
I grew up in an abusive childhood.
My parents were constantly fighting about money and any other thing.
Well as the years went on things just seemed to get worse.
I couldn�t have been happier the day of my 18th birthday.
To me that meant I was in charge of my life. I could do what I wanted. I could be on my own.
So what I decided to do was join the military. There were recruiters all over my school.
I was going to join the Navy at first but they weren�t having people go until a month later.
There was a Marine recruiter who was taking people a couple weeks after I was going to graduate.
So I looked into that. Plus I was thinking the Marines why didn�t I think about them in the first place?
�If I go into the Marines I can learn how to protect myself.�
When I come home from bootcamp my father will be afraid of me, instead of the other way around.
My grandparents threw me a going away party and they were proud of me.
Off I went for three and one half years.
If you are a female and are thinking of joining the military please ask me some questions.
To start to even talk about my military experience would be another six pages.
After the Marines I had to find a job that would pay for the things I had.
When I saw an ad in the paper (I was in North Carolina at this time) for �a fun, easy job� I was game.
The minute I walked in for an interview I was hired.
I was told that I would make a thousand dollars a week (and I actually believed it).
It was a traveling sales job, selling magazines door to door.
After a few weeks I found out the job wasn�t paying me what they said it would.
They told me that at Christmas time I would get a big check. So I stuck around.
I just wanted to do my job and get paid. At this point I didn't want anything to do with guys.
It all started when I was having a bad day and had only sold one magazine.
You had to at least sell seven, or you had to go to a meeting as soon as you got back from work.
I was walking up the stairs to my room in the hotel when John, who is now my husband, came up behind me and hugged me.
I thought to myself: � what does he think he�s doing?� He invited me to his room with a bunch of his other friends.
He had previously asked me to go to Cancun with him. This job was supposedly a contest and the winner goes to Mexico.
I told him I�d go. So we started hanging out, and eventually going out.
We had decided that this job was not the right place to be. In the middle of the night we escaped.
They didn�t like it when people wanted to leave, they would even beat you up sometimes.
So off John and I went. We were headed to my parent�s house in N.Y.
When I came to visit my mother she thought she had the control over my life again. W
e were talking one day and things got out of control. the cops were called and we were getting kicked out.
My father had done something to my car so that it wouldn�t work and I couldn�t leave.
After an argument he "fixed" the car and we left.
We started heading to Ohio because John had family there and were pulled over by the cops on the way.
My parents had called them. They knew I had expired plates and no insurance and they didn't want me to leave.
Needless to say they took my car. My parents had also told the cops that John had drugs.
So they searched both the car and didn't find anything. The cops laughed and told us my parents called on us.
I had one check from the unemployment office that paid for a night�s stay at a motel.
We called John�s mom and she paid for our train tickets. We were headed to Ohio in no time.
John's mom let us have a place of our own to stay rent free until we could get on our feet.
We immediately got jobs the third day we were there. John and I worked for the same store, in different depts.
I worked for a while and I was an emotional and mental wreck.
There were other things going on at this time, behind the scenes.
I was smoking marijuana all the time and John was involved in the occult.
With all of this going on I was in bad shape. I became very ill and had to quit my job.
John had begun talking to a Christian who would come in and get coffee.
John told him about my condition and he gave John a book and a tape for me.
When John gave it to me and told me this guy said he was praying for me.
I thought, �yeah right, I�m not reading this junk! He said he�s praying for me he doesn�t even know me.�
I had the tape for a couple days before I finally listened to it. I said the prayer with the person on the tape.
I don�t remember what the prayer was for, and started reading the book.
When I read the last word in that book I started to feel so much better.
I got totally healed from my illness, my depression left me, my loneliness was gone, and my anger had left, man!!!!
I felt so good!
John came home and asked me �are you healed?� and he was joking. I said � yes.�
John couldn�t believe it. He must have felt and saw the differance in me and he knew it was real.
I had been reading the Bible prior to that experience because of John�s influence on me.
He kept telling me stories from the Bible.
So I decided that since I had never read the Bible before I would read it and then see if I liked it or not.
I started reading it in Genesis. I couldn�t understand it but I was determined to read it.
I kept on reading it and when I started in Matthew it just started to make so much sense to me.
I didn�t understand it all but I knew in my heart that what I was reading was true.
Even when I started reading in Genesis and it didn�t make sense I never doubted it.
God was preparing me for something all the while. I got saved in August 1998.
That was the month that I was originally supposed to get out of the Marines.
John came to the Lord at the same time but at a different place.
Ever since we became christians God has lit us on fire.
We have a hope for the future.
Our past is where it belongs, behind us.
We are born again, new creatures in Christ, and we know where we are going when we die.
To heaven of course with our Lord Jesus.
Every day we are brought from glory to glory, we are more like Jesus.
He conquered sin, hell, and death.
Jesus redeemed us from the curse of this world ,to be lead blindly by Satan.
Jesus is our intercessor.
If you haven�t accepted Jesus you have denied God's sacrifice.
You are saying you don�t believe in Jesus,
and if you haven�t accepted Jesus to be your Lord,
and you are praying, God can't anwser your prayers.
Jesus tells God our prayers, that�s why he�s called our intercessor.
You may have thought to yourself, I�ve prayed before and it didn�t work.
Did you say �God, I�ve done all I can do with my life and it�s still a mess, I�m not happy, you take my life,
you do something with it?�
God wants you to make that choice to come to him.
He wants your life. He wants to hear your prayers. He wants to forgive you of your sins.
He wants to bless you. He loves you.
If you were the only person on this earth He still would have sent His Son to die on the cross to redeem you and to give you a chance to go to heaven.
God is a God of love.
He knows we are not perfect and He knows that we�ll still mess up.
He created us and has had our lives planned out before the creation of the earth.
He�s not going to be mad at us for messing up.
He�s ready for true repentance, a giving up of your way of doing things and an acceptance of his way of doing things.
We don�t have to be perfect to come to him. I was a giant mess when I said, �make me happy Lord�.
I had tons of problems. I praise God every morning when I get up that I�m still alive.
I praise God that He�s straightening me out, cleaning me up and teaching me more of His love, and His ways.
He�s making me more like Jesus every day.
I praise God for being in my life when I thought He wasn�t.
I look back before I was saved and I can see how many ways God has protected me.
I was a witness to miracles and didn�t know it until I looked back and saw how I could have been killed so many times but something incredible would happen and I would still be alive.
God wants all to come to him in any condition, He knows everything you�ve done and ever will do,
so get some reassurance, get stable, get peace, get joy, get blessed, GET JESUS!!
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