I had one of those nights where you look at the sky and you can see every star in the sky. And it seems that the end of them is where your yard ends. You know the Lord made this as beautiful as it is just for you. Agh, I love those nights. Afterwards though, I had one of the worst nights I've ever had. I tried to go to sleep and right when I laid my head on my pillow satan attacked. He always waits for that one moment, and I hate it. Slowly over time, this has been getting worse. This time I couldn't find the truth within myself. I was immured in darkness feeling lonely. I couldn't see heaven or any light no matter how hard I tried. It got to the point where I was terrified. I had to get up and go in the well lit living room and spend time with the Lord. I wouldn't go back to my room either for fear of being enveloped in the darkness again. Why can't he just leave me alone?