| 19 jun 2001 hm. i've been posting a lot of pictures recently (which is the whole point of getting a digital camera). so my geocities space is getting eaten up. i'm over a megabyte now. at this rate, i'll be able to keep my journal for about 2-3 years. hm. i wonder if i'll be able to keep up with this writing for that long... you know, if yahoo! ever went out of business or something, i'd be fucked. my e-mail is on here, my webpage is on here, my taiko alumni group is on here... yeach. go yahoo! don't fail me... my body's been aching lately. i really hope it's not because i stopped going to my chiropractor. hm. basically insurance decided not to pay for it anymore, because they don't consider it "necessary." but whole chiro philosophy is that it's a _preventive_ and _maintenance_ thing. alas... i'm not going to drop $40 every two weeks for it, though. last week was a really eventful week. i don't say "good" because of the meltdown i had after the incident, but... man, saturday and sunday were really good. of course, saturday was the baccalaureate and the wedding shindig. and sunday was jay's birthday, so we went to this fab breakfast place called stacks, followed by EIGHTEEN holes of golf. i had my first par 4! so that means i've parred a 3 and a 4 in my life once. yippee for me. jay had a birdie on a par 4, which was very impressive. i was supposed to post up a picture from the golf outing, but... oops. i forgot. but anyways, alan and peter rounded out the foursome, but they had to leave after nine holes, leaving jay and i to whip through the next two hours at deep cliff golf course. it's a beautiful 18-holer in cupertino... with scenery of mountains and lots of trees and stuff. poor jay. he has like three weeks of vacation in the next year. wait a minute! _i_ only get three weeks of paid time off too! hm. but he definitely will be strapped for free time on weekends due to being on call or something like that. oh! laurie (the receptionist) just came by and dropped off my hikaru utada cd! hm. i'm listening to it right now. seems ok. basically, i've heard about her for a long time, but it was only after reading some post on winnie's site that inspired me to go on amazon.com and buy her latest cd, _distance_. oh. apologies to glenda for forgetting to update her link on my daily dose. i like the new layout! sorry gg! hey. you there. yeah, you sitting there reading this journal. take a minute to sign my guestbook. or better yet, write me and introduce yourself. there. business is taken care of. i'm not looking forward to this week and next. i've basically got some serious shit to do at work now. my chip comes back from the fab next week, and i have to get this side project done beforehand, so we can start testing and stuff. so i'm ripping through this journal entry before i meet a coworker at 2:30. hm. what to say... i think that i broke this year into a big phase 1, and that phase culminated in emi and shoji's wedding. basically, they weren't supposed to get married for another three years or something, but when emi decided she was moving to japan to be with shoji, they decided to get married because it made sense. so i've been looking forward to that day ever since i found out last december. now what? i don't think i planned out the rest of my year. it's been building up to last weekend, and now that it's come and gone, i feel like i'm in limbo. i really shouldn't hang all my expectations on such a temporal event, but last year, i adopted this philosophy or always looking forward to something. a road trip here, a pmt expedition there, a concert here, a wedding there. i feel a little lost right now. even my big move is over. jay is now my roommate, and i'm pretty much done moving (except for that damn fishtank). i guess i have my trip to japan to look forward to. and i GOTTA settle this vacation thing with karen. and then 5-year reunion and alex's wedding in october. hm. i'll stop whining about having nothing to look forward to, because i do. i have a feeling that 2001 is going to whip by me and before i know it, it'll be november 25th (hint hint) and i'll turn 26 and say, "woah shit! where did this year go?" 26. wow. i'll be "late twenties" after that. *shiver* here's another one of my OCD thoughts. i always think about how hard it would be get somewhere if i could only make right turns, i.e. i couldn't make left turns. this is because my mom once told me a sad story of a woman who was so afraid of making left turns that she only made right ones. so basically it takes FOREVER to get somewhere, and the poor lady had to take along a pillow for her body because of how long her cartrips take. i always have this thought when i exit san antonio from 101 north. it's weird. and it makes me wonder back to my theory that all our actions are pre-determined, given the possibility of infinite knowledge of the state of the universe and stuff. this hikaru utada cd's not bad. it's kind of generic music, though. and her teeth are a little jacked. there are a lot of people in japan who have messed up teeth. it's actually considered cute, i remember being told while i was there. but i asked once, and i think the gist is that dental care is neglected, and i don't think i've ever heard of an orthodontist. and i'm NOT being mean or anything. i'm just talking about an observation, ok? sheesh, man. it's sad how fame makes people try really hard to change their looks. like the spice girls lost weight really fast after "wannabe," britney also lost that little poodge somewhere between her first album and the second. and jewel fixed her teeth really quickly, too. poor people, feeling the pressure of having to look flawless. i feel sorry for them. if i was famous, i wouldn't give a shit about cleaning up my flaws. of course, i say that now, but... well, i do believe that. societal pressure is a horrible thing. i hate it. i've seen what it does to women... obssessing about weight, battling eating disorders. yuck. i wish i could do something to help people feel free. oh well. i gotta meet up with my coworker now. so long! |