Right about me!

A time forgetting the warrior One truth that I am No substance or value without A purity I forgot Death always in store Vivid those days The substance of strength Feeling... being... man NEVER did I back down Sometimes in youth more the torture Never lost my pride Always alone standing Blood at my feet Eve in youth Alone I wait for that moment To stand for self is all The ground and your spirit To flow into a balanced defeat All honor! Forced wars fought holding ground Command of self Solid resolution of right Thinly contained anger... in defense Not proud but victorious This for me and I for you.

Right about me!

everything you wanted to be
heaven something you dreamed was me
what you needed
I seemed to be
you disillusioned
by the freak in me

by your measure
I'm something else
when I pleasure
intricate spells

when wondering about your heart
never once forget the start
the trouble that I seemed to be
base of your attraction
your infatuation
with me

so well read
it made you wonder
great in bed
it made you shudder

you wonder why
now we're not close
because now you pry
and I'm not so verbose

I take you as something
you were plain to see
self absorbing
your sex sooo important
you "gave" it to me

but me, I shared
do you want to know more
no feeling spared
but your thoughts were sure

when this heart loves
it invests in another
if your thought that same
showed no wish to discover
more is the shame

so you see in foul breath
to friends that you mutter
the sickness unto death
No faith to discover

now granted your thought
that we're just no good
we only want sex
that's understood

I play to typical
tour de force
the bastard male
who doesn't understand you...
of course!

Friends

Many thoughts
They develop
Sometime result in faith
Most often not
The things that aren’t eternal
Not more than 2 minutes
In my mind!

Those that care for me
Nothing more important
I may not show it
My life has meaning
All due to them!

What else would you think of

That last moment of breath?

All these moments
Lost in time
... like tears in rain... (Blade Runner)

Skin

A reality presented to me on a bus in Denver...
I wrote this when on a bus seeing a skin head in Denver... we traveled, I knew him, I wrote...

Oh, small man of meager might!
Who love doth come to show the right.
Do you in fickle fascination find,
That your race be best to mastermind.
When all is done, won, and said.
And yours do surely come out ahead.
Would you then indulge your finite pleasure,
Or define a new standard with which to measure?

I would that bounds be made unknown.
That with freedom, truth, and wisdom...
We find our home!

Mr. Wrong

Here we find our peace of mind
In one who is right, we sought to find.
Could we test them further?
To know their might?
Will it stay the same or eternally fight?
NOTHING is intense enough
For my poison thought
Do you realize the type of man you've bought?
If you can handle me, because I'm much trouble!
The pain could get worse... sometimes double
Unspeakable things to rip your heart
Can't promise not to tear you apart.
Stick it through, just a little bit longer.
In time our love grows stronger,
For now we know that things are nice.
An interesting future has much to entice.
Could you hold me for life?
and know you're right?

This one is written over teenage sexual guilt I guess... so long ago...

A Spider

My interjection loved her so
I touched deep without a go
So seems my fate to love the form
A cup seeming full to me
Any body feeling warm
Swept away, in lust, a storm

She lay before me small and frail
Moments previous soul assail
Did she know what was wanting?
Only some cock, empty, flaunting
Would rather fuck than wail...

Was she fulfilled, was she one?
Is she naive, does she know what I've done?
She came to me innocent, beautiful
Heartfelt sympathy, thighs spread full
She let me in, heartbreak begun
Caught in the intricate...
Empty...
Web that I've spun.

50 lashes for your trouble

There she is
The perfect mate
You are perfect
A great mistake
Both accepting
And love is true
Until fault becomes fact
In your ennui

In this hope dies
Cold dissatisfaction
How deep was the love?
What caused this reaction?
Then here lies the heart
It once rang true
So expectations fulfilled
Have become few.

Desire

You with scoff and haughty air
Do so tempt with caress and care
One who empty, needing you
Came with hope and heart true

So gently cared his kindly soul
To find you near, to close his hole
Yours and dread the touch too sweet
On this cluttered path doth we meet

Found you distant, may we touch?
Perhaps once open, now too much
Each touch gently, subtle score
Left me you... and wanting more

I desire and you my flower
Hold one wish
In your power.

Ode to Media

You fell the dam of reason
Cause us to let it all flow
Information by the ton
I don’t have to go
Occupy my will to know

Entertain it all away
Watch out, you’ll miss it, rewind
To much for conscience to stay
Left your futures far behind

Watch what you will never see
What is nature? They’ll tell us
All made idealist for me
Do not disturb it, why fuss?
Hold my beliefs with your truss

Your time gone, thrown all away
Grasp your future yesterday
Necessity only may
Interrupt your minds purvey
Nothing will count, but today

Slanted natter comes your way!

All about you!

There is nothing but you
Alone wanting
Nothing for me
Nothing for anyone
Self is all that’s true
You don’t desire to see

Sometimes there is just…
Nothing… more
Wanting for the truth we desire
The truth of us
Lost too often in your bust
Didn’t speak well penetrating your fire

You haven’t attained this height you claim
I wasn’t impressed with what you called sane
It seems you speak of all you want
You haven’t claimed this lofty goal
In my eyes… to me… you’ve just been a cunt

Make fun of what I’m about
Here I am living today with no doubt
Made my decisions and living with them
You never gave me all of you
Why should I pout?

You stay home and bitch about life
When did you toil or work through real strife?
My cock was as good as the pussy that received it
You didn’t want me until something better or different
So you pissed away something real

Tried to teach you, get you out
Ambition and hope your not about
One time here, last time I deal
Fucked you so hard, so long
I had a cock of steel!

You couldn’t be here for me or anyone
I’d be afraid for you having a son
Your just about you and that’s all you desire
One cum, one time, when it’s convenient
Your alone as you will always be…
On your pire!

Steel Pulse

Everything you understood
Lost in these small moments
Things that you can do today
Everything… kept at bay

You worry, I live
Wonder peers at dawn
Nothing we do makes any sense
Love my friends
More than compliments

Beauty distracts us
Nothing more than a skin
A heart unfolds before you
In my mind only sin

This sweet dream of nothing
A walk in the park
To talk and dream
A deep thought

When internal consequence unfolds
Here we are with the real you
No great admonition
Just a real position

You take the time to be here
Now you deal with me
I’m a lover
There could be much worse
They don’t care to see
You don’t either

We are here alone
No one gives us life
Birth does not imply dependence
We live it because we have to
Time is your backyard

Hope unfolds slowly
What you desire is empty
When you stop caring
Become a child

Everything is real.
Just honesty
It hurts.

Empty

Each time I touch.
Theft!
Want more.
Never enough.
Can I keep it?
Do you have a choice?
Did it make you empty?
I'm bottomless!
Never complete!
The touch.
Sweet transaction.
Electric lust!
It never lasts long enough.
Not hard enough.
Not nasty like I like it!
Then it's over... and I want more!
Who can fill this emptiness?
I've tried so hard.
Who tore this hole?
Why can't I fix it?
Why does everyone hate me?
Why do I care?
Get some!
Then... get some more!

My poetry or prose is my art, I am sharing just a little of it here, Some written when I was very young and others more recent. Let me know what you think of it!

Last updated: Feb. 11th, 2004 James Smith Chicago, IL. E-Mail: [email protected]