| I walked to many hours in the wrong direction Now there's so much static, so much interception I cannot feel My wounds won't heal. I dug myself a hole, it was such a disaster Now you don't talk to me, so much silence after I cannot hide So I guess I'll cry inside. But I, I stand where I am Where I always will be. And I, I know how I feel So tell me, do you love me? I can never find the words for what I'm thinking Hold my head under and I think I'm sinking I cannot fight I'm constrained by all your might. But I, I stand where I am Where I always will be And I, I know how I feel So tell me, do you miss me? I try and I try, oh I try so hard But every time I do I know I'm tearing myself apart, tearing myself apart I say and I say, oh I say so clear But every time I do, you won't come near, you won't come near. But I, I stand where I am. Where I always will be. And I, I know how I feel So tell me, will you forget me? |
| Stand Where I Am- January 6, 2005 |
| Another Time-April 6, 2005 |
| I can feel it. We're just beginning. No point in stopping. We'll continue winning. How is it that I feel more than I have before? I love you more than ever, but I know I could love you more. I'll wait for you as long as it takes. No time compares to the love that we'll make. Get sweet on me. Take me in. A healing warmth, a deep moan from within. Strong hands with the softest touch Is just one reason why I love you so much. Whisper softly in my ear three little words. Romantic to me, you might think it absurd. All time stops, no more are we alone. The experience is almost harder to condone. We hold each other close through the night. I can see your face in the pale moonlight. Skin so smooth and eyes so sweet. A whole-hearted shift to make our lips meet. In this moment I feel safe and at peace. Every painful memory vanished and quickly ceased. Your breath on my skin sends shivers down my spine. I hold you closer because I know that you're mine. You tell me how beautiful you think I am. I say "Baby, you're the strongest man." You stay still as I feel restless. It's a night I fell sleepless. Finally in a deep sleep I am it seems. I wake up alone finding it was all just a dream. |
| Not That Funny- January 14, 2005 |
| Funny how I feel it all. Funny how you wanted to end it all. Funny how it started. Will it be funny how it ends? Funny how we were meant to be. Funny how you never wanted me. Funny how I saw you in my future. Funny how you saw me as such a loser. Funny how it's about to start. Will it be funny when it ends? Funny how I never felt this way. Funny how you wouldn't give me the time of day. Funny how I'd do anything for you. Funn how you'd only do things for you. Is it funny how it never started? Is it funny how it will never end? |
| Alone and Lost- February 2005 |
| I feel alone and lost in this world. What was already crooked became more curled. Over there is where all the broken pieces lay. My broken heart; I see it every day. When I come to you, I feel desperate and weak. So I wait and wait, but still I shall seek To find the beings who love me the way I am To find a friend that can't replace me with a man. I get caught up by friendly ways. All I'm left with is a deadly haze. It washes over me in a wonderous wave. It settles so quick that I can't be saved. Alone and lost is what I'll always be. Am I that transparent? Can you see straight through me? I thought I found my friends for life. I was wrong, now I'm left with strife. Nobody cares to see the shape I'm in. I could run away right now and be forgotten. My tears fall fast, but deep inside they creep. I fear if I show them, my scars will become too deep. A dark silence still awaits me every agonizing day. And I'll become more alone and lost in the worst possible way. |
| Leave It Alone-March 4, 2005 |
| Leave my aching hand alone and cold. You can't make me yours. Forget the dreams we've ever shared. Those have gone out the doors. Speak kindly or not at all. It won't matter to me. I'll spend this evening wishing away the things I wish I could see. Leave my throbbing head alone and confused. You can't mess with it anymore. Forget your next fool-proof plan. I can't take it anymore. Speak kindly or not at all. It won't matter to me. I'll spend this evening wishing away the things I wish I could be. Leave my tired body alone and still. There's nothing more you can do. Forget the way you used me. And I'll forget what I saw in you. Speak kindly or not at all. It won't matter to me. I'll spend this evening wishing away the things I wished you would be. Leave my broken heart alone and shattered. I can't believe I missed this. Forget the way I loved you. And I'll forget you even existed. |
| These years have gone by in fast forward. There was nothing to pause it or slow it down.Now we're one step closer to being college-bound. It seems like only yesterday we were in elementary school. We couldn't wait to grow older and be somebody cool. Since then life has been a cloudy blur, from parties and football games. It seems we've lost all track of time and thought things would never change. But over the years we began to see that this was not forever. Highschool is a mysterious place that bonds us all together. There were more friendships made than there were broken. It all went by too quick, the principal wasn't jokin'. I never thought I'd say that I wish it wasn't the end. Then again, I never though I'd have so many wonderful friends. I'll cherish every amazing moment and lock it in my heart.We'll always be together even when we're worlds apart. I'm happy yet I'm sad. It's all so bittersweet. I know this feeling will hit a chosen few in a matter of weeks. Just remember the good times and throw away the bad. Know that these times in highschool were the best we've ever had. |
| Together Worlds Apart March 19, 2005 |
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