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| Stained (7/15/01) walk, it won't hurt bleed, it won't end fly, it won't help more less maybe it's right/maybe wrong/so so? run faster -given up- derailed, yourself, (delicious) yourself has all you need and you don't know, don't know just how fucking lucky you are. to be (remember) admired and liked, and fucking adored. give me a break - and thirty fucking dollars. (can) ~~~~~~~~~~ Hidden/Fantastic (7/14/01) I. bruised scarred battered torn chipped blemished dulled smashed frightened .perfect. stashed away beyond all vision in your fantastic hiding spot guarded by a digestable exterior, as well as expertise for one to guess that you would hide is quite unheard of - and how strange it is that I should seek this jewel _like a smiling child_ count to fifteen ready or not here I II. I feel insulted two to the right one left one right where are you III. This sparkling gem So deeply dug Only brought out By sentiment, time, and love itself afraid to put it on display, but why? reach out to me, I want to view the so-torn once-gleaming rock (so fantastically hidden) just one taste. ~~~~~~~~~~ Stalemate in a Moderntown (7/7/01) bland, like egg shells wrapped in styrofoam, covered in gelatin (animal bones) they make us chilly and cure diseases like leukemia and utter boredom sleepy, like a fuzzy blanket with fuzzy teddy bear and fuzzy love causes us to feel all warm inside, like the black coffee we drank the night before itchy, like swollen puncture holes caused by mosquitoes and our backyard, all green and trim because we mowed it three days ago, which just so happens to be Independence Day ~~~~~~~~~~ Human, Being (6/16/01) The unexpected entanglement profundity rapture In a good heart, a lost child, a confused old soul, a deep swamp, a saddened hopefulness. can one go through without latching on without caring without screaming because of this torrent hurricane downpour from the big gray sky? a provocation a yearning a discovery a sense of loss connects ~~~~~~~~~~ Neodisillusionment (6/5/01) one Ashes, smoke, urban clouds? Death, tar, abandoned mine shafts? Rock, earth, terra cotta... Sky, sun, ceiling high? two as I swam in the Red Sea, as the bees pollinated the violets, as sunny grape vines, cold apples, burning algae were, I was these and more: I was this. three from the outside it seems so small so undistinguished so floating stopped all brain waves to determine velocity. zero. four There, just here Now. ~~~~~~~~~~ Necessarily Oblivious (6/?/01) Except when the snow floats and the spiders weave when the sands shift and the ice melts, when the adobes crumble and the chisms widen, when the coral spreads and the stars luminesce, when the sequoias grow and the winds chill, when the hearts beat and the clouds gray, when the geysers spray and the fires blaze, when the waves splash and the volcanoes erupt, when the rain pours and the crickets jump, when the sun rises and the minutes pass, I am aware. ~~~~~~~~~~ Dreams/Suburbia (6/?/01) in a candlelit tower in a blossoming rosebud in a close proximity in a faraway future in a throbbing artery in a violet idea in a glimmering crystal fantasy. in a gloved hand in a plastic bag in a pita wrap in a shopping cart in a laser printer in a garage in a display window reality. ~~~~~~~~~~ Rationalized Analyzation of Nonsense or Rx (5/28/01) Miles away, you're the only hope for normality, or what is seen as such to the general population, anyway. Such a void; in time and space, in head and thought, you and I are very much apart, considering priority. This is much too rational for me, however, to be analyzing in this manner: You are as abstract as this feeling for you gets to be. Intense, unjustified passion in need of an excuse or two, Though I see no problem in masterminding three. And furthermore, there is a girl, which truly problematic when i have my sights distinctly set on a man far away. Depression is the immediate result, followed by an empty feeling, accompanied by fatigue and the need to live a fantasy. I wouldn't rather forget about it though, it is my fuel, the energy of a young bisexual who revels in complexity. page2 index |