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| The Verge When it's hidden in the shadow of the smallest cloud in the clearest, cleanest, crispest sky When you can just barely reach it When you're prepared to cry That's when you know you're at the edge When he's wandering through the mass of robotic men tiring of the longest, hardest day When it's imperative that you confer your thoughts But you're lost in a fog of dismay That's when you know you're at the edge When you're lying in your notions scattered about in the middle of the night When you're constantly grabbing to hold onto just one But they keep taking flight That's when you know you're at the edge I've been living on the edge for countless seasons Barely peeking over to see what's below And when I finally do heedlessly leap over I hope that the drop isn't too harsh For I have been known to die in midair Choices (6/19/00) You all thought that I knew better You all thought correctly I reach into the medicine cabinet A variety of fun Which one? So many choices Remember The drink(s) Mix, party, embarass, blackout, blurt, forget What happened? My life changed, that's what happened. I choose mother's pill For something I know not Sounds cool, I thought (open bottle quietly) Remember The rehabilitation Fascinating, the choices, the people, the idiocy Can I try? Maybe later Fill cup with water Calmly swallow Hours later, no euphoria still Maybe tomorrow Wild Tranquility A vast desert Sand stinging my eyes Insects and spiders A snake slithers by I spot a lovely eagle in the distance What a dashing exquisite sight! Oh, as it soars with delicate grace Up in the clear blue sky And I see myself In the turbulent stillness of this desert Wondering How wonderful it would be to soar alongside the eagle To fly with perfect ease Over the canyons and cacti and rodents And to swoop Down into the serene valley And live forever In tranquility Faith in Nothing (4/25/00) There is nothing to renew my faith in love A boy in a bubble never caught the disease Not that I'm contagious or anything Nothing renews my faith in love I burnt out my dream world To repeats of old flames Faith renewed by nothing My constant obsessions went benign I know not another cancer Nothing renews faith The record stopped spinning long ago All vibrations ceased Renew nothing I only go down from here Though I'm already at rockbottom Nothing love access denied No Brakes Required I started moving but I don't know where I'm headed I started flying but I don't know what I sought I went to the bus stop but I didn't like the driver I went to the station but I lost my train of thought And I go And I move And I don't think I am done yet So I'll just keep going Headed towards the end Headed towards that point Don't stop me now I'll just keep going And snow tries to stop me but I just keep going And rain tries to slip me but I just keep going And hail tries to slap me but I just keep going And you try to stop me So I'll stop Slip Slap Cell (1/22/00) I'm driving off the deep end I feel I'm reeling away Blockade my growth of life this trapping can't be happening I thought I could trust Now I know that there's no place to go When I'm nailed down to the ground Claustrophobic this trapping can't me happening Why does one not comprehend the intention Defile my smile for the while i'm going going back Going to implode myself who tried to go Lifelong detention (Wasn't this supposed to stop in grade school?) Interrogation Claustrophobic this trapping can't be happening (Or elementary school for that matter?) I let go Introvert Deal Ashore (11/19/99) Lighter my outsides Turn to a thin pale fabric Darker my insides Turn to a bloody black Greedier they get I try to summon night We will remain in darkness They won't understand the light Loose (10/17/99 <-- it's my birthday!!) Quarrel, fight, deserve my trust Kill me now or take my lust Sad, true, good, bad, rolled in one Take my blood, do what's not done Finish me and wash me clean Once again return to green Glimmer, sparkle, gold from flesh Intertwining, shining mesh Turn me into someone else Turn me loose or I will melt Removed Further Drifting Lost and unseen Flying among the bloody entrails Burning he falls Flaming he flails Damaged Broken Daftly removed Dying among the warm healthy souls Burning he cries Flaming he rolls Blazing Flashing Picking it up Trying to find the cause of the crime Maybe he'll heal Maybe - in time index page2 |
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