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| Dead End Space, twisted Into my maze Sweet, purple haze number unlisted Grace, out of reach Into my maze Sweet, soft, white haze smattered with bleach Pace, swiftly gone Into my maze Sweet, dark blue haze long before dawn Internal structure External bewilderment Into my maze you are sent to find me Blasphemy Into my courtyard Out of my keep Demonstrate noisily how loud you sleep Into my meadow Out of my wood Burn it up quickly, scorch it up good Tangle the tresses Murder the dead Shattered all over, your dull copper head Put out the sun Melt down the moon What is known should be unlearned just as soon Won't stop the blasphemy Barretor Won't stop the blasphemy Here, take Detune my frequency Fog up my window And turn off my lights Thanks For Asking Bash it into my skull Thanks, I needed that Take it and smash it twice One for difference Two for idiocy Let's all paint him yellow Wash his pain away Take it take it take it (he can) Loop, doesn't matter, loop Lather, rinse, repeat, rinse Three times now (Three for not wanting your girlfriend) You know I want it I want it as much as I want Your beautiful trance-inducing witch I'm already burning Don't make the flames hotter Don't bash it in Four times (Four for entirely disliking you) I can't feel anymore Was that a fifth? (Five for superficially liking you) Drown, little demon, drown me Maybe I'll go (away) Yes, I am just wonderful Thanks for asking You beligerent idiot Painkiller (9/15/99) The ultimate painkiller is too good for me to have. The ultimate painkiller freezes my insides. She makes me forget everything She makes me lose control. Without her I am nothing but an empty painful life. The ultimate painkiller doesn't love me anymore. The ultimate painkiller Caused more pain than She fought. She ceased to let me remain sane She stopped all existence. Her absence gave me nothing escept her presence that I fought. Ms. Killer doesn't understand She probably never will But I ask her to please find another Helpless soul to kill Useless/Hopeless On the floor Writhing Snake Deep in the jungle Of my eyes On the floor Screaming Blood Deep in the haunted house Of my mind On the floor Burning Flames Deep in the hell Of my soul In the ground Rotting Corpse Deep in the graveyard Of my heart A Thin Line Between Love And Hate (6/19/99) Why is it when I see your face I want to fall asleep And dream about you all night long A dream so very deep? Why is it when I see your eyes I do not understand Why I so want to touch your cheek And gently hold your hand? Why is it when I see your smile It makes me want to cry This tears of sadness, love, and joy That make me want to die? Why is it when I think of you My brain just falls apart And I can think with nothing else Except my broken heart? Untitled (6/10/99) Though this is beyond the pale All else beyond you Pales in comparison And although you're beyond my grasp I do turn pale When I lay my eyes on you Though having you is a dream I dream of the day when I have your affection And although you have no feelings toward me You are still my dream A forbidden fantasy Though all hope seems lost I refuse to lose hope I will hope For your lost heart To turn towards me And scream "I need you" Though I am an not sure if I love you I want you to know That I want to be loved For I know I'm confused In this world of love This tangled web of which I will never escape Her Favorite Sinner (2/5/99) So why did you put me here? Why did you make me the way that I am? So why did you put her here? Why did you make her the way that she is? To hurt me? To hate me? And I clasp my hands in thanks to you For all the good that you didn't do index |
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