Hey there cutie (aka freakboi!)

I really can't believe it, Chad... honestly.... in all that you wrote in this email, you've effectively managed to touch me very deeply (which, by the way, is not a very easy thing to accomplish). As I sat here aimlessly reading your words, I found myself wanting more and more... didn't really want it to end. In retrospect, I could only compare it to a very powerful drug that slowly eats away inside me, makes me do and say funny things, and eventually sucks the life right out of me - giving me the ultimate high. That is until it wears off, and then I crave it even more.

Your response to my selfless expressions of what I look for in a guy, mutually, made my heart ache from the compassion you displayed in being brutally honest and sincere about how you feel; and it made my stomach ache with laughter from the wit and charm that I've come to expect from you. I think you're such a funny guy, Chad... you always make me laugh, and it seems you always know the right things to say (which is very important).

I guess what I am trying to relate to you is that, for me, in these past couple of weeks, I feel as if I've grown to expect more and more from you. As the days pass, it becomes harder and harder to go for long periods of time without speaking to you on the phone (and consequently, having the opportunity to hear your sexy voice), or getting an email from you.

My friends are constantly asking me what is up with the constant smile on my face, and even though they probably don't understand, I know and realize that it all has to do with the recent joy and excitement that you've brought into my life. I repeatedly find myself thinking about you many times throughout the day, and simultaneously get the burning desire to call you (like right now!). And it never seems to be enough.

At the same time, as much as all of this makes me smile, I have to admit that it scares me silly somewhat because I am not used to feeling this way - especially about someone I've never met!!! It usually takes a very long time before I begin to crave that other person, but you've managed to do it so easily. Seriously, I feel like a 12-year old kid riding the rollercoasters at the amusement park - scared for his life, but also enthused about the excitement of it all.....

Anyway ----- I think I am going to head to bed..... I am so tired because I have been up far too long and I truly cannot keep my eyes open..........it would have been groovy to have the chance to spend some time talking with you, but my head can no longer wait... I feel like I am going to pass out.... I tried calling you when I got home (at 6:30p) but there was no answer and all I got was the answering machine.... so I left a cheesy message, just in case someone else retrieved it first.

If you want, you can call me when you get home... I can't promise I'll answer (considering I'll be passed out), but if I hear the phone, I'll try my best to get out of bed and answer it!

I hope you're having a good time, and wish I could be there with you!

Take care!

Mike