Apparently I didn't send a reply back to his email. I'm guessing that I had called him instead. Which makes sense with the following email that I had called him. Because I remember before getting off the phone with him that night, that he was going to send pictures of himself. I must of asked Mike why he doesn't call himself Teddy or sign his emails as Teddy. So after we got off the phone and after he sent his 'naked' pics, he sent this:

Hey baby........

Well, I guess by now you probably saw everything.....how embarassing!! I think I am going to curl up in a ball and die - seriously. I've never done anything like that before - bare all to someone I don't know, that is. It just goes to show you how comfortable I've become with you. *blushes*

Oh well, I guess there is nothing I can do about it now.... absolutely nothing. What's done is done! Hopefully, you haven't died from the shock you must have felt when you saw them.. (That would not be a good thing..I'd miss you too much.) Anyway, about your last email...........

I rarely (don't say I never) call myself Teddy just because, well, I suppose I don't really think about it when I am writing.......... or perhaps it's because I am afraid that if I do, I'll start signing all my emails "Teddy" and well, that would not be a good thing. Before you know it, when I am at work writing emails to important people, I'll accidentally sign them "Sincerely, Teddy" and well, you could imagine what interest that would create. Besides, I don't ever see you calling yourself "Freakboi"......so there! hehe

Again, I am glad that you liked the email I sent you the night before.......it makes me feel good to know that it made you feel good. But seriously, Chad, it was all true. I meant every word I said. It seems that you've found a way to make me feel "special". I really enjoy the time we spend together talking on the phone, and oddly enough, it seems I can never get enough of you. I could just sit there listening to your voice forever....and ever.

Like I said, you always seem to know the perfect thing to say, and because of that, I feel so comfortable talking to you. It makes me want more and more from you. I couldn't possibly count the numerous times during the day that I think about calling you...just to hear your voice.... Or how badly I feel when I come home and check my email and there's nothing from you. Or the times that I've wished I could be there to just watch you sleep next to me. These are all signs of what this closeness does to me. It makes me needy. It makes me crave more of you....and eventually I'll want it all.

I find it very strange feeling this way about you... on one hand, I am extremely happy about it. It makes me feel so good to feel this way; on the otherhand, I struggle with the confusion of making sense of it all. I often wonder to myself where this is leading, and if you're thinking and feeling the same things that I am, too.

And really, I understand where you're coming from, Chad. I know it's not easy to feel this way, and sometimes when we've felt that way in the past and have been hurt by it, it truly makes it harder to feel that way again. I have no clue what's happening between us, Chad....and really I don't care to know. I'd be content just keeping things the way they are and see where they can take us..........

However, I can assure you of one thing; and that is that I would never ever purposely hurt you in any way. It would hurt me more knowing that I have caused you any pain. And really, you should never feel embarassed to talk to me about anything. I am constantly burning with the desire to know what's going on in that pretty little head of yours... what you're thinking or feeling....and I don't want you to ever feel like you have to keep something from me to spare judgement.

Anyway, I hate to say it, but Elise just got home and she looks a little out of it. She must have had a pretty good time. It looks like I am going to have to babysit her until she falls asleep.... it appears my job is never done.

I hope you enjoyed the bedtime stories I read you. (Perhaps one day, we'll be able to write our own ....lol)

And I hope you have a great day at work... I'll be thinking of you, no doubt.

I'll call you either before or after lunch. I can't wait to talk to you.

Take care,

Teddy.