It's the first weekend of August at this point of time. I'm going home for 5 days. And in preparation, I wrote him three emails and sent them all at once.

Teddy,

Teddy, Teddy, Teddy. Waiting for you call was completely unbearable! I waited for nearly 4 hours for your call. And it was an eternity. I just came to the realization that spending the entire weekend is going to be very difficult. I'm starting to miss you already.

I so didn't want to hang up with you. I just wanted to talk to you and listen to you and never let you go. Want to know something embarrassing? When I was on the phone with you, I was leaning back in my chair with my head on my desk, and I was saying, I don't want to let you go and I looked incredibly pouty and my supervisor comes walking in and looks at me. So I sit up and I felt completely stupid.

All I can think about now is you. I wish I was small enough to fit in your back pocket so I can always be with you, and next to your ass. Actually, why would I want to be in your back pocket when I could be in your front pocket? (pant, pant, pant) Or better yet, I could sew on a special pocket right over... ahem. Awwww call me now! I wish you'd call me! I need you, I didn't get enough of you. I feel so shafted! I think I'm going to cry!

My supervisor just asked me if I cast my vote for the Sunshine Girl thing-a-ma-bob. Aah, hello I'm gay! And deeply enamoured with my Teddy! Ooh, I'm soo pathetic. I want you so bad. I want to hear you're voice. My poor Teddy is unhappy at work and I want to go over there and cheer you up. I just want to watch you be yourself. I wish I was invisible and watch you look serious, or bored, or lonely, or watch you think of me. Hmmm, maybe even watch you make your bed springs squeak? Hehehe.

I'm so tired. I want to take a nap when I get home. I wish I could go home take a nap and be awaken by you when you got home. And either you climb into bed with me and hold me tight until we both sleep or get frisky! Hehehe. Oh my gawd, did I just use the word frisky?

Now I'm sitting here thinking nasty thoughts of you. Gosh I think I'm horny. Mmmmmm, oh yeah, uh-huh, do it, oh yeah, oh, oh damn! I betcha you wish you could know what was going through my head. I'm like so bad right now. I'm sitting here in my cubical, with a massive hard on, and I just touched myself. Hmmm, I have 20 minutes left of work... no one is in the office... RATS! Someone came in. Oh well :(

I'm looking forward to going back to London to see all my friends. I so much want to tell them about this absolutely amazing guy I've met. I want to tell them that this incredible boi has made me completely happy. I want to tell them that I uncontrollably miss him too! And that I can't wait to get back to Ottawa to call him and hear his voice again! Well I guess I could mention you too. HAHAHAHA Just kidding Teddy! I wove you!

When I do go back home though, I'm making sure that I bring my N'sync song, This I Promise You, cause it reminds me of you and our time talking on the phone. I think its so cute that you've always had it playing in the background every time I called.

Well, it's almost time for me to leave work. I can't wait to get home and check my email! And I'm sure you'll be surprised with this second email right away! Cause I only want to make you happy!

Call me, I miss you and need to hear your voice badly!

Chad.

P.S. Read the 2nd email at 4pm!!!

The second email.

Teddiness!!

Well I am almost all packed up. I expected to start writing this email much earlier. Like before my supervisor came in. But I had too many little things to take care of first. Like call you and hear your voice, probably for the last time this weekend. I just finished printing 5 of your recent emails, 9 pages in total. I had to shorten the margins on 2 of your emails so they could fit on one page, otherwise, I would have printed out 11 pages. I'm desperately going to need these on that long train ride. I'm going to read them over and over!

My next little item on my agenda is too surprise you with this email, along with the first one, and one that I intend to write after this one is complete. I want to make you happy! I want to surprise you! I wish I could be there to see your face when you see these 3 emails!

My gawd, it's already 9:30am and I'm leaving at 11:45am. And I still have to have a meeting with my supervisor to go over the final touches before he leaves on this 2 week vacation. I've just been handed the only project that concerns us and I now have to monitor it. Woo who! I feel so important. Oh well.

I really enjoyed our conversation last night! It was fun. I hope you didn't get too offended with my teasing. That's just another part of me that you got to see. I like to tease and make jokes. Well, to put it more blunty, I like to make fun of stuff. Whether its things you've said or done. Like when you said: "You'll have my FULL divided attention." LOL, you make me laugh. There are other examples, but they escape me at the moment. But you've said a number of things.

You're still shy and embarrassed to admit your feelings aren't you? I wanted you to whisper sweet nothings into my ear and you just made up some excuse. But that's okay. I'm a patient guy, and I'll wait til you feel comfortable. It's no biggy. I'd rather wait, cause I know it'll be better later. I think it's so cute that you just keep holding yourself back! I can just imagine all the cute, romantic and even erotic things that go through your mind! Open up and share them with me! I'd love to hear them!

And what's with this mysterious stuff? Hahaha. But if that's what you want to be, go for it! I'll humor you! I don't understand it, but if it's that important to you, then I'll play along! You're so cute.

So how frustrated are you with my monotone voice? Has it driven you to the edge yet or what? It bugs most of my friends, but they've come to except it over time. It won't be long now before I answer the phone with out any enthusiasm in my voice when you call. I'm still excited to hear from you, but it just doesn't sound like it. My best friend in London always had a problem with that. I'd answer the phone, "hello?" and he would say "Hey how'r you doing?" And I'd pause for a second and then say, "Oh, good." And the Oh sounds like I'm disappointed that he called, like I was expecting someone else to phone me. But I'm always glad to hear from him. He makes fun of me every now and then.

But anywho, so yeah, that's me. Just ole plain and boring voice Chad. I had lost of fun last night. I don't care if I'm tired right now, cause it was sooo worth listening to you talk last night. Although, that whole eBay thing? I can't believe you sit there and do that while I'm on the phone with you! I had to entertain myself with my Official Rubber Chicken Practical Joke and Riddle Book, while you went on and on aboot ebaying. But that's ok. I like getting the shaft and being neglected. That's what I'm all aboot!

Listening to you this morning was a real treat! I hope someday we can take a shower together! And I can wash your hair and body, maybe give you a quick blow job! Well hay, I've got to make sure every nook and cranny is clean! It was so cute listening to you brush your teeth. I wish I was there to help you get ready, watch you. I'm sure you look really cute with messy hair and everything. Thank you for that special treat! I'll take those images with me on my long journey!

Well, I've got to end this letter here. I just got busted. I better get some work done. Besides, I've got to start writing the next email! And If I keep this one going, then I'll run out of things to say on my next one! I'm going to miss not hearing your voice! It's going to suck not being able to pick up the phone and just call you. And don't worry, you'll always, always be on my mind! Why do you think I'm taking those emails you wrote to me! I always want to feel that special warm glow that you give me in my heart!

Take care and try to have fun this weekend. Relax and try your best not to miss me. I'll be right back. I love you a lot, more then words can say.

Love,

Chad.

P.S. Read the third email at 9pm

And the third email.

TEDDY!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!! Is that cool that I used CAPS for that? HUH!?!? I miss you so much. My heart sank so fast when you said "I love you". Well, how did you do? Did you follow my instructions? Is it 9pm right now? Or did you read all these emails right after another!? I don't care though. You're cute either way. Whether you saved each email for the time they were suppose to have been read or if you just read them all at once.

Since it's 9pm, I'm guessing. I'm either with one of my many friends either starting to get drunk at a party, or I'm sitting outside on the deck with my head resting my arms looking into the north sky thinking of you and wishing you were with me. Wish I could hear your voice!

I can't make this email as long as the other ones cause I just got off the phone with you, and I have to leave within the next 15 minutes. Plus I have to run downstairs to send these off.

I love you, take good care of yourself, and I'll call you when I get back on Monday. Don't be too sad, I know you can survive without me. I did my best to make sure you a bit happy by doing all this work for you. Calling you in the morning, sending three emails... Read them over and over, I made sure I threw a little bit of everything into those emails, a little romance, a little naughtiness, a little bit of humor!

Okay, unfortunately this email has to end, and it's going to end here. Take care, I love you, and stay happy!

luv,

Chad.