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| June 30th 2003 Here's Bill at Pride with protestors. Silly Bill... |
| July 1st 2003 Its a new month, June is over. it was eventful. i didnt get all that i wanted to get done, but oh well, atleast I got to travel. God I loved it. Both Asheville and New York were exceptional. Being at rally made me excited about college. It isnt where i expected to end up, but whatever, its an experience. 1 stick of butter, gram cracker crust, sweetened condensed milk, simi sweet chocolate chips, coconut, and peacans. This taste like Christmas. Oh, July. What will I do with you? I have some plans. it should be interesting and challenging. |
| july 2nd 2003 Sometimes its harder to forgive yourself for the things you haven't done then the things you have. Sometimes you have to forgive yourself so you CAN do them. I wish there was a song that defined this; it would be my little theme song for this time in my life. Hmm... i think I'll just pretend that a Coldplay does the trick. sigh... I'm sad, but not in that terrible way. i need to put my glasses on. i think im done writing now. |
| jjuly 10th, 2003 i made him a book, but its not finished. he gave me speakers because mine didnt work i screamed at him on Michigan Ave I danced with him to 41 I thought about making him a tape but never did i took polaroids of the stars with him last summer i leaned over a big fake leather couch for him, and cried i hung the phone up on him 5 times in a row i told him my hair was blue, it wasnt he brought me home, i sat in the front seat he said we could make a garden; we never did. i made eye contact with him, but was too scared when he said hi he told me i was pretty; i thought he was gay |
| processing a part of me feels I've lost my best friend, but then there is this other, bigger part that feels like I'm meeting her for the first time. i think it had/has to be that way for growth. its 6:30 AM and i havent gone to bed yet. |
| 7/30/03 There is a boy named Allen. I have no idea what Allen's last name is, but he has an afro and always carries around a CD player. Allens screenname is a political statement and he likes to beat on things, not people, just things. He and I share milk toasts and jumping from stools to couches. I love Allen and my personal theme song for him is "Beautiful world" by coldplay. I dedicate July 30th to be Afro Allen day. May everyone across the land enjoy milk and fluffy coaches while listening to Incubus. |
| August 18, 2003 have you hugged a Swede today? |
| August 19th, 2003 (4am) I like the line, "True love lives on lolly pops and crisps." I like seeing little girls walk really big dogs. I like the way my mom walks around naked without any apologies. I like reading my name in people's online journals. I like the name Isaac. I like my "Hi my names Chad, I'll be your coffee mug today!" coffee mug I like the way Betsy touches her stomach. I like my ugly brown chair. I like the way it feels when I hug someone and they take in a deep inhale when i release a deep exhale. It's like our breathes are puzzle peices.. I like the way Bill has never been to my web site and probably never will. I like notes in my guestbook. (hint. hint) I like the Indian women that go power walking around my neighborhood in their illaberate outfits . I think this bird is cooked. Goodnight. |
| honestly. i am Tyler Durden. I enjoy lavender plants and chamomile tea. Yeah, thats right BITCH! |
| August 31, 2003 You know what excites me? I think about how much I grew from freshman year in high school to senior year and I apply that to college. I can't even imagine where I am going or where I will be at the end of this experience. There is so much out there to discover. I spent a thursday night dreaming and smoking with Josh. How pleasant. |
| Auguest 10, 2003 and I pushed just to see if he would push back. and I said and did things that arent usually in my character just to see his reaction. I wanted to see if he would take it. I fence walked |