by Kat.
If ever again i'd get to do what i've done before.
I'd enphamise the sceen we played onto the rapour.
I've never known a simpler way to keep my hands pried down.
Then tie them up, and keep them safe.
Safe from midnights shrowd.
If ever I got to do again.
I simply would decree,
it wouldn't bother me at all.
In any shrieking means.
this is what I keep..."
You are what I was thinking,
just when you asked me that.
Your the pieces to the puzzle,
that you haven't finished yet.
And when your there,
all I want is to be near.
Caz when your gone,
i'm gone.
If nothing I ever say to you,
means not anything,
then let this be the Silver Moon. And you,
a Silver Ring.
Why do i bother wasting time being ignored, it's just a waste of time. & what am i wasting it for. Charles and his bullshit about getting me flowers when i was expecting them. i'm so sick of it@ all of it. why do i put up with it? why? now that i have to share everything at work i don't mind so much that we're moving over. Mir occupies my phone as if it were his. These blue sheets are slower than shit and Charles is erking the fuck out of me@ Rasheed sounds like a horse when he clears his throat. Sonam- i hate@ Mike sorta knows what he's doing. Dave comes over and starts talking about jews, i used to be one.... i find it fascinating that a history major is so shocked when they're wrong. as if to say everything in text books is the truth...
-memorial day weekend-
Will you ever know,
just how much you mean to me?
Will you ever have a clue?
For far & wide our worlds collide,
and i'm Trapped inside of you.
If it ever rains and you are near,
I will never feel a drop.
If I ever pour and your heart's full,
i'll make sure to steal a cup.
When in the night,
you held me tight,
your warmth all I could feel.
Caz by the dawn, all that was gone,
& I doubt if it was real.
June 3rd- san's birthday.
Get a place first.
Get movers second.
I already have 4 options.
Move in a period of 2 days.
whether he likes it or not@
I could slowly sneak stuff out; over the course of 2 weeks- possible.
timing out packing of rooms:
bedroom- 2 minutes tops.
restroom- 1/2 hour to 45 mins.
furniture- have 2 rc's, bed, 2 stands, table, white-
kitchen- done.
closets- 5 to 10 minutes.
finish:
books box/ kitchen box/ clothes box/ blankets box/
:tear drops:
i hate being here... at least i got to talk with carrie about ALAN. i'm so twigging and all i wanna do is hide from everyone BUT him... i can't get him out of my mind@ and i can't get away from charles either. god i hate him- charles- for the way he makes me feel. and i'm afraid to trust carrie or alan. afraid everything will happen all over again- whores-ville. when i'm with him, all i can do is smile. and when he's gone i'm More than sad.
it hurts so much right now...
by Kat.
I'll never look at you the same again, as I did that night.
I'd distinguished the difference, falling out that night.
Every amount of it mattered,
all of it will make me cry.
To know that the fleeting possibilities are easily standing by.
To watch you in the moonlight.
To see your smiling face.
To never, ever, ever know,
if I stand within your grace.
I see you walking by & by.
Your memory is bliss.
And even when you aren't there,
your hand I want to kiss.
If all the words, and all the lips
defined what happened now.
I certainly would decree
to see you more so now.
Yet though I know simpletries.
And though I would not lie.
I'd never try to do again,
the kiss from The Devine.
And yet no one will ever know.
The truth behind the rhymn.
I'll promise you to see it first.
For your eye wears its crown.
Suddenly, the winds blew,
& there you were.
Instantly I knew,
that you'd do,
what my mind is in rapture for.
As he stopped me, and held me close at hand.
He swirled me, trapping my left arm in sudden demand.
My head spun as my body quivered-
with ecstasy and delight.
To free my hand and bring him in, was my next goal in the night.
Holding me dreadfully close.
And locking with me, in a dramatic way.
I felt myself be turned around,
like in a movie or a play.
And though the time,
though short and swift,
took me for a whirl.
I never stopped to pull away.
I stopped to ask for more.