Headaches Suck!

I went outside and read my book during my lunch break. It was really nice outside today, just a tad bit chilly though. I miss my nights outside. Those are the best. I loved going out during break and seeing the stars and moon. Especially in the spring when there was a nice breeze. Nights like those are best spent in a hammock...just lying around and watching the stars...*sighs* It's been a long time since I've done that...

Love is the ability to drop labels.

Love is the ability to reach an understanding.

Love is the ability to drop selfish emotions.

Love is the ability to share a sensation.

Love is the ability to care about someone elses satisfaction more than your own.

Love is sharing an emotion.

Love is sharing the lightest of touch.

Love is that glimmer in an eye that reassures you that they want the same thing.

Love is being on the same wavelength.

Love is understanding.

Forget what you have read. Forget what you have been told. There is a beauty inside all of us that remains untapped.

There is no greater love than the love of the excitement you can give to another which has it's rewards in the love they return unto you.

Love is understanding. Love is the power. Love is the energy. Love is the key.

The rewards cannot be found until all that is learned is unlearned and you can find yourself in the satisfaction and pleasure you can find in the smile you can place on anothers eyes.

I am thinking of getting a tattoo. I have the image in my head, one day soon I'll draw it. It's a pentacle with ivy growing on it and a few purple flowers. I think I'll get it done by summer. I wonder how bad it would hurt to get it done on the back of my neck.

My drugs kicked in a while back and made me oh so very loopy, but their effects went *poof* too soon! I took another and am waiting for it to work. My toe is purple. I like the color purple, but not on my toe...unless it's painted on my toenails, then it's okay. I think the lady taped my toes too tightly, I had to fix that. *cringes* It hurt really bad! If I drank, I would have one, but I don't drink anymore, so I won't. But it would be nice, but I'm going to be a good girl and not have one, plus it would just make me sleep or something.

Sleep would be nice though. Good sleep.

Sleeping is going to be interesting tonight, I just hope I *can* sleep. I have had so much trouble with it lately. Nothing really odd or that's bothering me on my mind, just things. I mean, even stuff from posts at the Inn, books I'm reading, work, stuff around the house that needs to be done, or even games I play go through my mind. Nothing bad, just...the thoughts are there. Well, it's bad when I think about doing house stuff or yard work and then wake up and realize that it was only in my head and it's not actually done in rl. That sucks! My mind doesn't shut down and even though I am actually asleep, I think I'm not. It's just so annoying! I realized at some point that my body was asleep while I was thinking last night, then I completely woke up. My back hurt and I wanted to get up, but I wanted to try and fall asleep for a couple more hours. That was at 2am. I finally got up before 5am after tossing and turning a million more times. Then that's when I whacked my toe. Bleh.

I picked up the book called _The Vampire Armand_ by Anne Rice while I was hobbling through the pharmacy today. I hope it's good. *smiles* Shame on me for adding yet *another* book to my pile of books to be read. I have a book addiction, not that it's a bad thing, but it makes moving a pain! hehe

We played Scrabble again tonight. I would have been able to do the word "drow" if the game hadn't suddenly ended. *pouts* dangit! I'm happy that Dylan really enjoys playing that game. He was good during homework tonight. He had to put his spelling words in alphabetical order. He's not too confident with doing this, but he did really well and I gave him lots of encouragement! Dylan gave me lots and lots of hugs tonight and helped clean up after dinner. He's such a good little boy. I'm a very lucky mom! :-)

Now that my painkillers have kicked in well, I am feeling better. Okay, my toe still hurts like hell, but I'm loopy feeling and stuff. Hopefully I will rest well and have decent dreams and not think all damn night again. I remember doing this crap for a month straight once. I don't want a repeat. *sighs*

Well, I broke my toe this morning. I hope I am able to wear my shoe on that foot. It's pretty swollen. It *really* hurts and this is not a good way to start the day. Not a good way at all.

*sighs*