| Monday September 2nd 2002 I don't think I'll ever forget yesterday as long as I live. Two memorable events have ensured it. The first (and less significant): I was logged into Quest waiting for LA to show up around midnight as promised, when this chick I've never talked to messaged me from no where: Chick: hey.. Me: something about 'Happy Labour Day, almost' Chick: you look cute,,,any more pics... Me: Flattered - sure, visit my web site at http:.... Chick: i don't have time for that,,,can you send it to <her email> Me: Maybe - but fyi, if you visited my site you'd see I'm pretty attached to someone I've met here. Chick: iam not into attachment... and i don't care.... do you like to have fun or not ... how big are you..? Me: Sorry, I'm not into casual sex - hard luck for you, I'm probably the only guy on Quest who isn't! Chick: then ..bye,,,too bad,,,you cutie .... may be we could go for 3some .. my girlfriend likes you,,,lol ... lol Me: Sorry! I'll probably slap myself for being an idiot in an hour or so :) Right about then (and not before, I swear) I thought this might be LA testing me so I stopped replying. But I'm pretty sure now that it wasn't. So I turned down every man's dream fantasy - gulp!! But something far more important has happened. I'm in love. It's crazy to feel this way about someone I've only chatted with on email and on the phone - but LA feels the same and neither of us wants to deny it. Ten times out of ten, I am a man of reason before I am a man of passion. But this one time in my life, I want this thing to happen so much, I'm willing not to care. I'm willing to get hurt and take this risk for someone. It's the advice I would give anyone - that when you think you've found that person, however unsure, never let them get away. Take every chance, turn down every threesome :) What's an episode of explicit, mindbogglingly erotic sex next to ... :) ... next to finding the person who could be the love of your life. I've never, never felt this way before about anyone, ever. This has to be right. |