Wednesday ~ February 16, 2000
Yet Another Beginning...
It's been 7 months since
I've written a single word in this journal... it seemed like so long ago,
I don't know where to beginning.
I could just recap on
the challenges of being a bandleader, the headaches and frustrations of
hustling for work, and now juggling family life, freelancing and trying
to promote and book my own band.
But I feel I should concentrate
on my inner-workings, which I seem to have neglected, things I felt made
me a better musician because I seemed to tap into some unexplainable yet
inspirational areas in my own creativity.
But now I'm back and I'm
feeling pretty good about myself, enough to get back into this journal
and write and analyze how I feel.
Anyway, I was intending
not to allow this journal to simply be a documentation of my daily experiences,
but more like a personal account of my internal thoughts, and things I
don't generally discuss with anyone... thoughts I keep to myself. I might
discuss some thoughts and reactions to something that happened during my
daily experience, but I would concentrate on how I handle it on a deeper
level.
A great example of what
I'm trying to talk about could be best described in the following work:
The conditions of a solitary bird
are five:
The first, that it flies to
the highest point;
the second, that it does
not suffer for company,
not even of its own kind;
the third, that it aims its
beak to the skies;
the fourth, that it does
not have a definite color;
the fifth, that it sings
very softly.
-- San Juan de la Cruz, Dichos
de Luz y Amor
And with this---my journey
back into my own inner thoughts begins...
RECENT LISTENINGS:
Weather Report - Heavy
Weather
Mozart - Clarinet Concerto
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