THURSDAY        October 15, 1998      
         
 
Trying To Stay Afloat 
  
My life has been so busy lately,  I feel as though I have no time to breath!   I have a busy musical career now which is great.  What more can you ask for.   It's just that this career is taking off at a time in my life when I thought I would never be this successful.   I have a wife and family to take care of as well,  and although I am financially starting to see something happen in music,  I am spending more and more time away from home,  which affects my family life. 
  
My wife and I got into a very big fight last Sunday.   I was so exhausted from the Oktoberfest concert that I was simply too tired to do anything when I got home.   My wife wanted to do some things and wanted to go out.   I was simply too tired to do anything.  She got very angry with me and slammed the door on her way out.   With that,  I flew into a rage!   I was very tired and she couldn't understand that.   Anyway,  I kind of went crazy,  throwing things around,  pound my fists on the wall.   My wife and my two boys left in the family car.   When they finally came back,  my wife was scared and ready to calll the police.   She kept the kids away from me,  and she said she wanted a divorce!!! 
  
Anyway,  the next day,  I sent an email to one of the lists I belong to,  the barflies list.   I got so many responses from people all over the country that I didn't know.   Everyone basically said to keep my head up and things will get better.   I know I probably shouldn't have said anything because this was a private matter,  but I was really down in the dumps and I needed someone to talk to,  and I thought that the barflies list is the perfect forum.   Someone mentioned something about 'love will conquer all' or something like that,  which gave me the idea to send a dozen long stemmed roses to my wife at work.   I did,  and my wife called me on the phone from work saying she had gotten the roses.   She apologized and I apologized as well,  and we did reconcile amongst tears of joy. 
  
Now we have vowed to stay together for the kids,  but our relationship has gotten better because of our fight.   I realize too that I need to show more affection fro my wife and show her I care.   I think the 'love will conquer all'  is a great saying... 
  


 
 

CDs Played Today:  

    Led Zeppelin - Four 
     
Last  Movie Seen:  
    Wild Things (video)
Last Book Read: 
    The Complete Poems of Marianne Moore
Tonight's Gig: 
    SDSU Video Shoot 
    The Casbah
     
 
 

 
 

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