I failed
I let you down
I say this as I�m leaving
feeling that now I�m at peace
I say this as my eyes are closing
No longer feeling tired
I say this as I�m falling asleep
removing the burden I am in your lives
removing the burden I carry in mine
I say goodbye
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AND THOSE WHO NEVER UNDERSTOOD
I have childhood photos
Just me and my brother
sitting in the same chair
looking like we owned the world
I�m always surprised when I see myself smiling
I wonder if I was really happy back then
or did I already know how to pretend?
I can�t even remember how it was
not hating myself
thinking I was good enough
that I deserved something from this life
seems so long ago
like it never really happened
I always cry when I see myself smiling
I�m sorry if that upsets you
I know I�m not supposed to show emotions
not supposed to cry
you only want that smile
the one I lost when I grew up
well, I can�t find it anymore
it�s gone
Fair repair
put my bones back where they belong
my head is making noise
static
static
attacking, attacking
always endless static
feels like something�s going to explode soon...
Yeah, she loves me
she tells me so
it�s my birthright
carved in stone
Except when I don�t do as I�m told
Except when I�m not happy
Except when I don�t behave
Except when I complain
Except when I slam the door
Except when I tie up the phone lines
Except when I disappoint
Except when I�m myself
But when everything�s all right
then she loves me
she really does
