The last in line
With insecure eyes
Staring at something that isn�t there
Just to keep from crying
Just to avoid your eyes
The sad clowns can tell
Something is wrong
And they laugh at me
But inside they�re the same
I know they hurt just as I
I know somewhere someone�s laughing at them too
The world will judge them
As they judge me as I judge them
Unforgiving pain
On this stage
We�re all circus freaks
Torn apart by the looks we get
Acting as if everything�s okay
Aching to be accepted
So many sacrifice themselves to fit in
So many fall trying to stay high
Seems unthinkable
That we could fly with our own wings
When everyone else seems stronger
So where will I go tonight?
Anywhere but here
Any place but home
As long as I�m alone
Somewhere where the rides are free
Somewhere where people don�t laugh at me
I�m lying in a bed that�s not mine
but I�m fine
The tears on the pillow must be someone else�s
because I don�t remember crying
Standing in a crowd
but everyone sees through me
and I struggle to keep up
as everybody moves along
I guess they didn�t hear me
when I asked where we were going
I�ll fix my own dinner tonight
my parents aren�t home
maybe they mentioned where they were going
and I just forgot
maybe there was a note
and it got lost
maybe they will be home soon
In the corner
in the dark
not dancing
not laughing
just waiting
for the party to be over
avoiding attention
wondering why I even came
Wherever I am
I�m always alone
Thin white lines in my skin
turning red
they begin
to bleed again
I�m not sure if I�m dying
or it�s a dream
I will only know
if I ever wake up
In a faded photograph she waits
In a bitter pill I escape
Yesterday is 20 years ago
Tomorrow is uncertain
Love is in the burn
Love is in the cut
Love is in the tear
Love is in the way I shout your name when it rains
Love is uncertain
Hate is so much easier
But I love you anyway
