What if this is all I am?
All I'll ever be?
No toothpaste smile
no Coca Cola breath
Buy it, be it
drink it, live it
I'm just stumbling along
Bodybagged and toes tagged
I lie here waiting
what if that's all I'll ever do?
22
years of misery
22
birthdays gone by quietly
22
broken bones
22
painful memories
22
sins to confess
22
ways I've failed
22
years alone
and many more to come
We all want to feel it
a reason to be alive
love
Written in the stars
a story untold
no words could ever be enough
broken hearts of loves gone by
It is what we are
what we are made of
the need we are slaves of
bitter loss and feelings crushed
but worth it all
I held my breath
imagined what it would feel like
to die at the hands of your lover
cold water all around you
all inside you
I imagined the moment when the pain disappeared
the shock passed and the terror faded
I imagined dying with you
but then breathed summer air again
and you were not there anymore
I imagined life without you
alone
and as I held you under undisturbed water
I wondered where you were now
free at last?
a better life
not so alone
love
it is the great romance
we are all waiting for
It is you and me
together
