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| "Numerous Thoughts" |
| RESENTMENTS? |
| Just another word eliminated from my vocabulary since the beginning of this recovery. One of many negative terms. I mean to tell you all, that I do not resent the fact that I spent 28 years of my life as a drunk. I know today that was what my God of my understanding had in store. That I was to drink myself to death at a young age. So that God could save me and help in changing my life through the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous. To erase all the resent-ments that I had acquired. So that today I can live in sobriety and share with you all my experience, strength, and hope. With no resentments attached. Bingocliff 2/5/04 |
| CAN U IMAGINE THIS? |
| After struggling in and out of Alcoholics Anonymous for fifteen years, I finally was able to grasp and develope a manner of living which demanded rigorous honesty. This had become the key element for this alcoholic to achieve the acceptance of the first suggested step of AA. Over the course of the next six years, I had been able to work all the suggested steps of AA, because I have been able to hold to the capacity of being honest. Honesty with thyself has been the link to discover and believe in a God of my understanding. The help of my HP has lead this here alkie down a path in fulfilling a life of peace, happiness, and love with all mankind and ladies too. Without honesty, I would of joined the thousands that have been unsuccessful in changing their lives and ended six feet down tossing and turning for all eternity. Can you imagine that? Not I, because I want to die sober having found the serenity that will come for all eternity. Bingocliff 2/18/04 |
| SIX YEARS SOBRIETY |
| Is it possible that another year has passed in my continuance in keeping sober? Again I am totally amazed at my steady recovery of the disease of alcoholism. Not only have I each day stayed clean & sober, but I feel that I have grown stronger in my quest of serenity & happiness. You see that this alcoholic was unable on his own to get sober. I fought for twenty-eight years the obsession that I had claimed. As long as I was to play my own god, I would fail. Not until I hit the low bottom at age 48, facing death in the face, did I recieve the scare of my life. |
| I decided that I wanted to live. Alcoholics Anonymous has done for this alkie that miracle to happen. It has become the backbone of my sobriety. Along with the Big Book, the suggested 12-steps to recovery, AA meetings, the fellowship, a God or Higher Power, and the committed service work, I have been able to grow each day. I live today with an 'attitude of gratitude,' and enjoy another twenty-four hours of the AA way of life. Alcoholics Anonymous is not just something I joined to get sober. AA is something I live. Bingocliff 3/3/04 |
| A HONEST LIVING |
| Before I entered this recovery and discoved a new way of living, I had lied to everyone I loved about everything I did to hide my denial of being a drunk. I refused to accept that I was an alcoholic. Being dishonest had become the top priority for me in my everyday living. Not only did I lie, I had a basketful of excuses for all the problems that I faced. I was so dishonest with myself, that I reached a point that I believed my own untruths. I would hang onto what I had said for weeks, months down the road because I believed that everything was right. What this recovery has done for this drunk, has made me realize, that to remain sober, I had to become honest with myself and everyone. Having accepted this fact, not only have I succeeded into a honest living, but a sober six years in a roll. Bingocliff 4/13/04 |
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