| "Numerous Thoughts" |
| My Higher Power |
| I know today what I believe. I believe in a Higher Power, a power of the universe greater than thyself, that talks to me through my thoughts. It took this power for I to see the light. My Higher Power relieved me of the malady of drinking. I am recovered today because I have & still do work the suggested steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. I am recovering from the unforeseen tomorrow, when I may pick up my next drink. Of course, as long as I work The Program, I'll be OK. And for this minute, I am just grateful to be alive, sober, and sane. Thanks to my Higher Power. Bingocliff 12/20/03 |
| Excuses |
| A whole new world opened up when I found sobriety back in 1998. I had one year of sobriety when one day I found myself walking up this steep hill. I was trying to think up of an excuse to have a drink once I reached the top. I could not come up with one. You see, I had used up all the excuses for drinking covering 28 years. I was amazed at this revelation. What I have discovered today, with over five years of sobriety, is the fact that there are many more excuses to stay sober than there ever was to have a drink. Bingocliff 1/6/04 |
| Acceptance |
| As I think back to my first drunk in Crailsheim, Germany, I can only recall how great I felt at the time. It was the greatest feeling I have ever witnessed in my life. I was crazy, funny, and wild to say the least. Had I not found that Power to relieve me of my fear, loneliness, and despise had I grown up with? Within a month of drinking, I started to experience blackouts. That there alone, should of told me that I was an alcoholic. However, for the next twenty-eight years, I was to fight the obsession that I had claimed. This Power we call alcohol nearly put me in my grave at age 48 years young. The battle I eventually pursued to stop this obsession of drinking was acceptance. It was not an overnight miracle to grasp. At last I discovered acceptance as the key to my drinking. I began to live my life in the answer and not the problem. I started to see and feel all of my living in an optimistic outlook. Acceptance has become the answer to all my problems of today. I found my freedom of bondage to alcohol, drugs, and depression. Today I will turn 54 years young. I am grateful to have found the acceptance in my life. Bingocliff 1/15/04 |
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