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| POINT OF VIEWS PT.1 (10-25-01) I make rhymes, to past time, say wuts on my mind. Don�t need attention, don�t need help, just wanna be by myself. I got no support, no one to care, soon realize nothing�s fair. Write about good times, write about bad, in the end I�ll be happy or sad. My life got no meaning now, what should I do? Ask him, her, or maybe u? I can�t be the best, can�t be the worst, can�t come in last, and can�t come in first. Listen to music, listen to words, and memorize things I�ve seen or heard. Sometimes im annoying, sometimes sincere, trying things once, have no fear. I got lots of friends, not much foes, they all pass by, and all go. I love my whole family, from the oldest to da young, Cherish da time together, share wut they brung. Tragedies will happen, I�ll feel hurt, I�ll feel pain, Just hoping it won�t happen again. Depression takes role whether it�s da sadness or loss, Of everything I dreamed of, or wut I thought wuz is not. There�s no one to help me, change da way I feel, What I thought wuz fantasy soon becomes real. All this time, I thought it wuz gone, but it comes back, continuing on. All these things, trapped in my head, some things I remember, some I regret. I make some mistakes, some changed my life, some I figured out, doing it twice. Everybody got someone who they can share, Their dreams, fears, happiness, and despair, Mine will come soon, or at least before da end, But I still gotz mai family, mai friends. POINT OF VIEWS PT.2 (11-5-01) I never knew it�d be like dis, never thought bout wut I�d miss. All the things I love & hate, made me learn & appreciate, How I got things peoples don�t, how lucky I am, how they won�t, Ever enjoy a day, not worryin� bout dyin�, juss havin� fun, never cryin�, The people dat surround me, ain�t takin� for granted, cuz I�ll never know, if I be handed, A letter dat says they passed away, or if I�ll see�em another day. It hurts mai head if I think, bout everybody missin� me, If I die for some reason, will anybody be cryin� or be needin�, A hug from someone to let da pain go, but rememberin� the good times and continue to grow, To make something of their life, knowin� u can�t live twice. And for some reason u start to feel, dat pain inside u, startin� to heal, Startin� to forget da bad and worse, reminicin� bout da first, Time dat u met dat person in ur life, who�d grow up to be husband or wife. Can�t forget the katz u knew, ur family and friends, ur entire crew, Juss kickin� and relaxin�, let da time fly, enjoy da company, passin� by, While u see ur b/f-g/f and start huggin�, and all a sudden, u hear ur cuzins, Comin� out da car, cuz they traveled, long and far, To see u and da rest, and u think dis da best, Time you�ve had in a while, can�t help but crack a smile. Then one of�em start messin�, soon or later all youse be wrestlin�, With all them jumpin� on u, ever ur friends, and other foos. U feelin� hurt but havin� fun, and all of youse watch da sun, Goin� down as da nite, creeps up on u, and it�s tight, Dat u got these minutes to spare, dat u could be n/e where, But u rather stay and chill, and in ur mind u start to feel, Da bad stuff comin� back, but u deny it, and turn ur back. While all dis happens ur cuzins starts leavin�, and u wonderin� when u�ll be seein�, All them again, and wut�ll u do, and dis iz da end of dis rhyme foo! HATIN' (10-30-01 Hatin� on people that made u hurt, revenge is da thing that comes up first. Get�em back for wut they did, then u be actin� like a kid. Hatin� on people cuz of how they look, critizing wuz all it took, To make�em snap, hurt u back, just cuz u made a crack. Hatin� on others cuz they hatin� on u, Hatin� on foes cuz they messed with ur crew. Hatin� on da fool that�s messin� with ur girl, Ask him wut da fucc he did that for. Hatin� on ur parents cuz they�re yellin', At something u did and you�re not tellin�. Hatin� on a person cuz of how they sound, But they don�t believe you�re messin� around. Hatin� on life for treatin� u bad, Ever since u were 12, depressed and sad. Hatin� on da streets, where ur friend wuz gunned down, Visitin� da grave, cuz he won�t be around. Hatin� on love for breakin� ur heart, Messed things up, all torn apart. Hatin� on skool, getting� beat up, Everything�s violent, people kurupt. Hatin� on life, cuz urs sucked, Everyone�s happy but u don�t give a fucc. Hatin� on god, cuz he wuz never there, He never helped, never made things fair. Hatin� him, her, and probably you, Get da fucc away, don�t come back too-foo! 'BOUT 2 GIRLS (3-21-02) I juss noe I lik two, but dunno which to choose, Both real fine, gotz good smile, always on mai mind, could be awhile. Cant make da choice right away, might regret it da next day. Torn apart, heart beatin� faster, mind fucced up, feeling�s disaster. One I could talk to, da other I cant, get sorta nervous, even wit a chance. Can say sumthin� bout her, she juss smile, but it worth da while. Da other girl, cant say a word, even if I try, dunno if she heard. Both�em a challenge, cant let it pass, wanna be in it, for da ass.-jp Dat aint all it, interested in more, maybe so attention, not like before, Before wuz diff, all messed up, hated each other, but wuts luv? Get to do with some flirtin�, all dat shit fun, til someone hurtin�, Dunno where dat goin�, so back to da rhyme, who to pick, runnin� outta time. Ain�t sayin� names, cuz pplz go� bother, askin� things, then one�n�another, Lead to embarassin� things�n�shit, runors start spreadin�, then it get, More attention form pplz and friends, back where I started again. Juss made a comment bout them two, they think im serious, stupid foos. They go messin�, tell pplz other things instead, then pplz confused, like mai head. Don�t care if them girls noe, juss don�t want other�s attention, like I said befor�, Wuts da point of writin� dis, aint like no one hearin�, pplz�ll read, aint wut im fearin�. Juss bout, two girls I like, ain�t gon� be a song, aite? Juss anotha� rhyme, written by da AZN, XPLICITKHMAI, fucc u if u hatin�. REMEDY (4-23-02) You feel da pain in your chest, when you�re hurtin�, You don�t know wut it is, but for certain. You think it came from da past, You think it came back to bite u in da ass. You think it�s from ur mind, You think about it, from time to time. You can�t tell pplz or then they�ll know, You think if you do, the hatred�ll grow. You try to find sumthin� to heal ur paim, You start getting� anxious, gettin� insane. You bothered too many pplz, drove�em away, You ask for help now, no one gon� stay. You say you�re sorry, ain�t no one around, You can�t see anyone, can�t hear a sound. You start panicin�, you head hurtin� more, You keep sayin� fucc, more than before. You getting� worse now, start blackin� out, You dunno were u are, but still �member �bout. The thing that been eating you inside, It caught up to you, nowhere to hide. You were happy once, now u depressed, You�ve known your worse, known your best. You lie in bed, thoughts comin� back, Closing ur eyes, knowin� you�ve cracked. Couldn�t find da remedy, now it�s too late, But then u realize wut hurt you, all your hate. SCARED OF DEATH (5-8-02) My life passed me by, shit, almost wanted to die. Thought there wuz nutthin� left, nuthin� I�d do, So I waited for death, �stead of waitin� for you. Do next life could be better, so better off you don�t, Try to stop me now, maybe u will, maybe won�t. Depressed for awhile, thoughts always bad, Mai mind�s juss fucced up, gettin� fuccin� mad. Didn�t care �bout anyone, juss �bout you, Didn�t care wut they thought, wut they said too. But now you gone, still thinkin� why, You went before me, how come you died. I wuz da one, all fucced and shit, You didn�t deserve it, not even a bit. I�m torn even more, but got a nu meaning, Live life to da fullest, no shit in between. Still think �bout you, every single day, Wut could�ve I done, if it were mai way. Switch places wit you, let you stay. But u ain�t around, still gone away. But then you be like me, stuck in mai spot, Dunno if you�ll still care, �bout me or not. Scared of death now, watching mai moves, Always lookin� back, but wuts there to prove? Comquerin� mai fears, facin� da facts, never gon; shed a tear, then it be that, losin� myself, losin� wuts left, gon� say it again, SCARED OF DEATH. UNTITLED* (5/15/02) (damz.dis one too sappy) Been lookin� a while, takin� my time, Findin� a girl, that�d be mine. Met a lot of�em, pretty lookin� types, Talk fast, nice ass, some I liked. But none of�em, caught my attention like you, With ur smile and eyes, and ur laugh too. Somethin�s wrong wit me, my mind keeps thinkin�, Of you all da time, thoughts always sinkin�. Whenever you gone, I miss you already, Whenever I see you, can�t keep steady. No one made me feel like this before, No one made me, wanting it more, I write �bout things, but think I�m wastin� time, Nobody ever fell, for a bunch of rhymes. But I still do it, lettin� my thoughts flow, But everytime I finish, everything seems slow. Feels like I�m rushin;, tryin� get past da day, But when I slow down, start slippin� away. Juss wasted a day, I can�t get back, Try�n�slow down again, get off-track. Thein I �member you, and things get better, Da first time I noticed you, always remember. Ever since then, couldn�t say a word, Even if I try, dunno if you heard. Dunno when this feeling, gon go away, I guess for da time being, it�s gon stay. AFTERLIFE (5/20/02 You�re done wit da pain, it all died, No more shit, it all dried. You in a place where all around, You hear juss da pleasant sounds. Everythin� kurupt is all down there, No one there anymore, they all up here. No more cryin�, juss like ur dreams, Everythin� you hoped for, it is wut it seems. All da emotion, from luv and such, Ain�t hurt anymore, juss da tender touch. Everyone you missed, pplz you never knew, All right here, all beside you. All da things you wanted, all da things you had, Are with�chu rite now, so be fuccin; glad. Material possessions, simple things, Don�t need those here, all you gon� bring, Is ur past, either good or bad, Cuz it made you today, happy or mad. Still wonder if that�s saying�s true, Go to heaven or hell, it up to you. -a stream in ur path, that only tells, -you cross it; heaven, you sink; hell. Wonder sumtimes, if things�ll go bad, maybe worse, Can you mess up again, maybe ur cursed? Don�t think none of that, can happen here, Let ur thoughts go, ain�t no more fear. |
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