Aum Gung Ganapathaye Namah

Namo tassa bhagavato arahato samma-sambuddhassa

Homage to The Blessed One, Accomplished and Fully Enlightened

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Test Diary

A Collection of Articles, Notes and References

Chapter 30

(July 2006)

(Revised: Monday, November 06, 2006)

By

A Pseudo Monk

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8 "... Freely you received, freely give”.

            - Matthew 10:8 :: New American Standard Bible (NASB)

 

The attempt to make God just in the eyes of sinful men will always lead to error.

- Pastor William L. Brown.

 

1 “But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days.

2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy,

3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good,

4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God

5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.

6 They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires,

7 always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.                                                                  

8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth--men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected.

9 But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.”

            - 2 Timothy 3:1-9  :: New International Version (NIV)

 

The right to be left alone – the most comprehensive of rights, and the right most valued by a free people

            - Justice Louis Brandeis, Olmstead v. U.S., 1928.

 

15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

            - Revelation 3:15-16 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

6 As he saith also in another place, Thou art a priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.

            - Hebrews 5:6 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

3 Without father, without mother, without descent, having neither beginning of days, nor end of life; but made like unto the Son of God; abideth a priest continually.

- Hebrews 7:3 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

Therefore, I say:

Know your enemy and know yourself;

in a hundred battles, you will never be defeated.

When you are ignorant of the enemy but know yourself,

your chances of winning or losing are equal.

If ignorant both of your enemy and of yourself,

you are sure to be defeated in every battle.

-- Sun Tzu, The Art of War, c. 500bc

 

There are two ends not to be served by a wanderer. What are these two? The pursuit of desires and of the pleasure which springs from desire, which is base, common, leading to rebirth, ignoble, and unprofitable; and the pursuit of pain and hardship, which is grievous, ignoble, and unprofitable.

- The Blessed One, Lord Buddha

 

3 Neither let the son of the stranger, that hath joined himself to the LORD, speak, saying, The LORD hath utterly separated me from his people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.

          - Isaiah 56:3 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

21 But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.

            - Matthew 17:21 :: Amplified Bible (AMP)

 

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I receive numerous letters of pathetic tales of dissipated, lost youth. The recent trend in the increase of vulgar, cheap and aphrodisiac literature and obscene films, both Indian and Western, had added to the miseries of misguided youth. Loss of the vital energy creates great fear in their mind. The body becomes weak, memory fails, the face becomes ugly and the young man is not able to remedy his pitiable condition due to shame. But there is no cause for despair. Even if a few of the hints in the following pages are observed, he will develop the correct attitude to life and will lead a disciplined spiritual life and ultimately attain supreme bliss.

 

Difference between physiological pollution and pathological pollution

Spermatorrhoea is involuntary seminal discharge. Nocturnal discharge, night pollution, Svapna-Dosha, wet dream are all synonymous terms. Ayurvedic doctors call this disease Sukra-Megha. This is due to the evil habits in youth. In severe cases, discharges occur in daytime also. The patient passes semen along with urine during micturition. If there is occasional discharge, you need not be alarmed a bit. This may be due to heat in the body, or the pressure of loaded bowels or bladder on the seminal bags. This is not a pathological condition.

 

Night pollution is of two kinds, namely, physiological pollution and pathological pollution. In physiological pollution, you will be refreshed. You should not be afraid of this act. You should not mind if the discharge of semen is very occasional. You need not worry about it. This is also a slight flushing of the apparatus or a periodical cleansing through a slight overflow from the reservoir in which the semen is stored up. This act may not be attended with evil thoughts. The person may not be aware of the act during the night. Whereas, in pathological pollution, the act is accompanied by sexual thoughts. Depression follows. There is irritability, languishment, laziness, inability to work and concentrate. Occasional discharges are of no consequence, but frequent nocturnal pollutions cause depression of spirits, debility, dyspepsia, low spirits, loss of memory, severe pain in the back, headache, burning of the eyes, drowsiness and burning sensation at urination or during the flow of semen. The semen becomes very thin.

 

Causes and consequences

Wet dreams and spermatorrhoea may be due to various causes like constipation, a loaded stomach, irritation-producing or wind-producing food, impure thoughts and long self-abuse done in ignorance.

 

Seminal weakness, nocturnal emissions, lascivious dreams and all other effects of an immoral life will surely lead one to a miserable state of living if not checked by proper medicines. But these medicines cannot produce a permanent cure. One can get temporary relief during the time one takes the medicine. Even doctors of the West admit that such medicines cannot effect a permanent cure. The moment the medicine is discontinued, the patient will find his disease all the worse. In some cases, the patient becomes impotent by the use of drugs. The only effective permanent cure can be had through the system of ancient Yoga. Nasti Yogat Param Balam. There is no strength higher than that of Yoga. The different methods given in this book will enable you to get success if practiced regularly.

(Reference: Swami Sivananda. (1997) Practice of Brahmacharya. (WWW Edition) Himalayas, India: The Divine Life Society. Chapter 19: Wet Dreams and Spermatorrhoea.)

 

Test Diary

 

July 2006

 

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

TO CONTINUE

 

0045 a.m. – 0600 a.m.     5:15     Sleep

 

Normal...sound sleep...no dreams...no carnal or erotic thoughts noted...

Written around 0725 a.m. Saturday, July 01, 2006

Revised around 1114 a.m. Thursday, July 20, 2006

 

0600 a.m. – 0613 a.m.     0:13     Lay on mat, not sleepy

 

Listen to the voices of the monitoring medical representative family...

Written around 0725 a.m. Saturday, July 01, 2006

Revised around 1205 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

0613 a.m. – 0620 a.m.     0:07     Sit on mat, not sleepy

0620 a.m. – 0625 a.m.     0:05     Standup; prostrate; untie mosquito net; fold net, blanket, and mat; go to toilet

 

Kani-chu-kondu nata-nal mati...keep on showing her face to him...

Ager-ku bran-thu ila-kum...he will run mad...

    - A discussion of the monitoring medical representative family...

What the court of law needs to note is that the stalkers are aware that the victim can run mad...and yet they continue the stalking...and surveillance...

The court also need to examine expert psychiatrists and psychologists on what would the state of the mind of a victim with constant feeling of being monitored...how that monitoring feeling affect his or her day-to-day life...how less productive that person will be...whether in a work environment or educational environment...or whatever...

And when you carry that vegetable condition of the victim...over many a year...you can understand...how silently the stalkers are destroying the victim’s life...without even talking face to face...to the victim...

Written around 0753 a.m. Saturday, July 01, 2006

Revised around 1205 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

All that the women stalkers do is keep on appearing before the victim...at different places...

And if someone does ask the obsessed woman on why this show-off, she got the excuse, ‘I was standing there to ask him...’

And the court is expected to believe that answer,...that on the past hundreds and hundreds of coincidences, the women were just standing there to talk to him!...

6+ years...10+ years of stalking...none of the women have approached the victim...to talk face to face...

And they expect me to silently suffer...their coincidences...their stalking...their 24x7 audio-visual surveillance...doing nothing...to them...as well to my own ‘vegetable’ personal life...

A single conversation...I yearned for...where I can tell that shit face...bluntly...that I am not interested in her rotten hole...would have stopped all this...BUT it never happened...

Just because you happen to glance...on ‘a few’ occasions...on different days...on the road...the same woman stranger...doesn’t mean you can approach that...’have had seen before’... somewhere...familiar-looking...shitface...and tell her straight away to the face...in an aggressive tone...with compressed anger...’I AM NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR ROTTEN HOLE...OKAY??’...That shitface will naturally lodge a complaint with the police for indecent behavior...You can only tell what you yearn to tell when the whore approaches you with an introductory conversation, say in a bus stop...’What is your name?’...’Where do you live’...’Is this the bus stop’...

By continued cyberstalking...and audiovisual surveillance...zooming and reading my private diary notes...they know that this is what I feel about them...Does that foreknowledge stop them from continuing the surveillance?...

For 6+ years...10+years...it hasn’t...they just want me to change my opinion about them as whores...to something like virgins...of impeccable character and integrity...with fresh holes, instead of rotten ones...covered with nascent black hairs, instead of worms...

Which as the days drag on...just doesn’t change...the same whore becomes a whore multiplied thousands of times...

They just continue the surveillance...and coincidences...as if asking silently,...

When are you going to take a look at this ‘beautiful’ cesspit hole??...

WHY??...

Don’t you know how long I have been waiting...for you to pull down my underwear...and do what you feel to do...

Do what??...

Written around 1202 p.m. Thursday, July 20, 2006

Revised around 1130 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

0625 a.m. – 0655 a.m.     0:30     Undress, emission check, defecate, wash, brush teeth, wipe

 

Considerable fecal particles on the top layer of water...the rest of the few area...of the top layer of water had less bubbles...was mostly clear...as noted by the monitoring medical representative family...

For certain events they choose not to comment anything...

Maybe on certain days, they may choose not to look at certain events either...for the sole purpose, that I anyway will be documenting as being monitored...but that specific event they choose not to monitor...thus they can prove to a third person that my documentation is wrong...

Now how am I going to know when they are choosy or not...so I consider 24-hour monitoring ongoing...irrespective of whether they are choosy or not...for the devices they use are capable of providing detailed observation...round the clock...

In the first place, they should not have had access to...bought...spend money on...procure...such privacy violation spy devices...having those devices with them, and then trying to prove that they didn’t look at anything, is just not acceptable...

Written around 0738 a.m. Saturday, July 01, 2006

Revised around 1205 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

0655 a.m. – 0700 a.m.     0:05     Rice and water for birds

0700 a.m. – 0705 a.m.     0:05     Ayurvedic medicine (lehiyam); kisses to parents

0705 a.m. – 0710 a.m.     0:05     Read today’s Malayalam local newspaper

0710 a.m. – 0815 a.m.     1:05     Diary notes on computer:  Daily notes; update daily trackers:  Emission, readings, expenses; notes

 

To Continue

 

Saturday, July 15, 2006

 

To Continue

 

It was a rush time...young men and women leaving the office after shift change...and those entering office to start night shift...through the open door, I went into Iridium...towards the Training office...the electronic card reader is near the glass door...and around 5-10 women there...in a hurry to scan their cards and leave office...

As I walked past them, suddenly a young woman in that crowd...jump out of the crowd...and tightly held my hand...for a brief second...and she quickly let go and merged back to the crowd...as if nothing happened...

I didn’t even bother to care...who held my hand...nor even to look who she is...how she looked...

From the corner of my eye, I believe it was a woman in light green churidar...

Anyway, it is hard for this woman to control herself...as her action proves...

And such women will naturally do all sort of horrible things in bed...in the event of a sex bout with any man...

To be in a fish market would be far better...than to be near that trembling bed...when such a woman undergoes copulation...insertion...by diverse means...

You can naturally expect all sort of wild things - weeping...cries...moans...abuses...yells...shrieks...curses...shouts to stop...threats to kill...promises to mutilate...vows to disfigure...purrs...cajoling...praises...lauding...requests for more...begging...pleading for a bit extra...and further weeping...accompanied by drooling...urinating...bleeding...maybe even defecating in bed...by the uncontrollable woman...in heat...

I wonder, if it was that fat dark woman of a senior batch...Today, she was in light green churidar...

The word ‘prettiness’ is not in her dictionary...a look to her fat face will give the impression of a dark fat toad...that short nose has sharp slanting sides...resembling just the nose of a toad...Remember the huge toad-like character in the Star Wars movie ‘The Empire Strikes Back’...one who tries to put the hero into a sandpit...to be devoured by a carnivore...This woman’s nose is similar to that toad-like character...

And what amuses me is, this ugly specimen is obsessed...Remember last Sunday, when she tried to lure me into a night shift...alone with her in the training lab...she even send a colleague...a male student of her batch...as an emissary...to enquire whether I do stay back...for night shift also,...after all the tiredness of the afternoon shift...Just imagine spending a night with a dark toad...in an air conditioned room...with the lights of the computer monitors serving as candle lights...and the toad got all the characteristics of uncontrollability...(as noted above)...when in heat...

Such a night will be a nightmare...which you will never ever forget in your life time!...however hard you try to...

The irony thus is...I consider that woman as an ugly toad...but she acts as a beautiful nymph...badly in want of me...

Two opposing things which never ever come together...

And all her activities are closely watched...by the medical representative family...the mother and daughter duo...during the last week...since last Sunday...

Since that Sunday, whenever this woman happen to come near me...display all sort of sexy moves...overtures...advances...of her obsession...of trying to strike up a conversation...are all being watched closely by the mother and daughter...as if this toad is only an extension of the sucker...Trivandrum stalker...one who is actually in the field...right now...to draw the man into sex...while the sucker...is behind the scenes watching the drama...

Something like trying to please the man with various appetizers...before the main course...As if all these women who try to give themselves to him...have sex with him...are only akin to appetizers...

The main course...the sex sirens...the sex queens like the Australian stalker and the Trivandrum stalker...are just waiting...for the main event...of serving the main food to the man...food supposed to be so tasty...hot...mouth-watering (a term the Australian stalker uses!)...and delicious...that the man stays awake all night...eating and drinking...making himself happy...¹a food which to one woman...it is more than 10 years of preparation...while to the other...of nearly 6 years of preparation...

It is sad to ponder that...that very food was more fresh...young and beautiful looking...pleasing to the eyes...10 years ago...and 6 years ago...After all these years, the food got dark...pale...lack in luster...in effect, old...and stale...

Imagine serving me...a 10 year old food...a 6 year old food...with all the accompanying putrefaction etc...

The sex queens of yesterday...the nymphs...just got old...

And if this same scenario continues...for the next 5 or more years...just imagine two elderly...old women...in grey white hairs...wrinkled skin...competing against each other...madly...in obsession...to have sex...with a thin, miserable, old man...²who looks as if he will fall down...and die...maybe today...maybe tomorrow...a state of being...reached after years and years...of weary battle...with himself!...

¹ on a never ending food...which lasts all through the night...maintaining its tastiness...sweetness...and vigor...until the early hours of the morning...and after...

² so slim and thin...that you can count the bones in his body...

Written around 0105 a.m. Sunday, July 16, 2006

Revised around 1148 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

Eubulides, a pupil of Euclides, is credited with several, including the most famous one, commonly known as the Liar. This is the paradox presented by someone who says, ‘This statement is false.’ The problem is what to say about such a statement; arguments about its truth tend to go round in a dizzying circle. For example, if it is false, then the speaker spoke truly because that is what he said it was. On the other hand, if he spoke truly, then it must be false because what he said is that it was false. Thus if it is false, it follows that it is true; and if it is true, it follows that it is false. This riddle is easier to make fun of than it is to solve. It has a remarkable ability to bounce back in the face of any proposed solution. One can sympathize with the poet Philetas of Cos, who is said to have worried about it so much that he wasted away, becoming so thin that he had to put lead weights in his shoes to stop himself blowing over. The epitaph on his gravestone read:

 

                 O Stranger:  Philetas of Cos am I,

                 Twas the Liar who made me die,

                 And the bad nights caused thereby.

 

(Reference:  Raphael, Frederic and Monk, Ray. (Editors) (2000) The Great Philosophers. (1/e) London, Great Britain:  Weidenfeld & Nicolson.  Gottlieb, Anthony.  Socrates:  Philosophy’s Martyr.  Page 35-36.)

 

To continue

 

Thursday, July 20, 2006

 

To continue

 

With such an emission tracking data...made public...don’t you fear this world...of beasts...who prey...of robbers, hunters, thieves...who plunder, assault, murder...innocent travelers... pilgrims...

Something like the Devil’s query...

Yes, I do fear...but then I have an analogy...

There is a Buddhist monk...and he is returning home...to his monastery...deep in a forest...

He is on his way...

The way...the road to the forest...is dangerous...risky...as is known to many a traveler...for there are robbers, hunters, thieves...who plunder, assault, murder...

The forest is infested...with carnivorous beasts...

There is an old monk in that monastery...the sole occupant...and he knows his ‘son’ is returning home...and waits for him...earnestly...watching day and night...for his safe return...

When it gets dark...that old recluse stands on top of the monastery...tower...with a lantern...hoping to show that faint light...to his ‘son’...so that...from far away...that disciple...knows where he is going...the path he need to take...to avoid the robbers, hunters, thieves...beasts...and return to his ‘father’...his master...and home safely...

Written around 0205 p.m. Thursday, July 20, 2006

Revised around 1155 p.m. Tuesday, July 25, 2006

 

The Mahavagga (I.25.6; 32.1) states that a pupil should regard his mentor as a father; and the mentor, the pupil as his son.

(Reference: Thanissaro Bhikkhu (Geoffrey DeGraff).  (1994) The Buddhist Monastic Code Volume I: The Patimokkha Training Rules Translated & Explained.  Chapter Two.  Nissaya.)

http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/modern/thanissaro/bmc1/ch02.html

 

6 As he saith also in another place, Thou art a priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.

            - Hebrews 5:6 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

21 But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.

            - Matthew 17:21 :: Amplified Bible (AMP)

 

I mentioned before that once upon a time, I lived a dark life...of daily masturbation...emission...ignorant of...what to do...with that extra energy...that manliness...that power...that strength...of bubbling enthusiasm...of sex energy...

On how to manage it??...profitably...productively...

And I was a total failure...

The Australian woman, if you interview her, will give a juicy narration of this past...dare devil...and dangerous...life of mine...that she closely monitored...observed...

As the stalking intensified, I started maintaining a similar tracking data...statistics...

When I moved into the monastery, slowly that tracking data became meaningless...and all those records were subsequently burned off...

For what use is the tracking data, when there is nothing to track...when the emission frequency reaches a certain level...and maintained as such for repetitive duration...with nothing to record...Something which is only possible through praying and fasting...

Now you return back to society...

The man who went to a foreign land...cleans himself somewhat...experiences certain things of the paranormal...and returns to his homeland...as an imperfect...incomplete...trainee...a failure of a different sort...

Imagine hanging to dry...a well washed, clean, white cloth near a busy road...to dry in the morning...how will that cloth be in the evening?...

If left as it is,...how will it be the next day...the next week...the next month...the next year...after many years...

The well washed, clean, white cloth cease to look as it once was...it will look...dark...pale...lack in luster...in effect, old...and stale...

So too the mind...that once looked handsome...is now a shitface...hideous...

The Lord is all-seeing...nothing escapes His notice...The time is thus ripe to send His right-hand man...

And there comes in the best trainer...to visit his former student again...to refresh the old fighting skills of his favorite disciple...his lazy trainee...

The tidal wave repeats once again...as is to any living creature...in this planet...the cycle of events repeat...as if to prod the man...to wake up...to clean again...to start the training again...to resume...

For it is natural for any clean thing...to get dirty...after a while...You just have to see your dirtiness...understand where you are...and clean yourself...back to what it once was...As you can observe in any entity around you...Earlier I mentioned the example of the new house which need repainting once in a while...

The stalking in the city of Thiruvananthapuram commenced in mid 2000.  As the stalking slowly intensified, by the mid 2002, a fresh tracking data commenced...to know where I stand...to compare to what I once achieved...using modern scientific methods like statistics...

She comes again...

He knows...I know...and she also knows...

The game again resumed...the drama just began to be enacted again...

Is this replay for my success, or failure?...

It is for Him to decide...

If it is for my success, or failure...a repeat...then this replay...this drama in which I am only a pawn in His hands...is only a publicity campaign...

As it is to any wandering martial arts troupe...the artists display their skills...for what reason?...for what objective?...

To gather adherents...students...prospective trainees...to spread that path...that school of practice...further...

That tracking data...I once wanted only to be published posthumously...not to be revealed...until I am alive...in this temporary...wretched body...The stalking groups in this city of Thiruvananthapuram are well aware of it...

The publicity campaign is well on its way...(courtesy, the various stalking groups!)...and it just turned the tide in a different way...Maybe that is what He willed...

Strange...new...lands...that I happened to wander to...the story preceded me...leaving me to wonder what is going on...

His play is unpredictable...and amazing...and He alone knows what will happen next...

There are many little children...of various age groups...who look at me...as some sort of a strange person...some with wonder...some with happiness...some with respect...some with fear...some with anxiety...some with doubt...some with jealousy...some with envy...some with fun...some with shame...and so on...

I learned something...in a certain manner...and that path got a pre-requisite...the tracker which I once burned off...and I resumed again...constitutes the basic prerequisite in the path...that I used...to understand that something...experience certain paranormal things...

That tracker also proves that...I am just a mortal...just like you...But I experienced something...

Don’t you think...then, by applying common sense...by logical reasoning...that you too can experience similar things...and even see more than what I...an imperfect...incomplete trainee...a failure of a different sort...have seen...so far...

It is thus imperative that the tracker goes to the web...in these changed circumstances...for your easy access and reference...if you do care to take the thorny path...to Him...and His beloved trainer...(Will I be pleasing my ever patient and kind trainer...that adept monk...if I say that he is in fact His own brother¹...but of the opposite side...and they always are together...like the two sides of the same coin...)

My diary notes give in detail...repeating the same concepts...again and again...in various ways...the path I followed...the problems I faced...my agony...my pain...my fears...my temptations...my indulgences...my failures...and so on...

Nowadays few read the original...matter of fact...texts of the Holy Gita,...the Holy Bible,...the sacred Sermons of the Lord Buddha and so on...for they...are sedative...can cause sleep...

Whereas romantic things...of sex...adventures of the bed...pornography...are stimulative...catch easy attention... excitation...removes your sleep...and you spend...sleepless nights...as is expected...in both ways...pondering...on the various techniques of experimenting...tantric concepts...

This diary notes are so written in such a manner that...it suit the times...

I mentioned...I am just like you...of the same flesh and blood...

That also means all those dirty things...vulgar words...offensive words...that you use...the sort of erotic literature you admire...are also here...in this diary notes...to prove that I am no different from you...He is within you too...as is within everyone around you...If He is within an idol you look up to...then He is within a stone you look down to...If He is within the sacred yellow gold you dream of possessing...then He is within the dirty yellow fecal matter you expel everyday...For there is nothing without Him...you only have to take the time to look for Him...and have the patience to continue watching yourself...body, and mind...

Ponder...the way to Heaven is open to anyone...who cares to listen...ponder...and make some personal effort...to control himself...

In the name of the Lord,

Inshallah!

Written around 0545 p.m. Thursday, July 20, 2006

Revised around 1228 a.m. Wednesday, July 26, 2006

 

¹ If you refer the ancient religious texts, say of Taoism in China, they call this brothers as Yin and Yang...In Hinduism, you have the concept of Lord Vishnu and Lord Shiva²...Such words are pleasing to the mind...whereas it saddens when you use the now popular layman term, the so-called hideous Devil to refer the same opposite entity...of opposite force...which exist naturally...in Nature...around you...every where...

In modern science, you call them positive and negative...Nothing happens without both of them...remember the simple physics experiment you do in school laboratories...that simple current flow from one end of a battery to another to light a bulb in between, via a conducting wire...From the positive, the wire touches the bulb...The bulb will not light until you touch the negative side of the battery with the other end of the wire...no negative, then no current flow...Nothing happens...

In religions like Judaism, any word that deals with the opposite side...like Devil etc, is never mentioned...openly...his name is anathema...out of fear that it can bring ill omen...can destroy the normal social living pattern of that individual...

Remember the trainer is very shy...a recluse...his photos...pictorial depictions...are never displayed...he is only represented in symbolic form, if at all...For if he be so kind to come to train you,...your life...that normal social living pattern...of fun...will be destroyed for ever...You enter a path of no return...no coming back to where you used to be in society before...as any other person...So it is natural to label him as evil...for it destroys you...transforms you to something else...which you haven’t experienced before...in this life...

Read carefully, the Holy Bible...the same brotherhood is mentioned there also...between the lines...shrouded in various ways...into mystery...into secrecy...

It is true that Lord Jesus said you cannot serve two masters...

Ponder...Devil trains you...to perfection...NOT to remain his disciple...but to take you to the opposite side...to go to Him...to be His disciple...In effect, you don’t serve him...or accept him as your master...You serve only Him...and accept Him as your master...

I mentioned...to get over...that animal instinct...Many who don’t get over...become the de facto slaves of the Devil...the Devil becomes their master...and since many in society indulge, the Devil is the natural ruler of them all...and thus he got millions and millions of disciples...Do you think, by logical analysis, that he will train you to be just another disciple of his...You don’t need any training at all to be his disciple...just follow your brothers around you...be an animal...and indulge...That is all that is needed...for slavery...

He is a monk...he too is a monk...both who got over that...and if you want to follow them, you too have to be a monk...get over that...pass that hurdle test...

A monk need not wear robes to be a monk...

You can live the life of a monk...but is not a monk...officially...That Zen paradox³...

Remember Lord Shiva is the purest of the pure...the most orthodox celibate...and his rules are very stringent...and like the true trainer...cold-blooded...of intense anger...quick tempered...is too strict in discipline...in matters of purity...ethics...morality...and so on...Those who deviate from his code of conduct...his norms...are severely punished...and it is not child’s play...as you can learn...from his ballads...stories about him...from any good Brahmin priest of Shiva temples...

Inshallah!

Written around 1043 a.m. Friday, July 21, 2006

Revised around 0040 a.m. Wednesday, July 26, 2006

 

6 As he saith also in another place, Thou art a priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.

            - Hebrews 5:6 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

³ You are a monk...but not a monk...

You are complete...but incomplete...

You are perfect...but imperfect...

You are handsome...but hideous...

You are the master...but a trainee...

You are wise...but fool...

You are a success...but a failure...

You are lazy...but not lazy...

You are pure...but dirty...

It is true...but false...

And so goes the paradox...with any opposites...

Written around 1110 a.m. Friday, July 21, 2006

Revised around 0944 a.m. Wednesday, July 26, 2006

 

² ...the twin brothers...positive and negative energy...symbolically represented...personified in the form of men...but with godly powers...with supernatural attributes...qualities that mere mortals don’t ordinarily possess...

Written around 1046 a.m. Sunday, July 23, 2006

 

What is the origin of the six-pointed star?

The star is best known as the Star of David. But before it became a symbol of Judaism, it may have been used to signify a fusion of opposing forces.

(Reference: Jonathan Darman. (May 29, 2006) An Inconvenient Woman. Newsweek. Vol. CXLVII. No. 22. New York, USA: Newsweek, Inc. Page 53.)

 

If you are a science student, think...will there be a place...in this planet...or any planet...even in this whole universe...where there is NO energy...no positive and negative energy...

Ponder...

We live in an ocean of energy...all around us...as if we are submerged in a perpetual ocean of water...that water is energy...

That ocean...that one who lies reclined...resting...watching everything...that goes on...IN ITSELF...is He...

You just gave Him a name...to identify...that is all...

Nothing more...nothing less...

Inshallah!

Written around 1059 a.m. Sunday, July 23, 2006

Revised around 1111 a.m. Sunday, July 23, 2006

 

If you live in Him...within Him...is He that far away from you?...

You need not be in a temple...in a church...in a mosque...in a monastery...for wherever you may be, He is always there...just beside you... maybe more nearer than your own shadow...watching you...

All you need to do is remove that ignorance...and follow His laws...His rules...to know Him more better...as days go on...until that day,...when you cease to exist...by becoming one with Him...in all respects...bodily...mentally...chemically...as a drop of water that loses its body...its existence...when it returns back home, to the ocean...

Inshallah!

Written around 1111 a.m. Sunday, July 23, 2006

Revised around 0046 a.m. Wednesday, July 26, 2006

 

Thus when you die...are you really going anywhere?...

You are always HERE!!!

That here can be anywhere...in this whole universe...

You are here...but there...

You are there...but here...

Inshallah!

Written around 1119 a.m. Sunday, July 23, 2006

 

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Reference

Xuereb, C., Watterson, B. & Fox, A. (1998) The relationship between liver dysfunction and memory. Australian Journal of Psychology, 50,148.

Publications - 1998

http://www.uow.edu.au/health/psyc/pdf/publications_98.pdf

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“Thou belongest to That Which Is Undying, and not merely to time alone,” murmured the Sphinx, breaking its muteness at last. “Thou art eternal, and not merely of the vanishing flesh. The soul in man cannot be killed, cannot die. It waits, shroud-wrapped, in thy heart, as I waited, sand-wrapped, in thy world. Know thyself, O mortal! For there is One within thee, as in all men, that comes and stands at the bar and bears witness that there IS a God!

(Reference: Brunton, Paul. (1962) A Search in Secret Egypt. (17th Impression) London, UK: Rider & Company. Page: 35.)

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