Although I have not spoken of my experiences to many people this question is one of the two which I am always being asked by those I trust enough to not make a fool of me and my experience.

I have no idea why I was subjected to it or why anyone else is. Before it happened I never even thought much about UFO's or Area 51 or any of the many conspiracy theories and legends which have worked their way into our culture. Yes, I enjoyed watching television shows such as Star Trek and The X Files and movies like Close Encounters of the Third Kind and Star Wars but I couldn't honestly say that the ideas in them particulalry captured my imagination or that I thought that the stories which were based upon supposed real-life incidents were plausible in the real world.

I should also point out (although for obvious reasons I don't want to talk too much about this aspect) that I am entirely one hundred percent comfortable with my sexuality and with my role as a woman. I do not imagine for a moment that my looks, sex or sexual preference(s) have any thing to do with what happened to me. No part of my sex life has ever caused me any great concern before and as I consider myself a very open-minded person I do not believe that I have any hidden conflicts which may have led to this happening to me or having just imagined the whole thing.

I know that some people who have had similar experiences have unresolved conflicts buried deep in their past memories so I have even tried to list ing reasons why I may have been chosen to have this kind of abduction experience -

• I am a woman .

• I am confident.

• I am very well educated and possess an inquiring mind.

• I have a very active and comfortable sex life with partners from both sexes (although I am not a lesbian).

• As a teenager I had dreadful recurring nightmares about lights and something which looked and felt like some kind of plaid material.

• As a child I never saw much of my Father as he travelled a lot working as a DJ.

• My Mother worked as a civil servant and it always seemed to me as if she would bring a cold, sometimes nasty manner back home from work with her.

• At Christmas time, up until I was about seven or eight years old, whenever any other relatives or friends of my family came to visit and would bring me a gifts my mother would plabe themm under the tree and tell them that I would open them on Christmas morning, But as soon as our visitors left she would either throow the presents out straight-away or give them to strnagers in the street, telling them that i was bad and did not deserve to be given gifts.

• When I was sixteen years old I met an older man who gave me lots of attention and would buy me many pairs of panties which although he never asked to see me wearing, would ask for me to have them on when we met and would ask me to find a way to convince him that I had them on without actually lifting my skirt to show him.

All of these reasons (and it seems I think of more everyday) perhaps have some role to play if what happened to me was only a figment of my imagination. Although I firmly believe that my panties abduction was real, I have tried to be as broad-minded as possible and show as much integrity as I can in questioning myself and the whole terrible experience.

So, if I then must consider the possibility that it actually happened as being the truth (and for some time now I have believed it to be so) I shall have to try and find a way to come to terms with the specifics.

Perhaps I should be looking at it in two (2) parts -

1 - As an alien abduction similar to those experienced by many individuals who consider it an unfortunate experience.

2 - An experience with contained for the alien some kind of element similar to a human being's interest in an object such as a fetish.

If I choose to view my experience seperated into the two aspects above then it makes some kind of sense, in fact, the only kind of sense which I have been able to make of it so far.

I can understand that if aliens do exist (and my experiences have shown me that against everything I believed before that they do) then I have been a victim of an alien abduction of a type which has happened to others. Although it is still difficult for me to comprehend, I know that it did happen and therefore I can accept that part of the experience.

Likewise, I know that for many women and men an object such as a pair of panties (or shoes or stockings or almost anything) can take on a signifigance in an erotic sense, beyond the purpose they were originally intended toserve . So that aspect in itself also makes sense to me as it is common for women to have their panties or other items of underwear and clothing stolen from washing lines or other public places, so perhaps I have been a victim of a thief who has seen me walking in the sreet and followed me home to see where I live and has then decided to investigate further into private areas of my life.

It is only when I try to reconcile these to seperate incidents together that there seems to be difficulty in making people believe that it really happened and that it has had a profound effect upon me. Unfortunately, people whom I have considered open-minded and reliable friends have let me down and cannot accept that it actually happened as I carefully explained it to them.

How it did happen to me is something which I can talk about, although not with any great detail . Nor can I place the events in any kind of meaningful timescale. I can only recount it as I remember it happening, and as I do remember it i still feel uneasy and have to make sure that if I am in the room alone I have the radio or television on for "company" although not so loud that I cannot hear anything.

How it Happened