I wear my heart on my sleeve.
what you see is what I am.
I do not hide my feelings unless I feel that by not doing so, someone will be hurt
I am an open book.
Want to know something? ask. I am not ashamed. I will tell you anything.
I like who I am.

but there is one major disfuction in living your life this way.
your way too easily hurt.
as I am hurting now.

People often don't understand me. They think I have some hidden adgenda... an alterior motive.
They think my aim is to hurt them in some way.
I have been told that something was held back or unsaid due to a perceived reaction by me in a negitive way
that I would look down on them. I would not. I may not approve of the action or feelings on a personal level, but I am not one to judge.
Just because I don't agree with something, doesn't make it wrong for you.
You are the one who is going to face God when all is said and done...
and you have to live with that.

and so do I.

And since I do, I will express my opion. But I will not think less of you because yours differs from mine.
We are no put on this earth to get through life, but to help one another get through.
none of us gets out 'alive'.
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 2:04 PM

great pumpkin quiz
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 1:46 PM

After A While

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn

to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn ...

�1971 Veronica A. Shoffstall

Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 12:19 PM

Yup.. the fact that it is snowing gets its own entry.. one week before christmas, and there is actual snow on the ground. Im sure your wondering why this is a big deal.. I mean I live in New England and all.. but Nooooooo Having a White Christmas is a 50/50 deal.. actually more like 40/60! it bites.. cause come January we're usually covered in snow, and Im wishing Christmas could come then. Oh well.

I think im done my shopping. Need to check a few things. Need to get one last package out in the mail *sorry Jeff* but I need a box for it. Finally got Tracy's out. I wonder when she'll get it. its huge, and its heavy and its going to canada.. lol..

I actually got a present from Jeff. Im quite impressed.. and it was very neatly wrapped. He gets bonus points for that. and even more cause there were polar bears on the wrapping paper :) I haven't opened it up yet. I think there is something wrong with me... Im usually the first one digging in at the presents, but I just put it under the tree. Its the only one under there at the moment since I haven't done any wrapping. Wrapping used to be my favorite part of giving gifts. Now its just a big ol chore. I think its cause my house is so darn small and there is no good place to set everything out. Im always loosing the tape or the scissors etc.

I saw a commercial for the Virgin Islands last night. Man I want to go.. Which is VERY suprising cause frankly I hate the sun. But the beach was gorgeous. very much like the one in cancuun.. *wanders off in search of photo*

Hey.. that was fast..

Yup.. i was there.. I took that picture.. there is also this one. I actually sat in those chairs..

Well im totally exhausted.. the kind where you feel it in your muscles. Not 100% sure why.. pretty much woke up on my own this morning.. but then again I woke up about 3 times last night and didn't get to bed till midnight.. ok so that would explain it.. probably didn't really wake up on my own this morning.. lol

*yawn* I should probably go do something work related..
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 2:41 PM

Its snowing!
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 2:28 PM