couldn't sleep again last night.. Thought about getting up and getting on line, but I didn't.. why. I don't know. Im weird like that.. lol
I watched law and order. The episode about a woman on crack who has her baby taken away when shes thrown in jail and rehab. After 9 months the state tells her that her that her parental rights are going to be terminated and her son is about to be put up for adoption unless she responds. She doesn't. the boy goes up for adoption. After a while she cleans her self up a bit and goes after her son. Since he's in the system, she can't find him, so she hires a guy to 'rough up' the man at the agency who does know where he is, which results in her getting the info, and the man's death. She runs and 'kidnaps' her son, and thus enteres the law part of the show, they track her down, etc. The order part was all about racism. the mother was black. a) because black people are treated differently when it comes to drug convictions, and b) cause her son went to a white family.
This episode should not have been about racism... well to me anyway.. (as always, this is my opinion (cause its my blog) and your welcome to have an opinion different from mine). See the whole bit about the blacks being different from the whites when it comes to drug convictions was totally off base.
Now Im not saying it doesn't happen. I wouldn't be shocked if someone could prove to me that two very similar people arrested for similar crimes would get different punishments because of their different skin colors.. but this was not the arguement in this episode, and this is not the arguement Ive heard several times before.
They said (don't you love the mysterious they people who cause all this trouble) that black people are throw into jail and get put on waiting lists for rehabs and their kids get throwin into the welfare system while the whites go to betty ford type clinics while their children are taken care of by nannies..
Well I don't know about you.. but I don't know any white people who can afford to have their kids taken care of by nannies.. (btw.. im white.. but I'll get into this later) And I'd sell everythign I had to go to betty ford instead of end up in jail. but The point is, that the statement in the last paragraph only works if you take out 'black' and change it with 'poor' and take out white, and change that with 'rich'
And until society stops equating black with poor, and white with rich, ignorant statements like that one will continue to happen, and predigice will continue to rein. Cause as we all know there are plenty of rich black people, and a ton of poor white people.. (man this rant is starting to sound ignorant all on its own.. I hate talking in terms of color myself)
anyway.. back to the fact that I am white. Im very white.. redish blond hair, blue eyes, and born into a comunity that didn't have a black child in the school system till I was in eighth grade (she was a transplant and in seventh grade) It was a year or two later that we got anyone else of color in our school system.. and then they were asian.. Cambodian I think.. *bad memory, not ignorance.. I used to know* Anyway.. a lot of the boys used to tease them, and it always seemed so stupid. Although im fairly sure that for the most part they teased them cause they couldn't speak english. so they could say mean things to them and the boys would just smile and nod their heads.
I currently work in a place that has no one of color.*thinks about main office and isn't aware of anyone of color there either* **thinks of last job, and the one before that* Nope.. all white. or at least they didn't stand out as different.. although knowing me, I might not even remember, cause I truely believe I do not judge people by the pigmentation of their skin, or their facial features. People different than me facinate me. I love to get to know people, especially those with different backgrounds and view points from my own. Especially if they are intelligent articulate and not ignorant. (intelligence and ignorance can go together... trust me) People who are street thugs scare me.. those who dress the dress, walk the walk and talk the talk are going to make me more catious regardless of the ethical background of those people and even regardless of their personal background... however I wouldn't rule out getting to know someone like that. In a safe enviroment aka work, school, etc, I am probably more likely to talk to the loner than the group. But walking down the street, or in some place where getting to know those around you isn't an option, I am going to be aware of what the person is telling me in a non verbal way.
wait.. wait.. I did work with a guy who was from... shoot.. where was he from.. Issac Lalerzari was his name, we talked about his traveling home, and his life before the US, and the foods he ate at home, and the traditional foods hummas and tahini.. and how the school system was different, and how he had to serve in the 'army' He was cool. :) he's moved on.. can't blame him.. this place is a dead end.
Anyway..
As I mentioned, I think too much.
on a much lighter note... I was laying in bed watching tv, and an vcr tape box was on the dresser that the tv was on, but upside down. it had VCR in bold red letters. It was just on the edge of my vision while I was watching tv, and for some reason it made me crave for dunkin donuts (only donut shop in town btw) Probably cause the boxes it comes in have a darker writing on the bottom for 'donuts' then for dunkin, so on the edge of my vision, my brain decided it was a dunkin donuts box. I asked the hubby to move it when he walked by and I couldn't say vcr, but I kept saying RCA.. cause again that's what my brain decided the upside down letters really said. that's what happens when I let it run away on its own and don't keep a rein on it.. its a very stubborn brain.. giggle.
and a pretty stubborn body too.. it is telling me it is lunch time.. but sadly im the only one left in the office cause everyone ran out to get cake. Yet another employee is leaving the company..
so.. wasting time.. isn't this fun. aren't you totally bored now?
I have a friend flying today.. its a short jaunt, shouldn't be a problem. but I never did like flying.. always a dangerous thing.. (even though its safer than all other travel - even still) Got another friend who is MIA.. I know the name and the city though.. should try to do a little sloothing and see what I come up with.. till later..
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 12:49 PM
