yea! i figured it out.. it was cause I wasn't putting the images for the templet in the archive folder.. doh! and I fixed the archive index too. Its plain and boring, but hey.. its there. also added something new, wishes.. a christmas /gift giving occasion list of sorts. people always ask me what I want for such and such a holiday, and I can never remember, so I figure when I am thinking of something I can put it there, and then poof.. a list for anyone who asks.. lol im too clever for my own good sometimes.. NOT..

but anyway.. its friday.. thankgoodness its also columbus day weekend.. I stayed home from work yesterday cause I had a bit of a fever. I fell like I have the flu big time, but my sinuses are clear.. which is very strange.. cause they rarely are. Im also not all that interested in food. My stomach isn't upset, (for once) but stuff just doesn't taste right.. which don't get me wrong - im not complaining, cause maybe this will help in that attempt to loose weight I have going on (exercising 5 times a week for 40 minutes) but things are just so strange for me.. I don't think I ever fully recovered from that thing that happened when I came home from cancun (I had some major stomach problems.... had similar problems when I came home from seattle but they went away after three weeks. It took six weeks for them to go away from the trip to mexico.. went and had an upper GI to see if anything was seriously wrong, but they didn't find anything) ANYWAY.. so im sitting around with the brain power of someone who's been awake for 72 hours, and probably the physical feelings of it too.. tired, achy, grumpy, shaking hands.. but oddly enough, not hungry. Its 1pm here, and I haven't even really started to think about lunch.. although, I have started to think about it now.. I was gonna go to subway.. But the idea of that now just seems wasteful.. *yawn* Id have another dew, but that would most likely make me jittery, which is one more thing I do not need..

But anyway, you don't need to listen to me rant about my trivial health problems.. but then again, why are you here?

hum.. wonder if I can change the font of my blogger to comic sans ms..

off to figure that out.. toodles
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 1:16 PM

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when
men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.

Psalm 37:7
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 10:23 AM

ok.. blogger is seriously screwing up here.. cause frankly, I can't screw a webpage up this badly myself.. lol.. Im trying to get my archives to publish, and at the moment they are, but the pages are a serious mess. At least I know what im doing ...sorta.. I'll republish them tomorrow
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 12:50 PM

yea.. I just heard from an old friend of mine who I was really worried about. One down, a couple more to go.. lol.. actually, im still hoping to catch up with a guy I know there is no way on earth Im ever going to find. I met him in Yahoo chat a few years ago, the night my father went into the hospital. I couldn't sleep, and I connected up to the net with my windows 3.1 and my 16mb of ram, and did my best to hang out.. even though I had no emotions, and I was pretty much colorless.. (long story, but im sure tray remembers those pathetic days) and I was trying to distract myself from thinking about the possiblities.. cause as they say, there really is no point in worrying, it either will happen or it wont, worrying wont change anything.. so distraction and avoidance are two tools I know well for those situations.

anyway.. I met this guy using the id of paulisherenow ... took me about an hour to figure out that his id actually said paul is here now, which is ironic/funny/comforting when I figured it out. Anyway, we chatted till the wee hours of the morning, and I crashed several times during the conversation, and each time I was scared he wouldn't be there when I got back, but he always was, until 3amish when I crashed as we were saying goodbye. I so wanted a way to keep in touch with him, but it wasn't to be. He's in my thoughts a lot. He was 35 and going back to school in california. he also was a member of a gym that someone famous was a member of.. but after three years that's about all I remember.. sigh. I'll never get to tell him how much his helping me get though that night meant to me, but some how, I think he knows. I wonder if he ever thinks of me...
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 12:04 PM

Hi.

I was logging into blogger.com and as usual, I check out some of the
recently updated blogs. I have always found something of interest in
them.

Today I found your site, and found your post about not having had a
'real kiss' and how your saving yourself for someone special.

I know this is going to sound like its coming from out of no where, and
pretty much it is. But I did just wanted to say 'good for you'. Let the
other kids laugh. It shows great charater to not only be where you are
right now regarding this, but also to admit it to your classmates, and
again to the world!!

*at a total loss of words for wanting to express my feelings*

Um.. this probably seems totally silly or absurd to you. However my
faith in God prompts me to do stupid things some times.. ok.. stupid to
me at the time, but rarely in the big picture.

well anyway. I am proud for you. and I think it is wonderful!

Connie

and her responce was..

Wow... seriously I was surprised to hear from someone about that blog entry I did ;) but I'm really glad you wrote.. so thanks. :)
Yeah the whole 'not having had a real kiss' issue just started to bug me since I recently found out I'm one of the "rare ones" to have not had such
a thing, and then to make matters worse (I'm not sure if you read the rest of that entry?) that same day it was "predicted" that I won't have any
children in the future... some spooky-dumb pencil thing they hang over your wrist.. which I think it's just stupid-stuff anyway.
But, hehe, got a little off topic there.. anyway.. I really do appreciate hearing from you.. and no I don't think you writing to me is "totally absurd"..
hehe, I always write to people about their blog entries too (and I always think they must think I'm crazy too ;D) anyway... yeah thanks for
writing.. it did help... sometimes I feel like I'm the only one out there in my own little 'world' and no one hears me, understands me... or I'm just a
complete odd-ball in society.. heehee.. so.. it helps to hear from people supporting things about 'who I am' when I feel like I'm all alone out there.

I found the part of your e-mail especially interesting when you said.. "However my
faith in God prompts me to do stupid things some times"... I'm the same way, and your e-mail is seriously something I needed to hear.
thaaaaaanks. :)

and you know what, her response was something I really needed to hear..
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 10:40 AM

This is a statement that was read over the PA system at the football
game at Roane County High School, Kingston, Tennessee, by school Principal,
Jody McLoud, on September 1, 2000. I thought it was worth sharing with the
world and hope you will forward it to all your friends. It shows clearly just
how far this country has gone in the wrong direction.

"It has always been the custom at Roane County High School football
games, to say a prayer and play the National Anthem, to honor God and Country.
Due to a recent ruling by the Supreme Court, I am told that saying a
Prayer is a violation of Federal Case Law. As I understand the law at this
time, I can use this public facility to approve of sexual perversion and call
it, "an alternate lifestyle," and if someone is offended, that's OK.
I can use it to condone sexual promiscuity, by dispensing condoms and
calling it, "safe sex." If someone is offended, that's OK.
I can even use this public facility, to present the merits of killing an
unborn baby, as a "viable means of birth control." If someone is
offended, no problem. I can designate a school day as, "Earth Day" and involve students in activities to worship religiously and praise the goddess, "Mother
Earth," and call it "ecology." I can use literature, videos and presentations in the classroom that depict people with strong, traditional Christian convictions as, "simple
minded" and "ignorant" and call it, "enlightenment."

However, if anyone uses this facility to honor God, and to ask Him to
bless this event with safety and good sportsmanship, then Federal Case Law is
violated. This appears to be inconsistent at best, and at worst, diabolical.
Apparently, we are to be tolerant of everything and anyone, except God
and His Commandments.

Nevertheless, as a school principal, I frequently ask staff and students
to abide by rules with which they do not necessarily agree. For me to do
otherwise would be inconsistent at best, and at worst, hypocritical. I
suffer from that affliction enough unintentionally. I certainly do not
need to add an intentional transgression. For this reason, I shall "Render unto Caesar that which is Caesar's," and refrain from praying at this time. However, if you feel inspired to honor, praise and thank God, and ask Him,
in the name of Jesus, to bless this event, please feel free to do so. As
far as I know, that's not against the law----yet."

One by one, the people in the stands bowed their heads, held hands with
one another, and began to pray. They prayed in the stands. They prayed in the team huddles. They prayed at the concession stand, and they prayed in the announcer's box.
The only place they didn't pray was in the Supreme Court of the United
States of America - the seat of "justice" in the "one nation, under
God."

Somehow, Kingston, Tennessee remembered what so many have forgotten..We
are given the Freedom OF Religion, not the Freedom FROM Religion. Praise God
that His remnant remains! Celebrate Jesus in 2001!
Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of Me, I will be ashamed of you before
my Father."
If you are not ashamed, pass this on, but only if you mean it.
Yes, I do Love God. He is my source of existence and Savior.
He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be
nothing, but with Him, I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me.
Phillipians 4:13
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 10:07 AM

well connie is back on her blogger, must mean something else is stuck up her arse. sigh. You know, sometimes I think there is just something so terribly wrong with me because I can't stand some of the 'conventional' things that go on in a group of people. Today, as in previous groups, I ran into people refering to private jokes, in public, and refusing to say any more about the referance than it was a 'private joke' That is so unbelievably rude in my opinion, but yet people do it all the freakin time. why?? don't they know how exclusionatory that is (is exclusionatory a word??) makes people feel they aren't important enough to be considered. sigh. Come on people.. if its private, KEEP IT THAT WAY! *mutter mutter mutter*

ok. rant over.. back to the mundane stuff that is my life. I think im coming down with the flu. Ive been achy, and been having a hard time regulating my body temature. The coughing and sneezing is nothing new.. seeing as I suffer from allergies. thing is I have felt this way for a couple of days with out getting any major symtoms... so maybe its not the flu. probably just over tired for one reason or another. Had some majorly loud dreams last night. *loud dreams - ones that wake you up and you have a vivid memory of them for at least a while* One I remember was I was walking home in snow/icy conditions, with a sled carrying my stuff. I was walking down town in my home town, actually walking out of town near a church that I used to go for girl scounts, but burnt down last year. anyway, the sled fell into an icy puddle, and I was desprate to save my camera.. I had another one where I was part of the team looking for the people who bombed the WTC.. but that one is easy to explain since I fell asleep to dateline last night. There were a couple of others. I wish I could remember them. They are right on the outskirts of my brain.. one of those things you recall the feelings of the dream, but nothing concrete.

I actually have some pretty funky dreams. Dreamed I was a guy once, who fell in love with a girl who was rich, so I went off to make my fortune, only to come back to town and find out she died. Not only did she die though, she was decapitated in a freak elevator accident. I was talking to a friend on a pier at the time, and dropped the diamond earrings I brought for her, and I woke up cause I was diving under water to find them and was running out of breath in the dream.

I had a dream once about horrible service at a resteraunt ive never been to. I had another about walking around my home town. The weirdest dream though was the dream I had about my first sexual experince, that predated my first sexual experince that was dead on to my .... you get the picture.. lol. the feelings were exact. very strange.

work: work is.. um.. not going well. I think they are going to be trying to figure out how to get rid of my department. They are creating a web interface for the webhosting portion of the company, and taking away most customer interaction. which is good in a way, but horribly bad in the way they are doing it. "TPTB" have gotten a number of bugs up their butts on how things 'should be' and go after that with a vengance, only to find out that isn't how real life works, and they get burned big time. I don't think i really want to be around to pick up those pieces, but I don't know if I want to go search for another job. I hate change. should probably just sell my cool car and be a housewife. actually, I need a job or something to keep myself sane. Wish I could go back and volunteer at the animal shelter. Nice thing about animals, they have no idea how to stab you in the back. (where on earth did that come from) (well its true at any rate)

so.. do I sell my really cool car and buy a clunker so I don't have to worry about having to pay for it, or do I sell my really cool car to buy another cool car? sigh.. wish I could see the future sometimes.. (on the whole im glad I don't)

right now, all I really want is a nice long nap.. *seriously considers taking tomorrow off*
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 3:26 PM