man.. you can really end up in some strange places by starting off on the blogger home page. I found Wil Wheaton's blogger thingie.. its kinda interesting, kinda fun. I never did like the charater of wes crusher, because he was a bit to much of a pansy boy, but I really did have fun at his site recounting his trials at the conventions. Was a bit put off by his charaterization of wiliam shatner, but I heard he was a bit of a prima donna, and im sure in his position I wouldn't like him much either..

Found another site from a woman who was five blocks away from the WTC on 9/11. the first plane flew right over her building. She was obviously freaked, but suprisingly calm. Its been the feeling that Ive been feeling from the stories and what not that I have read.. obviously freaked, but moving on with life. I stopped paying attention to the news in general about all of this.. which is how Im coping, but in reading wil's site, im kinda freaked with the goverment's reaction to that day. Laws are working their way through the system to be passed that will limit your freedom to privacy. Personally, I don't really care too much about my privacy, which is probably a really big mistake since I am admittedly nieve for the most part. There is a bit tado about my most favorite gadet Tivo. People are all pissy that tivo is collecting their personal data on what they watch. BFD.. so somewhere, on some machine, someone could possibly access that I watch GL, some news, some sci-fi, and the popular dramas and comedies, and on occasion a late night raunchy film. So what. Im sure they want to know I go to walmart to buy seltzer water and soda, and some snacks, and most automotive stuff, and some clothes. I do my grocery shopping at shaws now. and I have no idea what to get my family for christmas. Wanna read my email too? Im subscribed to a few joke newsletters, two of which are PG-13 to R rated. A couple of internet/tech newsletters. a couple of cartoon newsletters (adam and dilbert, and a friskies cat cartoon thing) I get emails regularly from one friend, and periodically from a handful of others. I had a kibosh bar for breakfast, and some soup for lunch. I have nothing to hide. If the goverment wants to know what im doing, that's ok with me.

I know the problems come in when I go to my doctors, and if perchance my doctor finds out I have cancer or aids or some other long drawn out disease, and they tell my employeer, and they don't want to risk having me around the office due to a most likely lower effecency, or they tell my health care provider, and they suddenly decide it is a pre-exsiting condition. and if the man (my new moniker for the goverment) is going to gather all this information on me, they should garuntee that they wont share it. But then again in this day and age of hackers and lapse in securties, and sensitive information getting out, you know you can't be garunteed that. *knows that all too well*

so.. where is the fine line here. gathering data on people is a good idea to protect the country, but this country is founded on freedoms and civil liberties (I really should get an accurate discription of 'civil liberties'.. when I did a search in google, I came up with a site that was regarding protecting your privacy and financial information)....

founded, freedoms, civil liberties, etc.. but here we are talking about closing the borders, spying on our own people just cause we know there are a few bad apples in the bunch that actually need spying on. all seems anti american to me. to me the man should be like a landlord, not a 'big brother' I'll admit, Ive never been that patriotic. I said the pledge of allegiance once.. (figured that was enough, and I was exorcising my freedom of speach by not saying it) in school. I haven't run out and gotten a US flag to fly. Im not wearing a ribbon, but I do pray almost daily for God to watch over this country and to keep it from falling into the pit of dispair that it seems to want desprately to fall into.

but. Im a no body, with a nobody job, married to a guy who works for an almost nobody company, we live in nowhere's ville. Im not worried.

That, and I have my God. And as long as I trust in Him, then nothing here really matters. (knows that isn't said right, but I can't seem to come up with better words)
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 3:26 PM

well linda finally got Sarah to come out.. bout time.. giggle..

Me.. im bored stiff.. I so need either a challenging job, or something to challenge me while I get paid obscene amounts of money to do absolutely nothing.. I really do need to take a class of some sort to wake up my brain. Its half asleep most of the time.

*notes.. 10 minutes left in the work day*

hum.. what can I talk about in 10 minutes.. you'd be surprised.. Im quite the talker sometimes.. I used to be able to write pages and pages of nothing when I was in highschool..

well everyone here at work is goofing off.. we are talking about getting carded and looking your age. Ive looked about the same age since 14-15.. ok.. well in the past few years Ive gone up a year or two.. which I am not complaining about.. I just wish I would stop getting acne.. *rolls eyes*

six minutes.. oooh..

someone just came in and told us that the company is going to GIVE its employees the left over equiptment.. since we had such massive layofs, we have a whole heck of a lot of left over computers and what not. Im kinda shocked they are going to give them away.. so not like them. *raises eyebrow* you get to put your name on something, and if more than one person wants it, they are going to draw names.. this company is so cheep sometimes.. this is almost totally shocking.

four minutes..

now we are talking about michael jordan.. and how he's donating his million bucks for his first season to the WTC relief.. I don't like professional sports.. but Ive always enjoyed watching him play.. I don't believe in professional sports.. why? cause they diefy the players (they act like gods). I think its sick. I think its pretty sick regarding the amount of money they pay these guys too. I can understand their reasoning, doesn't mean i have to agree with it.

two minutes..

well.. I guess im going to publish this, and start closing things down so I can go home..

*waves*
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 5:04 PM

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to share our good news with all of you. At 7:37am Sarah Juliet Lila May made here grand appearence. She weighed in at 9lbs,
5.7ozs. She is 21.75 inches long and has APGARS (he says pretending he knows what that means) of 10 and 10.

Mom and baby are doing well. Mom was a real trooper and I am so very proud of her and our new little girl.

Anyone wishing to date my daughter must submit a written request accompanied by three letters of reference, at least one of which must be
from God. These must be submitted no later then Sept. 30/01. Failure to do so will make all requests hence forth null and void. These conditions
will remain in effect as long as I can get away with this... or until I can come up with a more fool proof system.


Thanks
Bill
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 4:52 PM

Looking at the last entry, I realized I will have to stop saying things to the effect of that it has been a while.. :) Not sure why I don't write more.. I like writting.. and Ive actually had something to say about the past few days.. oh well..

Ok.. lets see.. Been trying to break out of my mold of spending all waking hours on line, and actually did a few things recently. Went to the Cumberland Fair on Monday evening. We were going to go over the weekend, but they had a demolition derby on Monday night, and since the hubby and I have never seen one, we figured that would be new and different.. which it was. Was slightly disappointing cause they kept pulling their punches, but regardless, they did some severe damage to one another. A number of the cars left the arena with no trunks.. cause they were smooshed beyond recognition. Apparently there are rules that you can't hit the drivers side of the other car, and you have to hit another car with in x amount of seconds to still be in the race. I found myself laughing, and rooting for particular drivers. The fair its self was only kind of interesting. It was a drizzly night, so there weren't that many people there, and there were no good craft booths.. just some junk booths. The rides were all carnies.. although there was one that was new to me.. it was a handgliding type of ride.. you laid down on the ride, and it flew you in circles at a 45 degree angle to the ground. I should probably take a moment here and tell you/remind you all that I worked at an amusement park for a number of years.. so its all basically nostalgia for me.. We were intending to eat there, but since it wasn't really a comunity event, there was only carnie food there, so we got some fried dough. Which ended up being ok with me, because my stomach was acting up again. The doctors poked around and they say my stomach is ok, but it hurts way too much..

but anyway.. last night we went over to an old friend of the hubbies in the next town over. Tim was a groomsman at our wedding and is now married himself to Katie. They have two small children, a girl age four and a boy age one. They were really cute, and ended up cuddling on my lap for a while. sigh. I do like kids, I just can't imagine taking on that kind of responsiblity full time. I also know Id be just like my own mother, and there is no way I can make anyone suffer what I went through growing up. I should clarify here. I had a pretty idelic childhood compaired to a lot of people, but my mother never did accept my individuality, nor did she accept 90% of what I did. ok maybe 90% is kinda high, Im sure she LOVED to brag about her daughter who was in band, and drama, and art club, and on the honor roll, and in the national honors society, and got high SAT marks and amazed people with her IQ and aptitude tests, but I almost never felt accepted by her. There was always SOMETHING wrong with me.. which was pretty amazing since I didn't drink and I didn't smoke, and at 16 started dating the guy who I ended up marrying, and who my parents absolutely adore.. Guess its that whole oil /water night/day thing.. to this day Id just assume not spend time with my mom. she still has a way of making me feel like what I want doesn't matter.. point in fact, this quilt she's making me. She brought me out to the store so 'I could pick out colors' for it. Well she totally blew off the fabrics I liked, and gave me choices to pick from. She also asked me to pick out a pattern I liked, which I did, and guess what.. she didn't use.

ugh.. I could go on all day about things like this.. but you know what, it only upsets me, and ruins my day, and I wont give her that power. :) So back to the kids.. oh wait.. I finished that one.. they are cute, they cuddled with me.. I liked it.. Katie made a pretty darn good dinner too.. pork tenderloin.. and she made cressent rolls with little bits of cream cheese in them. She said that Tim's mom used to make them that way.. they are pretty darn good.. and I think I'll try making them that way next time.

Tonight is the premire of both The West Wing and Enterprise Fortunately the Enterprise show is also showing on Sunday night. I think Im going to wait to see it. A club intown Portland is showing it on their big screen TV, and we were talking about going to see it there, but I am tired, and I know that due to the crowd Id probably miss all the really good lines.

Well im hungry.. Im going to run across the street and see if anything speaks to me. Its a grocery store, and sometimes they have nice bakery cookies. I like bakery cookies.. *sneeze**sneeze* hum.. should probably buy some allergy medicine too..
Ranted by ~*Connie*~ at 1:10 PM