First off, a disclaimer, I stole this HTML script from an SOB, David Y. Fang. Don't bother going to his page, it is not worth the trip. Besides, for some reason I have not yet determined, I am angry with him, so you have my permission to go spam him.

  I'll be doing some philosophy in this chapter... actually, usually what I write about in these reused kilobytes are in some way connected to things that have been happening to me as of late.

  I've known many people which has "Friends and Family" as the top of their "Priorities in Life" list. Others have been "Love," "Academics," et cetera. Mine, however, has always been different, PRIDE. Yes, yes, I know it sounds egotistical, but I have never doubted that my ego is large (except for as of late...). My uncanny sense of good luck only seems to fuel this.

  I have no doubts that I have been spoiled by the ability to make friends without a problem. I have made and lost so many friends throughout the years that I never expect any to last long. Ironically, I have known my best friend for over 11 years, and yet I still feel this way. Such contradictions just don't make sense, but why do I feel nonchalant over such things? As this has happened several times, it is best explained through example. Friends (and ex-friends) have all came up to me for advice, or just an ear to hear their woes of a breakup, not necessarily a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. Although not helpful, but true, I have always said that once one take on a relationship, one should have known the risks involved in it. Don't take anything without guarantees in it without knowing the risks. Caveat emptor live by it. Of course, my definition of "guarantee" doens't include implications, but straight and direct. The obvious include weddings, pendants, contracts, etc.

  I've taken the famous Keirsey Temperment Test. In short, it determines personalities in 4 basic catagories. Feel free to take it and compare it with my results:
  E (Extrovert) - 09
  I (Introvert) - 01

  S (Sensons  ) - 13
  N (iNtuitive) - 07

  T (Thinkers ) - 20
  F (Feelers  ) - 00

  J (Judgers  ) - 18
  P (Perceiver) - 02

Final Result - ESTJ - Life's Administrators

  In more on my defense, why should friends and family be more important than myself and my pride? I do selfless services, and random acts of kindness, but because I take myself in high importance DOES NOT mean that I am selfish. Think of it this way, remember the Persian Gulf War? It might have been a very popular war (meaning Americans supported it), however critics said that America was in trouble, so why should we support other countries? Why should we help other people out if we aren't in a good condition ourselves? Back to this topic, there is no way I can help other people the way they should be helped if I am in no condition to help. In a nutshell, by helping myself, I am only helping others.

  What about when I have troubles? And need someone to listen to me? Rarely is that the case, for I prefer to keep my problems to myself. People have enough problems in thier life, don't want to deal with others, and the only thing they care about from others is ideas. I provide both, how else can I in any other attitude? YET, there are sometimes I do need to tell someone. What do I do then? Tell an arbitrary person usually. Someone that may or not know me, but definately not the other person(s) involved. That way no bias opinion is formed. I find it the absolutely best way, and probably have told most of my general troubles (excluding relationship ones) to counselors than with friends.

  Does this mean that I take my friends any lower? Of course not. I am a stickler for efficiency, so why should I tell the same story several times to friends when I can just get professional and unbiased advice from voicing the story once? I don't have many secrets to hide from the world, but some are PREFERABLY remained a secret, at least for a while. Time will make it seem less important, just as how the governments sealed information, such as the JFK assassination.

  Well, I'm trying to get my ego repaired, it will take a while, but I'm doing what I can on my own, and I don't ask for any favors or to win any popularity contests. All I ask is for everyone to just leave me alone (I will make Gauss questions an exception, however). (Gee, this is going to be one swell birthday...)