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5/9/2005     Monday     Sunny
Whoa, saw Matt Carbonaro twice on campus today, that's a REAL rare occurence.

5/7/2005     Saturday     Sunny
Happy Birthday Jessica, too bad I don't get to spend time with her on her birthday... That makes me a shitty boyfriend, huh? Yeah, I'd say so. I hope she had funny going out with her mom, playing with her pets, and seeing her friends...
Instead, I spent half the day doing dishes at Emerald Bay, and then couple hours doing my project for social cognition. And that word document I was using kinda disappeared. I thought it's on the U drive, I hope I will find it...
Finally played some Devil May Cry 3 with Justin. Pretty awesome playing the game on Dante must Die mode. I just run around not getting hit and he tried to go after all the demons... We have yet to finish the game on that difficulty. And guess what, the hard difficulty had became quite easy after spending 5 hours on Dante must Die.

5/6/2005     Friday     Sunny
So... tired... Did I not sleep enough last night, or the night before? I don't even remember. It feels so weird, I really thought that I had enough sleep, but as it turns out, I really don't have enough sleep.
So worried about classes... so far behind in my psych classes!! no good... but, graduation is actually feeling closer now. Only need 25 more upper division credits besides my psych requirements, and then one more natural science class.

5/5/2005     Thursday     Sunny
I ran into Andrea in the woods today, wohoo! We were doing a "campus tour" for Geology lab today and that Biology class Andrea is TA for were out in the wood too. What a place to run into someone though.
Started working at Emerald Bay yesterday... Frankly, I still don't dig the whole work my ass off in a dishroom scene. I think I'm above that. Oh well, money is good.

4/26/2005     Tuesday     Sunny again :)
Weekend: GREAT!! Spent the whole weekend with Jessica. I don't think I will regret getting to know her better. That's good. Unbelievable how nice she is. She spends time with me even though I'm just sitting in the library or computer lab doing research or writing my paper while she really doesn't have nearly as much work as I have to do.
The Killers Concert: It was so awesome. New songs are good, their drummer is funny. Lead singer is funny to look at (he dances funny). Tegan and Sara is awesome too (they opened for The Killers). And I bought their CD. It's cute, they are like the female version of what The Killers have in their lyrics.

4/23/2005     Saturday     just Rained
Research, research, write paper... don't even have time to study for exam. Jessica's been with me all day. We were bad... But it's so nice of her to spend time with me even though I'm working on my project. Well, she kinda have to do paper too. Just talked to Candace, first time since I don't know when. And they are damn right, girls are indeed EVIL. What's worse is I don't understand their intentions, cool. I really don't know what is up with me lately and saying things that I shouldn't have said.

4/22/2005     Friday     Sunny all week!
This is weird. I woke up and things still sucks much like the night before... didn't sleep too well because, ugh. But after a tall white mocha with caramel, things are mellow... and I mean mellow. It's like what they say about the weird looking mushrooms... those funky colored and shaped ones, you know? Too bad I never had first had experience with those. Well, synthetic psychoactive drugs are bad.

4/21/2005     Thursday     Sunny
Hmmm. Shitty mood day, I don't even know why... well, I think I kinda do know. I guess I'm having shitting mood because I can't resolve my problems. I wanted to go screaming... I really did. Haven't had that feeling for awhile. Now that I'm thinking about screaming, I feel bad about feeling that angry. Well, mostly for myself...
Yeah, I'm quite self-centered. Not really in a narcissistic personality disorder way, but more of a histrionic personality disorder way.

4/20/2005     Wednesday     Sunny
Talked to Doug Taylor today, and he got to talk with Justin and Robert and Jessica too. Yea, he got passed around - phone whore. Hehe. Why I called Doug? well, I haven't talked to him forever and I beat Devil May Cry 3 on hard, finally. I freaking kick ass.
Oh oh, Spoadie night at Andrea's. Man, those were some weird tasting fruits. They tasted like hard rum. But that was all good. This is one REAL hyper day.

4/19/2005     Tuesday     Sunny!
Tuesday is no fun. Meeting and class and work and long long breaks. Except that I beat Mission 19 in DMC3. WOHOO!! Now I have one more to go to beat the game on hard. I didn't want to do anything today, so bad. Getting up for the SM meeting was like running miles. And then going to class at 10:30 was still horrible... My motivation is disappearing.
Looks like my guess yesterday was right... I'm not trying hard enough.

4/18/2005     Monday     Sunny!
Um... I don't even know what happened... Anger. I don't know why... Did I not try hard enough?
People use other people, it's all good as long as there's mutual benefits... But I still hate being manipulated. Now that I know I'm not the brightest kind of person...
She says, "um... you need s shower"... And then another she says, "You smell okay, it's funny you're all self-conscious." Mmm... ok, whose words do I trust?

4/17/2005     Sunday     Sunny!
Hide hide hide. I don't know what I think still. Hide hide hide, hide me from me. hehe. I don't know what anyone thinks. I'm completely oblivious, hehe. Hide hide hide, It's time to hide and play game all day long.

4/16/2005     Saturday     Super Rainy then Super Bright
The drive home last night was scary scary... almost fell asleep at couple of occasions.
What a long day today. But it was all good though. Well, almost all good. It started out with Fleur de Lys Spring Fling Tournament and I was kicking ass even though I was fencing on an empty stomach. I drew really close to the E2005 fencer (Dan) in the semi-finals only to lose 13-15. Then I defeated a D2002 fencer from RCFC (Katherine) and got 3rd place. Well, at least I got some recognition.
After fencing, barely had time to change (had to wear my fencing soccer socks all day), ran over to Chinatown for dim sum with the peeps. And then off to bowling. Saw Kelly! She met us up in Edmonds(?) I haven't seen her for ages. Bowling was funny, everyone taking pictures all the time. Then off to Balliards, there is acutally a place just for balliards, so nice. The only down side is that they don't seperate smokers from non-smokers. Ivan's good at playing pool.
Dinner time at Korean resturant. It's funny, who sits next to who. Just a thought, I'm sure someone had said that to me before as well. Went to drink bubble tea after dinner and place chinese checkers. That game is still fun, but not as much as I remember playing it when I was younger. Maybe we just had too many players, or the board is too small.
Jessica called when we were at the bubble tea place. Crystal was looking at me funny when I turned around to look at the peeps, and she turned away right when I looked. I really hope my guess on her emotion at the moment was wrong. I don't think that emotion should be there. Oops, got side tracked... Jessica had been so excited about Demolay and then she was saying she wasn't having that great of a time. I really don't know how's that working out. Perhaps the lack of oxygen because of that dress has something to do with it. Hope she got to say hi to all her old friends and buddies.
She was saying that she's worried about my "close" friends(s) still... Not a whole lot I can do about it either, can I?
Speaking of friends and more on Thursday's topic... friends use you, yeah, they do. But who cares, right? Umm... that kind of thinking had gotten me into trouble numerous time. Maybe I should change it.

4/14/2005     Thursday     Sunny
This entry really is for me. Stop reading if it starts to make knots in your head, because that would mean it's not meant for you. I really want to talk it over, except that there's no appropriate person(s) to talk to. Yep. All the people I'd usually talk to are all involved and all potentially have self-interest motives. What's worse is that I can't even talk to this journal.
It's been a few days since Sunday already but I still feel like things are not how they're supposed to be. But it's not like I know how things are supposed to be anyways. It's almost like growing hair and having knots... The longer the hair grows, the more knots you get. Nothing bad happened at all since then but matters seem to still complicates in my head as more time passes by. I'm so not used to having "girls problem"... In part it's such a long time since last time I had.

4/11/2005     Monday     Sunny, then it started to Rain
Long day, and it's gonna get even longer, yay. Okay, things are messed up and I don't know what the hell I'm doing with all these people involved. For the most part, it doesn't seem like I give a damn. Grand example of my dear father, he's gone missing since last Thursday and I haven't even bothered to check in on where the hell he went. Yeah, I care that much for a first degree blood relative. What does it say about me caring for the rest of the population? Maybe I've been wrong in believing that I'm a nice decent person all these years when in fact I'm just this anti-social psychotic afterall. And to top it off, I'm no good at it. I can just go ahead and still write everything right here knowing who reads it and all the consequences that will follow.

4/10/2005     Sunday     Raining all day long
Work was bad today even though everything went quite smoothly... But I'm soooooo tired!! Not enough sleep and hell of dancing...
Sakura Con Summary: That was fun times. Gotta do it again next year. Drag all day long and had about 4 pictures taken of me by strangers. Of course not nearly as good as Sammy, she was getting her picture taken of all the time. We were so tired all the time though. Sammy and I fell asleep on each other so many times during Cosplay that Emily thought it was funny. It was nice to see so many people with super fancy costumes. One guy had a Dante from Devil May Cry 3 costume, but too bad I didn't get a picture of that. Sad things: Sammy didn't get to get on the Anime Dating Game and I didn't get to play in the Super Smash Bro Tournament.
Kareoke Battle: I made out with 2 guys. I heard A LOT of excited screaming from the audience when we were locking lips... Sammy confessed that she was one of the screamers, I think she was really getting off from that whole guy kissing thing... And they all thought naked boy is hot too. Besides that, Sammy and Emily were dirty dancing with the MC guy. Oh, and they booed me offstage when I sang Billy Joel's Piano Man, *sigh* I think they actually turned off my mic so that the audience couldn't hear me sing.
Emily's Toga party: Too many guys... perhaps? This John dude (Emily's friend) totally remembered me from I don't know when, I think it was the last time I went to a party at her place. He's just impressive with the memory thing. Emily's hilarious drunk. That was like the first time ever I saw her drunk. I got to play Sammy's guardian when Binare (spelling?) hit on her for the third time. Good thing he left after that. *sigh* some people really do have oversized ego and they never know when to stop.

4/5/2005     Tuesday     Dark, and Rainy
Hmmm... Jason woke me up this morning... Just like good ole days. Woke me up and asked me to work. They are offering me good conditions, real good ones too. 40-hours week starting next week, or 2 weeks from now. I don't know if I can handle 40 hours per week plus school though, that's the problem. Looking at the school schedule, I can probably do 30 hours a week for them at most. Getting 30 hour a week from them is 300 bucks a week, that's good income now. Hmmm...
And then there was the "Sexual Harassment" training thing last night, and Jessica said we can't date. Well, that's a dumb idea. I can quit my job so that I can date.
Oh, Jessica, silly silly. She thought Sammy was my ex and I spent a night at my ex's place on Saturday. But she didn't think I cheated though. Weird. *sigh* she still thinks I'm toying with her...

4/5/2005     Tuesday     Gonna be Sunny
I'm so tired... Hopefully I'll break my streak of no sleep tonight and get some sleeping done. It'll be nice for me...

4/3/2005     Sunday     Sunny, I guess
um. Kinda tired. Didn't sleep much last night (or this morning). Guess it was worth it. Got caught up on some news and stuff. News, it's hard to decide whether I want to care or do I not? But hey, I got to know Sammy more. More bit of personal history. I really didn't think I would fell asleep this morning, guess I must have been pretty tired.
I finally beat Devil May Cry 3 on normal difficulty!! Now I can move on with my life, or better yet, beat it on hard.